HI FRIENDS!!!!
Hope everybody’s Monday has been super. Mine was okay. My boss felt bad that she had made us come in on a holiday, so we took a really long shopping break (about 2 1/2 hours). That was sweet. We actually went to Wild Oats (my first trip). I found the CHOCOLOVE 70% chocolate bar. I’m so excited!!! But threw it in the freezer as soon as I got home. I’m going to make it so I have to PLAN to eat it and not do it in the heat of the moment. Also bought some carob peanut butter out of the grinder machine. Even though it looks ABSOLUTELY disgusting, it tastes pretty good. I just take a little on the tip of my spoon and savor every morsel.
ORANGE---I STILL cannot find the Wiley’s. Checked a bigger Krogers this weekend and WO today and everybody keeps looking at me like I’ve got three heads. Would you mind picking up a couple of different packets for me and I can get them from you in March???? If you want I’ll send you the $$$ now. Just let me know how much they are. I told the Kroger produce guy that the Atlanta Krogers has them. He said that if I could bring in an empty container, he’d see about ordering them. I can’t understand that Krogers is based in Cincinnati, but we don’t get all the good stuff here. Weird. Anyways, I just had to vent to you and then beg for your kindness. LOL!
CHERI & CATHY---So sorry to hear about your grandmother’s passing. Mine died in 1985 and I still miss her terribly. My prayers are with you and your family.
DEB---Did you think I was being a smart *** when I asked if you thought Sharon’s presence was a help? I sure hope you didn’t. Because that’s definitely NOT where I was going. Please accept my apology if my thoughts came out wrong. I wish you’d start to feel better soon. This seems to be dragging on. Did you make an appt today? I’m not for taking antibiotics all the time, but in a case like this, honey, you need some. Is your fever still hanging around???
JOY---Your cookies sound WONDERFUL!!! Sorry to hear about the numbness. That must be really irritating. I have this thing where I wake up inthe middle of the night because my hand has fallen asleep. At least if I shake it, it goes away, but yours is hanging around. Not a pleasant feeling. I’m hoping you get some sweet relief from it real soon.
OVERCOME---Thanks so much for your comforting words about cancer. You are so right. It did used to be a death sentence, but now there is so much that can be done. I haven’t talked to her today. May call after I finish here. She’s such a great person with a full and vital life. It’s going to be so hard for her to be out of commission for a while during that first series of chemo. But we don’t even know if it’s spread anywhere (into the lymph nodes or centenal nodes) yet. So I’m not sure when that procedure will be.
Thanks again. You’re a doll for thinking of her and also for comforting me.
VIV---Hang in there, girl! I’m so glad you get on and tell us when you are in a bad mood. Winter can be very depressing. I can relate to that one in a BIG way. If you’re having breakthrough bleeding, you should call your doctor. (Are you sure you didn’t miss a pill? I take mine right before bed and I’ve missed a few times and then had some spotting.) Did you just start taking a new kind of BCP? That was another reason I had some bleeding before . . . until I found the right one that worked for me. I sure hope you have a better day tomorrow. Remember . . . there has to be somebody further north than you who’s feet are ten times as cold as yours. Smile to yourself when you think about that poor person and how you are sitting in a better position than him. (Does this sound like a load of bull??? Part of me thinks “yes”, but then the other part thinks it’s a weak attempt to make you smile or laugh.) I’m trying to think of a funny story, but nothing is popping into mind. Do you watch Will & Grace? I think the two side-kicks are pretty funny. Can you tell I’m grasping at straws to think of something funny. I think I’m getting pretty pathetic, so I’ll just stop for now and say I’m thinking about you and trying to send you some smiles telepathically. Are they making it?????
I feel very fat and bloated today. TOM is just around the corner. I sure hope that’s it. I’m fearing the WIW. Today’s eating was somewhat better. I’ve decided that I MUST start writing everything down. I had done that for so many months in Weight Watchers and was so sick of doing it. But I realize that I am not keeping track very well. So I decided today to start keeping record and eating the correct portion size.
I have a small thought for Motivational Monday. I’m re-reading The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz. He says that there are four agreements to live our lives by in order to achieve personal freedom. In a nutshell they are: 1. Be impeccable with your word--meaning always speak the truth and always speak from love. 2. Never take anything personally--this part was VERY eye-opening for me. 3. Never make any assumptions--Making an assumption comes from poor communication and we live like our assumption is the truth when all it really is is something we’ve created in our very busy minds. 4. Always do your best--this is the one that I can really key in on about losing weight. He says that if we ALWAYS do our best then we do not need to feel guilty or judge ourselves. He says that our best is different from day to day. If we’re sick, our best won’t be what it would be on a totally healthy day. If we are super busy and pulled in 8 million directions, our best will be different. Here’s a great quote “Doing your best, you are going to live your life intensely. You are going to be productive, you are going to be good to yourself, because you will be giving yourself to your family, to your commuity, to everything. But it is the action that is going to make you feel intensely happy. When you always do your best, you take action. Doing your best is taking the action because you love it, not because you’re expecting a reward. Most people do exactly the opposite: They only take action when they expect a reward, and they don’t enjoy the action. And that’s the reason they don’t do their best.” Kim talking now . . . For me, this is why I’m faltering with this wonderful way of eating. I am focusing every single day on the reward (getting to goal) when it would be better for me to focus on the act of getting myself happy & healthy. Sometimes I feel like each day is a substitute teacher and I’m going to try and get by with as much stuff as possible and see what the scales say. I am NOT focusing or loving the action. I’m just loving the reward. And for me, I don’t think there will be a reward unless I fall in love with the action. Hope this makes sense and isn’t too heavy or boring or “out there.” It’s a great book!
Hope all is well with everyone. Talk to you later.
Kim