Hello everyone,
I am so shy that I do not even feel comfortable posting in a forum. But it seems like everyone here is pretty nice, and I need to have some kind of accountability.
After growing up on unhealthy yo-yo diets, I was in pretty good shape for a while. Then I went through a divorce and remarried, and my weight ballooned up like crazy; I kept telling myself it was temporary but now it has been three years.

It doesn't feel temporary anymore. It's like a nightmare. I used to literally wake up from nightmares where I had gained all the weight back. Well... now it's a reality.
I am miserable and so hard on myself. I refuse to buy new clothes and I can wear hardly anything that I own. I need to lose a lot of weight, and sometimes I feel like I am just completely incapable. I'm so disappointed in myself, and for the last year or so I've had a lot of failure in trying to retrain myself with good habits.
I've never joined a forum before, so I don't know all the posting etiquette. But I'd like to make a goal that I have to talk about and be a little uncomfortable with - I think the accountability might help.
I'd like to lose about 10lbs this month. I have lost more than that before (without resorting to unhealthy habits) so I think it's possible. I think. I like multiples of 5 so I'm going to put just a little more.
If I lost this weight I would feel like there's a light at the end of the tunnel. I've been "stuck" in the 170s for a long time.
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March 1: 176.2
March 31 GOAL: 165
Final Goal: 115