Just a quickie to let you know that my sister is doing fine. Her lumps turned out to be swollen lymph nodes... possibly an old infection? It was such a relief for all of us. Thank you so much for your prayers and good wishes.
Ellis-AWESOME thats why we don't worry till weget there
Kat-
Working a 12 hour shift here. Blech, just another hour and I have all of tommorow off. You know I consistently misspell that word. Maybe I will wrap it up to a Chris thing, you know the part of my brainwhere calculus is stored like I remember Very clean and very abstinent just today.
So what does everyone have planned for this weekend? I have a graduation to attend today, I am hoping to sneak out of the party long enough to go to meeting, but that will be a cross that bridge when we get there choice. The hafta's are to buy groceries, but not much we are still pretty stocked from last week. I would like to hit 2 meetings tommorow but thats another I will see. Finishing up my assignments from my therapist and my sponsor are high on my list. Picking up my house. Maybe go to the zoo? I haven't seen the new gorrilla habitat. My personal "me" things are
-yoga today and Sunday
-finding time for prayer
-turning my life over to HP ODAT
"My doctor told me that my lumps are enlarged lymph nodes and that they are
normal! (he also told me to stop diagnosing myself on the internet). Your
messages made me feel good and teary. Thank you so much for sharing your
positive energy with me. Ellis and I had a nice time together throughout
my mania. We bought trashy magazines and beautiful towels and she showed
me a fantastic green coverup makeup that disguises my red nose.
Please know how much I appreciate your support.
Sarah"
Just got back from the gym. In serious need of some coffee... back later... love you all...
Thanks for sharing your sister's note, Ellis! I bet the internet is the bane of doctors. My SIL got all freaked out during her 3rd pregnancy and her doctor said the same thing.
Chris: back at ya
Tonight we're going to dinner with friends to celebrate our birthdays. Then to our place for game night. Not sure what else the weekend holds.
My signature has changed. I fell into a fog over the past few days. I have no idea what triggered it or why. It was pretty odd (or maybe not so much so, really) that some other destructive behaviors came roaring back when I fell off the abstinence wagon.
I am actually okay. Yesterday, while eating mini-cupcakes one after the other, I felt defiant. Then it mellowed into a sort of "Well, there's nothing you can do about it now. No sense in beating yourself up over it." So I didn't. And here I am, back on the abstinence trail.
For today, I will revel in the fact that I remained abstinent for almost five months, which is the longest I've ever gone without what I thought I "had" to have. That knowledge has given me the power of knowing that I am capable of many, many things. And I will rejoice in knowing that if I did it for almost five whole months, one day is a piece of cake. (okay...maybe not cake...how about whole wheat bread with orange marmalade? )
Jenelle- We think your awesome. Just be slow and gentle with yourself. Progress not perfection. ODAT.
I am stewing in a little anger this morning. And really its not something I should be angry about, but instead of just flat invalidating the feeling I will feel it, accept that feelings are not reality, and let it go. See I feel better already
"feelings are not reality..." I like that! It's a concept I spend my days trying to explain to 10 year olds..."Just because he stepped on your foot doesn't mean he was trying to be mean. How many times have I stepped on your foot accidentally because it was stuck right out in the middle of the aisle?"
Jennelle, I second what Chris said. Keep working that program.
My stepdad bought a Siamese kitten for my mother (I think I shared my family cat who we ad since I was 12 was put to sleep about a month ago). They weren't really planning to get another cat but he couldn't resist. He called me to have his back in case she was upset. I didn't hear from her so, as I knew she would, she's happy and I am sure finding it all very romantic. Since tomorrow is mommy's day, I am sure I'll hear all about it.
I had taken the past week "off" from my WW food plan (with HP's guidance and my sponsor's OK). It was becoming a bit triggering since we had so many birthday festivities and that worried me. I maintained my abstinence but am fully ready to get back at it (it being my WW food plan). I am also making tonight the last night of alcohol for who knows how long. DH and I are right around the corner for TTC, so it is time to abstain from that as well.
DH and I had a birthday dinner with 8 friends last night plus hung out at our place for games. It was so much fun and we received some really awesome and thoughtful gifts. It was a fabulous night.
Sorry for any typos - I am on our laptop and this keyboard hates me.
appy Birthday Kat!
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thats why we don't worry till weget there 
Very clean and very abstinent just today. 
I didn't hear from her so, as I knew she would, she's happy and I am sure finding it all very romantic. 
