I feel better today
I am so thankful that this forum exists for this support
I just hung out here late into last night and got some well needed emotional support - thank you all. lets stick this out. no food is worth this out of control feeling.
for me it seems anything sweet thats not candy. cause then i have to have something thats salty then something sweet again and.... yeah you get the idea =(
Pizza, especially any kind of white pizza (with a garlic based sauce instead of tomato based). Also Pizza Hut's new ultimate cheese lovers pizza (has alfredo sauce instead of tomato sauce). And breadsticks/bread bites. And interestingly enough, Sweet Baby Ray's BBQ sauce. I will put that on anything, and frequently do. Any of these things make me want to eat like there's no tomorrow.
When I'm not in crisis mode (when anything and everything carby, sugary, processed, or fatty can trigger a binge), it's generally sweets. Especially chocolate or some kind of pastry. Gets me every time. Also, peanut butter. It's like a jackhammer on my power of will. ~sigh~
Hmm... nutella and pretzels would probably be my worst 2. But anything really will trigger a binge. If I have large quantities of high cal sugary or salty foods...it's all over. I'm not actually into fried foods so I guess that's a good thing. I really hate it when I go to the store and buy candy telling myself I'm going to share this with my twin bro or with my bestie....and then I end up eating 99% of it and giving the last 1% away. So now I'm going to not buy candy no matter what the occasion is. :P
I could take or leave sweets. I binge with salty foods, Chinese or McDonalds, pizza or burgers. Pasta, tacos. French fries, salty snacks like beef jerky and pretzels and onion dip....
This is EXACTLY me! I never crave sweets but put fast food, pizza, or pasta in front of me and it's all gone! However, at times I do have the "balance it out" moment and will have something sweet after I've eaten something bad. It makes the binge so much worse!
Can I add to this thread? Let's see... at my smallest, I would order a dominoes pizza (so I didn't have to leave my apt and it was cheap) plus cinnamon sticks and icing for dessert. I would polish off the entire pizza, and the cinnamon sticks. I would take a break for a couple hrs. And then I would drag myself to 7-11 and buy a huge box of honey bunches of oats and a quart of whole milk. I would also at times buy a pint of Ben n Jerrys to polish it off. It would take me longer to eat the cereal though so I could continue eating throughout the night. I would finish about 3/4 of the the box after the pizza and cinnamon sticks and ice cream. I have actually passed out and woken up at 2am and continued binging until 4am on cereal, then back to bed. I haven't done this in 3 yrs but it was a pattern for a long time. Of course this is all done in hiding!!! And I would spend the rest of the week making up for it by restricting. It worked. I maintained a large loss for awhile. BUT the binges became closer together before I could "make up for them" and so the story goes. Weight gain.
Cereal doesn't bother me now. In fact, I keep a box around and eat it on occasion. The thought of consuming that much makes me ill. I still have smaller binges of 400-500 cals once every few weeks primarily made up of all chocolate. Maybe that's my new binge trigger food? I am not sure since I have chocolate quite often, even with calorie restriction. I posted about one last week. It was mild compared to the damage I could have caused or what I used to do. Now, today was my "high day" as I am calorie cycling, and I went too high. I wouldn't really classify it as a binge, but definitely much higher than I wanted. That stuff still happens.
I am really concerned (actually TERRIFIED) of an all out binge again. However, as crazy as this sounds, what's helped me to a small degree is that I have a lot of acid reflux issues and so my stomach hurts long before I can do as much damage as I used to. Blessing and a curse I guess.
Wow. I didn't realize I would have so much to say about this!
I used to binge eat when i lived alone. I lived alone in an apartment for 4 yrs where i felt i was in an unsafe area of the city, had just split apart from a long relationship onto my own. I would go at 2am to McDonalds and buy 2 meals, and order different types of drinks so they thought it was for another person. Id buy whole cakes and then just sit with a fork and eat what i wanted of it, ordered pizzas and brought them home after work etc, nacho chips, salsa. I love the salty, greasy stuff the most. Now that i am in a relationship of 2 yrs, i no longer binge. I think it was because i was lonely and scared in a way, i became afraid of people and it was even a struggle to get my dog outside for fear i would get mugged or something. Buying my house and having my boyfriend move in was the best thing for me. That is all completely in the past. I dont even really have cravings at all... the only thing i need to get away from is eating after i finish work - midnight. I am snacky at that time and while i eat healthy stuff now, i just dont want to do it anymore.
I would go to the grocery store and get a 36 pack of taquitos, tub of sour cream, 2 pints of ice cream, a sheet cake, triscuits and brie, and a few candy bars... and I'd eat all that in about 1.5 days. Ugh.
Nutella. With dates, or just with a spoon. Tubs of coconut frosting. Packets of chocolate chip cookie dough.
Basically, anything super smooshy in texture and super sugary in content.
Bleh! I think of it and it makes me feel both ill and lustful for these foods I can't have.
OH! And add me in as the third person with the McDonalds fetish. I hate most fast foods, but for some reason...yeah. EXACTLY what both of you said about ordering the same thing, ordering different drinks to make it look like it wasn't for two people...and especially the part about hating myself after. Whew. I laughed/cried a little when I read those!
My biggest triggers are chocolate and nuts. If I have chocolate I think "hmm some nuts would go nice with that." If I have nuts I think "wow I could go for chocolate!" I have totally done the "eaten too much sweet crap and then ordered a pizza to balance out the flavors." What a gross and sad habit.
Being tired or constipated are both huge triggers as well. Constipation might be the worst one. "OMG I CAN'T F-ING POOP SO I NEED TO EAT SO MUCH THAT I DO."
you are so funny... I have done all of this too.
