I agree.

I leave to go home tomorrow. Cannot wait!

Weight is unknown but suspect the worst.

We are at inlaws and at my wits end. We are babysitting my dd's dog as she is going out with boyfriend. My niece and nephew are here and difficult so we are exhausted. It will be such a break to go home. Tired of yelling, booze, food..... I don't drink but much of the house here are raging alcoholics.

Next week I have off from work and that will be my real break!

Happy New Year, everyone! Fingers crossed that it turns into smooth sailing for all of us.

I second that! Happy 2017!

Dagmar :cheer2:

Happy New Year to all you supportive folks. May you find joy, prosperity, and an on-plan life.

Sunday morning, New Year's Day. I love waking at 5:30 AM on this day and facing peaceful, nearly empty streets.

Weight up a pound, at 153.4, when I'd hoped it would be down due to getting to bed feeling replete but on the edge of hunger.

Happy new year all! May 2017 be a good year for everyone.

Monday morning, the "observation" of New Year's Day. I'm at 154.1, going back up further. Just when I think I won't see 155 again, I start edging up there.

My mother's leaving tomorrow after a two-week visit, three Sundays in a row.

Tuesday morning and I'm logging on for work today, though working from home. Really from home, not from the hotel.

And my weight keeps increasing, to 154.5. Not surprisingly, I couldn't sleep for a while after I put myself to bed from all of the anger at the contractor, whom I'll have to contact today, and sorrow and irritation at my mother. She feels she's helping by prompting me with angry things to tell the contractor, but all I can feel is the anger.

I'm back at work today, I feel like I'm almost back in the real world.

I have no idea how much I weigh. I'll step on the scale tomorrow. Based on how I feel, I'd guess mid to high end of the 160s. This doesn't make me happy.

After no exercise since 12/15 I feel yicky. I've started a 31 day yoga program on Sunday (Yoga Revolution from Yoga by Adrienne), finished day 3 today. I got up early enough to exercise before work today, 45 mins on the elliptical. My whole body aches. I'm taking that as a good sign. :)

Had my protein shake for breakfast, a decent lunch, then a handful of Pringles that I'm not proud of. One foot in front of the other.

Wednesday morning, and I'm at 154.1.

My mother left yesterday after an 18-day visit. I saw my therapist after a month away. The contractor didn't reply to emails yesterday. Work kicked in immediately and I am trying to catch up.

Saef - I hope that you are able to recover and regroup a little with your mother gone, and that your contractor responds quickly.

Got on the scale today. As my ticker tells, 167. I'm so past my 'not okay' weight my head can't even process it.

I did exercise and do my yoga this morning, now 4 days in a row of exercise. I completed say 337 in a row of Headspace. I'm proud of that streak. I'll be more proud of the exercise streak when I keep it up for two weeks in a row again.

Since DH and I are headed to Dallas for my BIL's memorial, we're putting off the regroup until next week. But then, we'll plan on Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday workouts, no alcohols Monday - Thursday and hopefully adding in golf on the weekends. We haven't golfed in months (since September) due to various illnesses and such. I don't think my golf clothes will even fit at this point.

I got on the scale for the first time since pre-Christmas. I'm at 132.4, almost exactly what I weighed the last time I checked. I kind-of sort-of consider that a win, though maintaining a weight that's 10 pounds over my ideal (and a body fat % that has gotten worse than the 10 pounds would indicate- I've had some negative recompositioning due to not being able to lift heavy due to my injured, painful shoulder) is not a huge comfort to me. And any attempts to go into a calorie deficit, however gentle, seems to trigger the binge-monster that I can barely keep at bay when I'm eating at maintenance calories.

My goal for this year is to master mindful/intuitive/hunger-directed eating. I am serving myself on smaller plates, checking in with my hunger level both before I eat and before I finish eating, and trying to incorporate some of the other important principles like not distracting myself while I eat (this is the hardest one for me), putting my whole meal in front of me at the beginning, and eating the "best part" of the meal first.

Happy belated New Year everyone.

Interesting how the self-consciousness of how I look lingers, even though I don't really seem to care any more. I'm all alone at a dog sit, at 6 a.m. in the dark and cold, with all the window shades drawn.

So why am I putting baggy fleece pants over the tights I'm later going to wear under my ski pants? :lol3:

Dagmar :brr: