saef~I hear you (no pun intended). My sister works for a large cardio clinic and does payroll and stuff for over 50 employees. She had her own office until they hired a new manager of some sort and moved her in to share with my sister. Even during lunch, when she could make personal calls--which we all need to do during the day from time to time--she'd be under surveillance and she hates it. The new manager is also useless, and makes some terrible decisions, but those who are in charge (the doctors) are not of the mind to do anything about it. My sister suffers in silence and hopes that she can retire soon. She is 65 now, but financially it isn't really a good decision to leave at this point.

Friday. Finally a small dip in my weight. Just in time for the weekend when I give myself a little leeway in the eating department. AND the house painters move DH's elliptical so it's super close to my treadmill so I don't think either of us can get our workouts in tomorrow unless the painters finish in that area (they're currently refinishing the cupboards in that bedroom's bathroom) and DH can move it away. So those of you who are friends of mine on Facebook saw what happened with the painters yesterday--I came home to all my cats crying and carrying on. At first I thought they were just happy the painters were gone and I was home. But no, the painters had visqueened off their cat dishes! Well, the cats got their revenge. I cut the visqueen to get their food out and fed them elsewhere, but one cat went in later and shredded more of the visqueen in that area!

Cats are so funny!

Saef-- I would be very annoyed too.

I'm jonesing for some coffee! Haven't had any in days and days due to tummy. Doc said yesterday to stay away for now. I am dragging at work and was going to cave and use the Keurig they have here. It didn't start. Ugh.... must be a sign. I want to nap..... Still zero appetite but my sinuses feel a tad better. My weight is down from 134 to 125 since the beginning of the year. I forced myself to eat yesterday and still ate under 1000 calories. Looking forward to getting my appetite back soon.

Pathetic behaviour by that person, saef. There must be somewhere better for you to work. You too, Becky. And Shannon. Anyone else?

I'm not back in the groove properly yet. December and early January was very busy and I did very well, all things considered. It was too busy and now I've relaxed a little. I need to gird my loins again. I last saw my trainer in mid-December and he thinks I look thinner. That's encouraging although I weigh no less than in mid-December. Two weeks to lose something to pacify the nurse.

Michele, a bit of advice about forcing yourself to eat - don't do it. Your appetite will return soon enough and you can enjoy gaining a few pounds back if you need to. I forced myself to eat after my first chemo round. A week later, my appetite resurrected itself. I would have had a lot more pleasure eating extra if I had just waited! You are not dangerously thin, so just allow yourself to eat as your body tells you. Make sure everything you eat is nutrient dense, and that you are replenishing electrolytes. A hard way to lose the extra pounds, but when you look back on this you'll be happy they are gone! It's no fun to feel draggy and sleepy at work though.

Saef, your comment about adults vs children gave me flashbacks to my workplace. All who were not upper management were treated like children. I think it gives the managers more sense of power that way. So happy to be gone from that environment!

Did great today! I am going to busy busy when I get off work therefore I don’t have to worry about screwing up my calories today. Plus I am very very low in my calories today due to skipping lunch because of belly issues so hopefully I can make up for it in dinner! ..In fact, I’m sure I can! I hope everyone is safe that is dealing with that bad storm up north with the ice and snow. Luckily for me the 32 degree line is just north of us so we have just received a lot of rain…no ice.
As far as my weight goes
YWI: 148.2
TWI: 147.4 (Still shredding the water weight…)
Calories: Going to try to hit 1200
Exercise:: 20 stationary; 15 treadmill;

It’s always a plus when you lose water weight..it makes you feel like your actually losing quickly and then the hard work hits ya!! Hope everyone has a great Friday!

Saturday morning, and I'm at 153.5, which is a pound higher than this past Saturday. I am working at not exceeding 154 by Monday morning.

Yesterday morning I was chatting with my gym's manager/instructor after my workout. She's my age, and her aging parents live in my apartment complex. We're friends, though not close. She wants to lose 10 lbs in a month for a beach vacation. She was talking about trying to get through hunger every night. It takes her a week, she says, to detox from carbs. I realized as she spoke that I listen to conversations like this in real life but don't contribute anything of my own struggles. Somehow I wish we weren't two women having this conversation about weight when it could be the other difficulties of getting through life. Or is weight the metaphor for that?

Saturday morning, weight down another pound, but that might be from sleeping in an extra two hours. Still, I'll take it. Workout this morning after reading the paper.

Tonight is our monthly wine dinner so I'll have to be careful.

No, weight discussions aren't a metaphor. They are a diversion by which women drain their energy and support into something inconsequential, while not sharing what's really going on. Weight discussions are great for avoiding intimacy or meaningful conversation. I no longer engage in weight talk, and actually a lot of people are relieved when I move the conversation elsewhere.

Dagmar, swearing at other drivers (who usually richly deserve it and much more) can be very satisfying. My time in traffic has decreased so much that I'm not nearly as sensitive to crappy driving as I used to be. That's one positive for the new workplace, and it is a big one.

This flu bug is getting really annoying. I went through the complete power-outage phase with the body aches and inability to get warm, and made it to the omg-I-am-gonna-cough-my-lungs-out hurdle. I'm sort of functional as long as I remember to take the OTC meds exactly according to schedule - if I'm an hour off, forget it. Being home for a day or two to rest completely is fine, but c'mon! I am sure some of you are laughing at me, but I haven't had flu for something like 15 years. Colds, yes - but dannngggg. I am going to be the Hand Washing Queen for the rest of the winter. One would think that if you washed your hands so often that the skin almost cracked, you'd be doing it enough. I guess I was sloppy about it at exactly the wrong time. Appetite, if nothing else, remains greatly reduced. Blah.

I last had the flu about 14 years ago and I remember being deathly ill. In bed, very high temperature, sick as a dog for a week before I felt good enough to get out of bed. I had gone to the doctor the second day and was on multiple drugs but they barely helped. This time, despite having the flu shot, I got it. I was in bed just a day and a half, my temperature was barely over normal, but here I am four weeks later still trying to get rid of the cough. It sucks.

Check in. Calories have been extremely low today. Wondering if I'm coming down with something. No appetite. Headache. Nausea. And all that. Hope it's just a bad day. I am down from 149 to 145 since Monday. Seems like an awful lot of water weight coming off or maybe it's due to how low my calories have been lately who knows. But I wouldn't be surprised to see it bounce up.

I'm so glad I have almost got through day 1 out of 3 of my weekend days which is where I have my screw ups.

Hope everyone has a nice night and is doing well.

Take care of yourself! I'm still nauseous more than a week later! No fun!

I decided today I was gonna ignore the nausea and just do my day. Very successful! Still no appetite but I'm eating. I just have zero energy if I don't eat enough.

Sunday, and I'm back at 152.8, which is where I was this past Wednesday.

I was on my feet a lot yesterday, doing all those domestic tasks that need doing on weekends. I'm just so happy to have an oven again. Yesterday I baked salmon, which I haven't done in months, not having had an oven in the hotel room kitchenette, and also I roasted broccoli with seasonings.

Weight up this morning, but I'll blame the salty dinner last night. I maybe had one and a half glasses of wine, no appetizers and only half the dessert. I probably should have skipped the bread, but didn't. I'll go easy today in hopes that the gain will go away by tomorrow.

Monday morning: 155.8, not a surprise, as I went to bed feeling bloated and I am still puffy with fluid retention this morning.

Up three pounds from yesterday morning. Sunday, I was mostly sedentary at my laptop, working to try to lighten up my workload for Monday morning.