I'm back from Arizona and gave quite a bit of thought to our discussions about obsessiveness, etc. while I was driving. I came to somewhat of an epiphany regarding myself during my drive. Yes, I may obsess a lot about food/ exercise now-- thinking about my next meals, what I should/shouldn't eat, etc., it is much different than when I was heavy. Then, I thought much less about my food choices. BUT... I thought much more about how unhappy I was about my body. I would berate myself every morning trying to find something to wear. I would choose something and more often than not be unhappy all day-- thinking about how fat I looked-- imagining others looking at me critically. And don't get me started about how horrible it was to try on clothes-- plenty of self-loathing-- and I wouldn't get in pictures and if I did-- all I could do was look at how horrible I looked. So, yeah... I'll take my self-obsession over food and exercise-- but I put on clothes in the morning with little thought-- and usually feel like I look good!
Now, to get off to the gym and to buy some healthy foods to counteract my lack of exercise and poor food choices in Arizona!
Cut the Fat Podcast # 54: Losing the last 10 pounds.... not just for the 'last ten'...great info about tweaking the diet, individual variations, and mindset/reset.
Ah, the joys of having a roommate who works at Dinosaur BBQ...ribs, cole slaw and potato salad after dinner (spinach salad w/chicken and bleu cheese and too much balsamic vinaigrette dressing...and a candy bar) was not the best choice. I had horrible food-nightmares about being held hostage by robbers at my own wedding.
I logged my weight for all of June and found I maintained successfully with minimal effort! Very encouraging:
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6/1: 128.5
6/2: 129.0
6/3: 130.0
6/4: 127.0
6/5: 127.0
6/6: 128.0
6/7: 127.0
6/8: 126.5
6/9: 126.0
6/10: 127.5
6/11: Dunno, scale broke. Somewhere between 125.5-127.5. I'll say 126.5. I shouldn't care this much but I do!
6/12: Got a new scale. BLAM, 127.8.
6/13: 128.8
6/14: 127.8
6/15:129.6
6/16: 127.8
6/17: 127.8
6/18: 128.0
6/19: 126.8
6/20: 126.8
6/21: 127.0
6/22: 127.2
6/23: -
6/24: -
6/25: 129.2
6/26: 128.0
6/27: 127.0
6/28: 126.4
6/29: 128.0
I wanted to go to Farmer's Market Yesterday but had a migraine. Feel OK today, though. Still holding at goal weight.
Checked out the Podcast that Exhale referred to, some interesting thoughts there for those of us trying to lose those last pesky pounds.
It is BAD out there.
What also impressed me in the podcast was (1) weight loss is not fair; (2) sustainability is key; (3) to get to 'goal' there has to be no 'goal', otherwise the tendency to drop healthy habits....this is a life-long thing.
Went to see REO Speedwagon, Styx, and Ted Nugent last night. It was hot - but the music was awesome! All of these guys are getting old, yet they look great and continue to sound great. Derek St. Holmes came back after 20 years to sing with Ted - he hasn't lost a thing!
exhale, thanks - that was a great find. I'm looking forward to hearing the whole thing this weekend.
krampus, nice trends! Glad to hear it's been going so well and you're in the groove!
bargoo, sorry to hear about the migraine - they can wreck a day's plans really fast. I am happy the scale is cooperating and reflecting your unflagging efforts!
michele, I reluctantly agree, there's nothing new about obsessive behavior - it's just whether we channel it toward the positive or negative aspects of our health. "Choose your hard." Why does it always come back to that?
I gain weight with adding in as little as 300 extra cals per day . That's 2100 cals per week so I shouldn't gain 2 lbs. in one week but I do. This past weekend proved that yet again. SIGH. I keep thinking that I can just "watch" what I eat. No I can't.
My hard is having to constantly monitor myself every single day. There is something inside me that rebels against that. And then I go downstairs and look in the full length mirror with my skinny jeans on. If I am over 135 I have a distinctive muffin top. Under 135 and it's gone.
Is it worth it to not have the muffin top? Sometimes yes, sometimes no.
Dagmar, I hear ya! It sucks to have to find that diligence balance; no matter what we settle for, it's going to need some effort. I had to laugh at myself pretty hard yesterday - I joined that 4th of July challenge and all it did was make the valley deeper and the peak higher. I'm basically the same weight I started at! My muffin-top goes away below 151, and the cellulite below 148.
So, here we begin the second half of 2012. I am two pounds lighter and quite a bit stronger than I started the year ... that's good news. My hard is to find the last few changes that if done consistently, will let me drift down to 148. I don't see myself changing my WOE much more, thus, I have to make lifestyle modifications to get more active.
I can't see much less eating for me either. I have made a few adjustments ,instead of Greek yogurt that is about 130 calories I am eating Activia or Lite and Fit at 70-80 calories, almond milk at 35 calories, instead of non fat milk at 90 calories . I only want to lose about 5 more pounds but it is just refusing to go. PS even when I lose that 5 pounds the muffin top remains.
So frustrating! I was maintaining under 120 for months and now I can't seem to get back there. I was 121 this morning, but my happy weight is 118. Only 3 pounds but I'm working so hard! Saturday I did 70 minutes of spinning plus 100 minutes of a high powered hip hop class. Yesterday I hiked for an hour, and sweat in bikram yoga for 90 minutes. I ate 100 percent on plan all weekend, and am down less than half a pound. I have a pooch over 120. It's still there under but much less noticeable. I leave for my vacation later this week and really want to be lower before I leave as I will definitely loosen up my eating on the trip. Keep on keeping on!
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Horrible carb hangover from the weekend. Somehow the scale was at 128.6 this morning which is much less "bad" than I expected (I was ready for 130+). I feel like GARBAGE and can't wait for vegetables. I have summer rolls, cottage cheese, hard boiled eggs and blueberries for lunch. An "emergency" PB&J in case I need to carbload before the gym tonight, but I doubt that will end up being necessary or even desired.
The 2 friends we were visiting in Montreal are lanky French guys with low body fat who sit around eating bread and drinking beer all day every day. One of them has a totally sedentary lifestyle. He has gained maybe 5-10 pounds since he came to North America in February, but is still very thin and somehow has a visible six-pack. Speaking of NOT FAIR...sigh.
ICUwishing - sounds like a rad show! Did they play all the classics? Challenges have pretty much no motivational value for me, either...
Dagmar - Daily monitoring definitely makes me want to lash out, too. Weekends are tough, I start out almost every week feeling gross and bloated.
Exhale - Glad the podcast is shedding new light. Weight loss really ISN'T fair.
Becky - I do well with challenges, at least from an accountability standpoint. I joined a big one that started on 6/1, and while my exercise is better I am right now back up to 2 pounds under what I weighed in December. Meh.
I got to 132 in April and I liked it. I felt slim and muffin top free. I would prefer 128, but I think that I have some extra muscle mass that I want to keep that will prohibit that. Today I was 139.8. If I could just go a week with better eating I think I could shed some of the sodium and see where reality lies...
Krampus, the 3 bands played for four hours and there wasn't a single song I didn't know. Hear ya on the carb hangover - have returned from 5 days of camp food and need a break! I am hungry for salad ...
Shannon, I looked that challenge over and respect you immensely for taking it on!
Bargoo, I left the cow's milk behind too. Love that almond milk! I need to work on finding just one more smart substitute for something I eat often and has room for improvement. Hm.
Allison, so-so is pretty darn good for a cruise. What's the best new tasty good choice you've had so far?
Michele, you'll get back there - keep plugging away!
Not much to report ... except I had a great time kayaking with DS12 on Monday for a couple hours. We saw a pair of loons with two young babies, a deer having a drink at the lake, and some bigggg fish jumping. Oh, are my shoulders whining! We of course had to see how fast we could get them going. I've enjoyed every experience I've had in a kayak ... and I think it's time to formalize a plan to get one. .
. That's 2100 cals per week so I shouldn't gain 2 lbs. in one week 
but I do. This past weekend proved that yet again. SIGH. I keep thinking that I can just "watch" what I eat. No I can't. 
against that. And then I go downstairs and look in the full length mirror with my skinny jeans on. If I am over 135 I have a distinctive muffin top. Under 135 and it's gone.
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