All my life I've struggled with weight.
At age 16 I was around 165-170 lb and decided I needed to lose so I dropped down to around a 140 and was quite pleased. Unfortunately, people around me felt that since I had done this much I could do better. I never felt good enough.. and somehow that was when I started looking at food (out of all things!) for comfort.
Now at 21 I'm an alarming 230 lb, and I hate my own body.
People have told me that I have one of the coolest personalities ever, but often times I feel like they still don't want to chill with me simply because of my looks. So I feel like screw 'em I'm not going to give them the satisfaction of losing the weight. Of course that is a stupid argument and in the end I'm only hurting myself.
I don't know if I have the strength to lose the weight, because everytime I try something happens and I stop. BUT NOT THIS TIME! I really hope that at the very least I manage to get back to my original 140 pounds... I was much more confident then
P.S. I'm not usually this depressed, just going through a really bad phase... will bounce back to normal within a couple days.. could have been faster, but I can't go to my quick-fix bag of chips.. siigh