Last time I was on here was in december...Things got a little crazy and I lost my way...again...how many times have we all said that.
A few weeks ago my boyfriend ask me to marry him, I said yes. Now the wedding is August of 2012...and Im going to lose weight. I want to walk down that Isle with my head up high, smiling, and not worrying about what anyone is saying about my arms...or my rolls. I want to know people are saying..."WOW! She looks so amazing!". I'm going to make it happen...I can not imagine myself walking down the isle as I am right now.
I can't believe I let myself get this way. I never would of thought it would get this bad...but growing up and coming home from school to spend 5 hours on the computer and eating a whole bag of Doritos...how can you not end up like this?
I want this to happen...and Im going to make this happen. Im not going to quit on this like everything else, and im not going to make excuses.
I WANT THIS. I NEED THIS!
1st Goal -- get under 300 lbs...Im barely over it but just making it that far will give me motivation!
2nd Goal -- Wear my real jeans (with buttons and zippers) WHILE being able to breath in them. And throw out my stretchy pants. (I might burn them!)
3rd Goal -- Loose 25 lbs. If I do that...then I know I can do it! I just need to know I can do it, then I won't get depressed...then I won't quit!
I'm not going to have much time to buy a dress...I figure I'm going to buy a dress in February. I would love...absolutely love to be a size 18 (comfortably) to buy the dress...that is my ultimate goal.
Im on here for encouragment and to know im not doing this alone! I need friends who understand what im doing, and check in with me on it. I guess truthfully I need friends in general.
Im 19 years old and 5'1.
Im over 300lbs.
Im a size 30 right now.
Im going to do it this time, and Im not going to quit.
Wow, it's been a while.
