Hi! I am also new here...just a few days in. I'm not from California (Alabama here) but I still know exactly what you mean. Try not to be so down on yourself sweetie. I know it can be hard at times, but you have to remember that you WILL get to the weight you want to be. I noticed that we are the same height. Us short girls have it rough because our number on the scale has to be pretty low to be considered "skinny." I have been every weight from my best at 115 to my worst after 3 kids at 186. I would like to be 115 again someday, but for now I have set my mind to losing 50lbs & get back to where I was pre-baby #3!
I noticed that your current weight is 140. I'm not sure if you realize this, but for our height you are just a few pounds over fitting into the "average" catergory. I know that might not make much of a difference because if you're not happy with yourself no chart can change that. I'm just trying to say that you probably don't look as overweight to others as you do to yourself. Don't worry about the girls that look like plastic barbie dolls...often at least one part of them has been fixed! Try to love yourself, even if you don't neccesarily like the way you look right now. One day you will. Just stay strong, stay focused, stay happy & above all BELIEVE you can do it!
I hope you cheer up soon & find a way to cure yourself of the downsies!
I will be glad to help you out in any way I can, even if it is just by trying to give you a motivation boost when you need it!