Megan from Massachusetts
Hello!
I was here a few years ago. Did alot of lurking, not much else. Didn't lose any weight, really didn't try.
But now I'm back. Just like everyone else on this board, I am tired of being fat. I have been obese for over 20 years. I'll be 37 in May and I can't believe I weigh over 300lbs. I'm mad/ashamed that I didn't do something years and years ago. I have let my weight dictate every aspect of my life. I highschool I didn't go to rock concerts because of my weight. I told my boyfriend on MANY occasions that I didn't want to be a "fat bride". So, 17 years later we are still not married. Our sex life is non existant (sorry if that's TMI). I was diagnosed with cancer (uterine) last March. Had to have surgery-they removed my uterus and one ovary. Obviously I cannot have children now. I did not know that OBESITY is the #1 risk factor for uterine cancer. I thought I was so "lucky"! I didn't have high blood pressure or diabetes, but I did get the Big C. I went thru chemo last summer. It really wasn't so bad. Now I have about 2 inches of hair. I didn't wear a wig over the summer, I just walked around with my bald head exposed--I got a lot of looks, but I kind of enjoyed it. I wasn't going to worry about being bald. I was more concerned/mortified that I weighed 300+.
I weighed myself yesturday and I weigh 318. Two weeks ago I weighed 324. I guess that's progress, but it is so depressing to think that even after I LOSE 100 POUNDS I will STILL be OBESE. What a bummer. Oh well, I guess I did this to myself, now I have to fix it no matter how long it takes!
Sorry this is so long and thanks for reading!
-Megan
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