Megan from Massachusetts
 

Hello!
I was here a few years ago. Did alot of lurking, not much else. Didn't lose any weight, really didn't try.
But now I'm back. Just like everyone else on this board, I am tired of being fat. I have been obese for over 20 years. I'll be 37 in May and I can't believe I weigh over 300lbs. I'm mad/ashamed that I didn't do something years and years ago. I have let my weight dictate every aspect of my life. I highschool I didn't go to rock concerts because of my weight. I told my boyfriend on MANY occasions that I didn't want to be a "fat bride". So, 17 years later we are still not married. Our sex life is non existant (sorry if that's TMI). I was diagnosed with cancer (uterine) last March. Had to have surgery-they removed my uterus and one ovary. Obviously I cannot have children now. I did not know that OBESITY is the #1 risk factor for uterine cancer. I thought I was so "lucky"! I didn't have high blood pressure or diabetes, but I did get the Big C. I went thru chemo last summer. It really wasn't so bad. Now I have about 2 inches of hair. I didn't wear a wig over the summer, I just walked around with my bald head exposed--I got a lot of looks, but I kind of enjoyed it. I wasn't going to worry about being bald. I was more concerned/mortified that I weighed 300+.
I weighed myself yesturday and I weigh 318. Two weeks ago I weighed 324. I guess that's progress, but it is so depressing to think that even after I LOSE 100 POUNDS I will STILL be OBESE. What a bummer. Oh well, I guess I did this to myself, now I have to fix it no matter how long it takes!
Sorry this is so long and thanks for reading!

-Megan

Welcome Megan!

I am new to the board too. This place seems to be awesome with a lot of people encouraging one another.

Good luck with your journey and best wishes.

tracy

Hi there Megan-

I know what you mean about feeling it's such a long way to go. I have ALOT of weight to lose myself. But I see and read about SO many smiling, beautiful women on this site who have lost SO much weight, and then I KNOW that I can do it, too, and so will you.

I am a newcomer and already have started to lose. I'm so glad you're back and will be losing, too.

YOU CAN DO IT.

Megan, I'm glad that you are on this site and able to put your thoughts out there. Sometimes by saying it we actually start to mean it. Listen, by doing nothing our tomorrow's will still pass us by if we lose weight or not. Our days come and go and it is our choices that matter, not time. So if you are one of those people like me that gets discouraged by losing great one week and then not great the next, stay strong and keep at it. I want to look back at last month a little less (weight) instead of looking forward heavy. Good luk.