Hi everyone, headed back to CA after being in my parents' house for about 1.5 days was giving me massive anxiety and I was crying hysterically because of something my dad said to me. To upset me when I said something about his hoarding making me anxious, he said my mom's diabetes is out of control and that she has a undiagnosed lump in her breast. My mom said he exaggerated and the doctor doesn't think it's cancer. My dad is also hoarder and is bipolar which majorly contributed to my anxiety and my parents didn't warn me about the condition of the house. Boxes everywhere, 2 of the 3 bedrooms so full of stuff they can't be used. I couldn't deal and felt it was a really unhealthy environment for me, so I booked my flight back for today the 26th and I'm at LAX right now, waiting to catch my flight to San Jose. I know I sound like a terrible daughter, but my dad was very emotionally abusive and unstable for much of my life. He's on meds now, but still doesn't have his illness under control. I'm looking forward to getting back to my home in CA where I feel safe. I did ok IP wise, but my dad did a poor job of shopping for me, so I survived on IP packets, 1 restricted a day, and eggs for dinner last night. I'm looking forward to getting back into my routine tomorrow and getting more veggies. I weigh in tomorrow too. I think the weigh in should be good, I hope.
Congratulations to being strong enough to leave. Just because they are family, does not mean you (we) had to put up with that kind of stuff. You have put yourself first and I commend you, just as using IP, is putting yourself first!! Well done!
Congratulations to being strong enough to leave. Just because they are family, does not mean you (we) had to put up with that kind of stuff. You have put yourself first and I commend you, just as using IP, is putting yourself first!! Well done!
Thanks Wine4me! It just felt like the right thing to do. I'm a very loyal friend/family member, but I don't put up with abuse or manipulation.
I hope you had a great Christmas everyone and hope I'm not being Debbie Downer talking about my dysfunctional one.
Kookysuki, you are not being Debbie Downer! We are all very vulnerable because we have chosen to give up one of our past coping tools (food). Sharing how you feel is the best way to release it. That is why we are all here, to support and let you know that we care. Drawing boundaries with family members(especially parents) is one of the hardest parts of growing older.
What are you going to do with your weekend now that you are home? Try to make some plans, try not to replay the last few days in your head (I would have done this!) spend time around people who care about you.
Thanks for understanding...I think by letting these feelings out instead of holding them in, I'm able to take care of myself (including staying on IP and not binging on food). I think I'm going to get back into therapy to deal with some of this stuff.
For the rest of my time off, I think I'm going to catch up on reading, TV/Movies, take some walks, and see some friends, maybe travel an hour north where one if my best friends lives. I'm going to my IP weigh in today and then might get a manicure. I have to say whenever I leave this area and come back I realize how beautiful it is here. Last night when I got home at 1am, exhausted and kind of sad, hearing the ocean and seeing the sky full of stars gave me some solace.
Are you leaving today for the funeral? Are you going to stash some IP stuff in your purse? Aside from that, I'm sure you'll be a great support to your friend during this difficult time. You're so supportive of all of us on this IP forum I can tell you must be a great friend.
Kookysuki, you made me get tear-y eyed. I do try to be a good and loyal friend. It takes nothing from me, to act with kindness, in fact- it makes my life better. I am leaving on Sun. For the wake and funeral. I am bringing IP RTD and restricteds. My friend comes from a family of 6 children, a loud and boisterous crew. Drinking seems to be a theme at all their functions. I am going to stay strong, have come way too far to mess up now. I can get a steak almost anywhere and will just have to make it a priority. Going to pick up a case of bottled water tomorrow.
Rescheduled my WI until next week at the clinic. Mainly because I do not have time for a coaching session and do not want to waste the visit. Still 199, since it is TOM. My clinic is different, you only get 12 coaching sessions and then you have to pay again. I am trying to extend mine until I am at my goal.
Kookysuki, you made me get tear-y eyed. I do try to be a good and loyal friend. It takes nothing from me, to act with kindness, in fact- it makes my life better. I am leaving on Sun. For the wake and funeral. I am bringing IP RTD and restricteds. My friend comes from a family of 6 children, a loud and boisterous crew. Drinking seems to be a theme at all their functions. I am going to stay strong, have come way too far to mess up now. I can get a steak almost anywhere and will just have to make it a priority. Going to pick up a case of bottled water tomorrow.
Rescheduled my WI until next week at the clinic. Mainly because I do not have time for a coaching session and do not want to waste the visit. Still 199, since it is TOM. My clinic is different, you only get 12 coaching sessions and then you have to pay again. I am trying to extend mine until I am at my goal.
Awww...didn't mean to make you cry.
Sounds like you've got a good plan for the wake and funeral. That's awesome that you're at 199 even at TOM! That next weigh in is going to be exciting!
I weighed in today and lost 2.6 lbs. it was interesting that their scale said I lost 5.8 lbs of fat, but gained 3.2 lbs of muscle. That makes the 2.6 loss sound much better to me. Now my total lost is 28.2 lbs and 30 inches from my body. I'm so excited this has worked so well. Even with all of that crap going on with my dad, I could still feel good that I'm taking care of myself and I'm looking forward to the future. 6 months ago this whole family episode really would have broken me down.
This is a place to be honest with myself and others. Over the last three days I have not stayed on the Ideal Protein. I did not over eat - but I did eat stuffing and treats/desserts. I had such good intensions to eat healthy, I did do that, but also ate some items I knew would make me gain. I have gained 2 lbs back and feel bad. I have just made it harder for myself to get back on track. I admire all IP'ers that committed and stayed on iP over the holidays. It wasn't that I didn't have the celery, peppers, broc and cauliflower cut up, - I reached for them, and also for other snacks. I have a plan in place and today is a new day and new start for me.
Kooky, good for you for making the decision to leave your parents early. It was not an easy decision I am sure. My Grandma once told me I was not feeding my daughter, I was eating all the food myself. That was the last time I saw her, as hard as it was to make that decision it was one I had to make for me. Hold your head up and be proud of you!
Slipfree, sounds like you have a good plan in place for the wake and funeral, planning ahead is a huge help. Let us know how you did.
Sweetness, congrats on the 54lbs that is awesome and at the hardest time of year!! Keep up the good work!!
Dlr, don't beat yourself up. We are all going to make mistakes along the way, all we can do is learn from those mistakes, pick ourselves back up and move on. I too ate things I shouldn't have, but I got right back on the next day and the weight is coming off again.
I joined the"lose 25lbs by the first day of spring" challenge. The Christmas challenge kept me focused so I am hoping this one does as well. And we leave for Hawaii that week so it would be amazing to have lost a total of 55+ pounds by then. Excited to see what I look like and what size I will be in then. Anyone else think about this or am I the only weird one?
This is a place to be honest with myself and others. Over the last three days I have not stayed on the Ideal Protein. I did not over eat - but I did eat stuffing and treats/desserts. I had such good intensions to eat healthy, I did do that, but also ate some items I knew would make me gain. I have gained 2 lbs back and feel bad. I have just made it harder for myself to get back on track. I admire all IP'ers that committed and stayed on iP over the holidays. It wasn't that I didn't have the celery, peppers, broc and cauliflower cut up, - I reached for them, and also for other snacks. I have a plan in place and today is a new day and new start for me.
I had a 2-3 day slip up and got right back on. I did feel like it set me back a little bit, but it got right back on IP and have been on since. I hope you don't beat yourself up about your slip up and it's great you started back up today. It would have been easy to wait until Jan 1st like a lot of people do. Once you get yourself back in ketosis, you'll be feeling good again.
