LeilaJay - Thank you! It's funny when I have one of those weekends and look back I always think 'it wasn't that bad' too. Then sometimes later I remember oh ya I forgot I ate <insert crazy bad food> and had a few bites of <insert more crap>. Those are the days I don't wanna know the cal count!!! It's nice to have those days sometimes though!

JossFit - Hope your 1st day back at work is good!

Kakers - I love mac and cheese!

TurboMammoth - OMG I lived of easy mac the year I lived in the dorms out of state!

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Excuse me while I celebrate the following:


IT FIT!!!

Weight is still up today, but I don't feel nearly as bloated as yesterday, so I'm sure it'll come off in the next day or 2.

Hope you all have a good day!

Oh wow, congrats!!!! Now THAT'S exciting!

Hi Feathers! Was 123.2 this morning despite having a huge feast at dinner. BF made salmon, curried green beans in coconut milk and baked butternut squash with maple syrup. I brought some marc de champagne truffles my friend's dad gave me in London and it was all so good. Oh and cocoa dusted almonds...lots of them...

Felt great to be back at the gym, though I IMMEDIATELY pulled something in my neck/shoulder and am in pain. I got up this morning too to run - 2.27 miles in 20 minutes, intervals. I have homemade chicken soup and a hard boiled egg and a plain Greek yogurt for lunch - hope it lasts me to the end of the day!

Photos are up on FB from that party I went to. You'll see what I mean when I said I felt like the shortest fattest person there: 09.11.12 White Jail 1st Anniversary @ Hoxton Basement London This one is my favorite, of me and my 2 friends:



Got a response to my friend-drama email like 3 weeks later. She called me a conservative and a sociopath, so I think that discussion/friendship is over.

LockItUp LOOK AT YOU in that wedding dress!!!!! What an awesome achievement, congratulations!!! What kind of Chinese did you have???

kakers Mmmmm mac and cheese. I haven't had it in ages. When I do I don't want a serving, I want THE WHOLE BOX with twice the allotted butter.

JossFit Welcome back - I hope you had a restful trip.

LeilaJey Woooooot Doc Martens! I actually lost weight on my trip I think. Don't know how...

TurboMammoth I love the Twilight card and the lentil salad looks really awesome. Also you have such a great defined jawline!

Goodness, been a little bit MIA here for a couple days...fell off that wagon HARD!!

Monday was Remembrance Day holiday here, and while I did manage to get to the local gym, I ended up eating off plan quite a bit due to being home all day instead of having classes. I really don't react well to upsets in my schedule. /:

And THENNNN yesterday was my planned refeed, but I totally messed it up. I forgot to bring any protein with me so my meal was just a mega carb binge with nothing to temper it, plus I had extra money with me that I couldn't resist using and ate a bunch of extra crap after the planned mass of food. And then I had the brilliant idea that instead of being back OP for dinner like I have been, I suggested we go out to eat, and I ate wayyyy too much food plus more dessert.

Then came the worst part though. I have never experienced this awful of a thing before (except once other time in my life), but I got SO MUCH GAS IN MY STOMACH. It was literally painful and I almost couldn't move or breath well even!! It was scary actually, not to mention super embarrassing. It lasted for many many hours too.... It wasn't like an upset stomach or being sick, literally just a bunch of air or gas in my stomach so much it felt like it would burst. ): Hated that so bad so bad so bad.

I totally know why it happened: combination of my regular binge/refeed, which causes a bit of that every time because it's a bunch of sugary crap food products that I don't usually eat, plus LACTOSE which I do not tolerate well, plus just too many weird food combinations all together in the same few hours. It's so funny, you'd think that would put me off wanting to binge eat like this forever, but it really doesn't, unfortunately!

As for the emotional/mental bit of why it all happened, I can pinpoint that as well. First was the mistake of taking to weighing myself again. I don't know exactly what it is about it, but it's obviously a huge trigger for me to go off plan, checking my weight whether it's good news or bad news. So I'm re-committing to stopping that from today. Number two is that I just happened to notice that it was exactly 4 weeks until we leave for Japan, and the verysecond I let myself start thinking that 4 weeks is the perfect time to start gettingserious about this and do more perfect and blah blah whatever, my brain immediately switches into alarm mode and wants to bingebingebinge now before the restriction season hits.

Anyway, that's what happened, that's my confession. Nothing to do but get back on it! One thing I can say at least: when I can wake up in the morning like I did today, after two days of the worst crap eating you can imagine, look in the mirror and pinch all the bits on my body and still think "hey..not half bad!", that's when I guess I'm in pretty good shape!

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Krampus- Welcome back! Sounds like a fantastic trip, especially the clothes shopping! Love that picture too, haha. And awesome job not even picking up any weight!! What's your secret? I'm gonna need it soon..

Bayzee- Sorry to hear your work is annoying. I think that those things definitely can impact your energy and weight-loss progress, or at least they do me!

Turbo- Cute pictures!! Haha, I love that birthday card.

Leila- Hope your headache gets better and you get rid of some of that bloat! Glad you had a nice weekend.

Kakers- Lol, mac and cheese, I seriously have not had that for like 20 years now....for some reason I remember that I really liked putting black pepper on it, that's my only memory of how it even tastes!

Lockitup- Wowww, that dress, you look absolutely fantastic! I love that you're sharing all these great photos lately of your progress. (:

Hey ladies

I'm at work so I can't see the pictures you guys posted, so I'll have to check back again from home this evening and see what I'm missing!

I'm back at work today, and things are okay. It's nice to have the pressure of an impending deployment/non-deployment (depending on the day of the week and which way the wind blows apparently) off of my shoulders. Since I also had a little semi-meltdown my leadership is being extra gentle with me... haha. I suppose I don't blame them, but I don't feel like I'm nutty. I just needed a breather from work and now I've had a bit of a chance to take a step back and am feeling less stressed.

Of course the hard part comes next; working with a therapist to develop some strategies for dealing with stress, keeping my eating under control (why of all things did THAT have to be the stress-reducer for me??), continuing to transition out of the military... yada yada. It's nice to know that I'll have less work to handle in the office though, and that I will be able to spend the holidays with my husband.

Tomorrow night my BFF flies in so that on Friday we can head up to PA to spend the weekend catching up and doing that dang photo shoot. Ugh, I feel SOOOO not ready to be photographed in my undies (or less) but I am committed to it so there is no turning back now. I just have to do my very best to stay OP with my eating while driving all day Friday and Sunday, and being out in PA Saturday. My plan is to hit the gym on Friday before we hit the road and to do cardio/abs/etc. at the hotel during the weekend.

After that, I'll be back at work Monday and then leaving AGAIN to fly out to Colorado to meet up with my hubby for Turkey Day. Once again I'll be battling with traveling and keeping my diet on plan; flying Tuesday, driving Wednesday, Thanksgiving on Thursday (Um, yeah... eating my face off that day) driving on Friday and flying again on Saturday. Gaaaaahhhh!!

My plan is to eat well except for Thanksgiving, Christmas Day, and EITHER our Unit Holiday party OR New Year's Eve. So... that's 3 days between now and the end of the year. 3 days in the next 7 weeks... I think I can do that. It's going to be hard, but I really need to get myself back on track... if for no reason other than just to prove to myself that I can.

Things were OK with my husband this past week. He is the most amazing, loving, supportive person I have ever known... BUT, I just don't do a good job of explaining what I'm feeling right now. It's hard to try to talk to him about my recent struggles with eating from stress because he's one of those people that has absolutely zero emotional attachment to food. He can take it or leave it and really doesn't give food much thought. He doesn't understand that for some reason when I get stressed I turn to food (like so many of us do) and doesn't understand that I feel powerless right now. Each day is a struggle.
Hopefully next week during our road trip for Turkey Day I will be able to have some uninterrupted time to find my words and explain it a bit more.

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Mottainai - It sounds like you had a rough couple of days but you aren't beating yourself up over it too much, so that's great! I can totally relate to all of those things you mentioned; the weigh-ins (whether good or bad) being a trigger and the idea of timelines being triggers as well. Perhaps it's a good idea that you are choosing to stop weighing for a while, but that doesn't eliminate the timeline pressure you've put on yourself. What is your plan to shake that mentality? Thats a HARD one, I know.
Right now I am dealing with the holiday pressures. I know it sounds rediculous, but when I know I have a Treat Day coming up (like Thanksgiving for example) it's so easy to just think "well, I'll get back on plan AFTER Thanksgiving" rather than being extra diligent until then. When I know that I'll be indulging at a party or special event I sometimes even have trouble sleeping and think "I might as well have a midnight snack..." LOL crazy huh?!

Krampus - Congratulations on NOT gaining during your vacation! I don't think I've managed that one yet... hahaha. I usually put on a couple of pounds but generally it's mostly water and any damage is undone in a few days. I don't think I've ever come back straight away and not been up, so that's pretty impressive to me!
I'm so sorry about your dealings with your friend. It's hard when things like that happen, but good on you for realizing that it's a toxic situation and not fretting over trying to save it. If she comes back around and apologizes later on down the road, great, but it seems like you have a full happy life with or without her. Her loss if you ask me.

LockItUp - You mentioned that you wanted to celebrate your weight loss milestone with food... did you? You mentioned being a bit bloated but I might have missed why. Either way, I don't think it's at all weird to want to celebrate such a huge milestone with some treats. Food is good! It's meant to be enjoyed and it's one of lifes greatest pleasures! As long as we can indulge and get back on plan there is NOTHING to feel guilty about. You know that I normally have planned Treat Days where I really tuck in to some great food and I DO NOT feel guilty about doing that.
... it's only when I DON'T plan on it and do anyway that causes a problem... LOL

Turbo - You put hot dogs in your Kraft Mac n' Cheese? Are you SURE you aren't an American?
I'm so glad you enjoyed your birthday and actually took some 'me' time. Too often we get pulled in so many directions by other people when the spirit of the day is to do what YOU want to do!
How is your hip feeling?

Kakers - It sounds like the dance competition went really well! Any more fun events coming up in the near future? You seem to always have something going on.

Leila - Mmmm, Mexican and booze... you are a braver woman than I for actually weighing after such an event! I'm not hopping on the scale again until this time next week! hahaha

Chickie - Is it weird that I am jealous of your kids because of that party?? You sure put a ton of work into it!

I'm terribly sorry if I've missed anyone and that I didn't do a great job on personals... I just had a lot to catch up on and frankly, I really have to pee! hahaha

Lockitup : It fits, and it fits GOOD! Look at you, you coud be ready to renew your vows

krampus : Is your neck/shoulder better? And I strongly disagree on the pictures thing, you do not look fat, I actually think you look fit and healthy! (plus this club looks cool, with the chicken wires stuff!). Yeah, my jawline is really sharp, like all my face elements actually, and way too much to my own taste.

mottaini : OMG, first, I have to tell you : last friday, I thought I wanted TO DIE with all the gas in my stomach. At some point I felt like putting a needle through it just to let it go, the pressure was so aweful.

I'm sorry to read that you've been feeling bad lately, with these last days being hard on you Mental control plays with us so frequently, I also freak out when I see some kind of deadline coming up (like. uhhhg, Christmas!??) and I feel sometimes it gets the best of us (or at least, of me). Every day is a little fight... Sometimes we win, but sometimes we lost some too. But like you said, gotta focus on what is coming, and not on what have been done.

Joss : Glad to see you, girl I'm so happy to hear you feel less pressure on you with the changes that has been done, even if a lot of things might remained to be done. You know were here if you need to talk, right!?

I am sure you will rock this photoshoot. Do you get to see you BFF a lot? It will be a blast to be able to do something like that, talk about a killer friends reunion plan

It's nice you got to have time with your husband. It's always hard to explain food struggle to someone who never experienced any. He might never totally understand what you are going true... But if he is there, and support you no matter what, that is the essential.

You never had hot dog mac & cheese? BEST.THING.IN.THE.WORLD. when fighint post drunk behaviors

My hip is a bit better than last week, in term of it feels better quicker after exercice, thank you for asking! But I still feel it after a few kms. Long distance and hills are really the trigger, I think.

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-0.8 lbs from yesterday morning! yay.

I had a good day foodwise. I had a good day food wise, I kept my lunch super light by having a bowl of carrot and ginger soup I prepared today and only ate an apple as a snack this afternoon. I indulged a bit tonight by tasting 2 dark chocolate truffe I prepared today, one coated with cocoa powder and the other in chopped pecans. I quickly put the rest in the freezer for futur visitors.

I was SUPER happy last night : I was able to find a old recipe of my moms on my old-barely-booting computer of healthy banana muffin. I ended up baking them, swaping dried grapes by dattes (we have TONS of dattes to pass right now.. anyway suggestions of recipes are welcome :P) and after doing the math, 1 muffin is about 170 calories, which for a dessert after dinner, isn't bad. Plus they are full of fiber, so really filling. Win win!

My car was super low on gas and being lazy to fill it up, I went to the grocery biking and came back by a longer trails along the river... Only 13k but better than nothing. It was so beautiful but freeezing. There are like 300 hundreds of duck who were happily splashing in the river them who decided to take off at the EXACT MOMENT that I passed them in the most noisiest way ever. Totally lost my focus and almost hit a tree. Good times

"I was too lazy to stand there pumping gas so I rode my bike 13k in the freezing cold instead."

Yup, sounds lazy to me

~Katy

AHAHAHAH!

It was making so much sense when I decided to take the bike...!

LockItUp- YAY for fitting into the dress!!

Krampus- I found at least one picture in that album with someone who couldn't be described as skinny. You looked just fine next to everyone else!

Mottainai- I know what you mean about it not turning you off to binge eating. I used to get these TERRIBLE stomach/intestinal pains after eating greasy things in college (though, only sometimes) and it never stopped me even after laying on the floor in pain. Anyways hope you are feeling better now, and I know you can get back on-plan!

Joss- so glad you are feeling less stressed! And I think 3 days in 7 weeks is reasonable, though, I also don't think you should feel bad if you choose to let it go for all 4, especially if you are really good the rest of the days.

And nope, nothing else planned in the near future. The competition wasn't even in the plans. The only thing on my radar for now is work, DJing at the swing dance tomorrow night... cause they've combined both styles of dance I do, and the groups are having difficulty playing well with others music-wise. So I offered to go in and DJ since I do both and have DJed both. That and then Thanksgiving, that's it for now!

Turbo- I have to admit I've never put hot dogs in my mac and cheese. We used to always have mac and cheese with hot dogs on the side though!

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Pretty good day today. Had to chill with the front handsprings at gymnastics because my lower back is still mad at me for the past week and a half of working on them plus the dance competition didn't help. So I decided to work on back handsprings instead, and guess what... my back hurts AND my butt hurts now! ROFL

Calorie wise today went really well. I've got plenty of calories left for a pretty good snack before I go to bed and stay under. I did good with my calories yesterday too! And I was 152 today. I am so close to busting out of the 150's I can just feel it!

~Katy

Can't seem to find the motivation lately to go to the gym... sigh

I ate SO MUCH yesterday, lunch was chicken soup without noodles, yogurt and one hard boiled egg so I was starving by dinner. Had a cup of lentil soup, a salad with bleu cheese dressing, half a big roll with butter, a whole potato skin, a bunch of chicken, broccoli florets, eggplant/squash/peppers mix in olive oil, half a slice of diner pie for dinner. Then went to a friend's for knitting night (lol, well I just watched) and had a bunch of mashed parsnips in heavy cream, some pork chop, green beans and this incredible cheese I can't identify, plus a couple glasses of wine. Went to my bf's and had a marc de champagne truffle and ended up having weird carb dreams all night and woke up feeling FULL.

Weigh-in was 123.6. O____o

maymarza Not sure where you are but I know in the northern hemisphere the shorter days are pretty terrible for motivation to do that...or anything.

kakers Rest that lower back! I love when I know having a bedtime snack won't do any damage. What's your snack of choice?

TurboMammoth Glad to hear you didn't hit the tree. I always wish I had sharper facial features so I'm totally jealous of you in that regard! It's f-ing cold here, must be even colder in QC!

JossFit You are going to be just fine for that photoshoot! I think talking about feelings in regards to food to someone who is not an emotional eater has got to be a huge challenge. Also, finding a person IN GENERAL who has never eaten their feelings seems rare, at least among the people I have met. Maybe your therapist will be able to uncover some ways to make that easier?

mottainai Ack! I have never, ever successfully dieted for a vacation without binging (A) before I even leave or (B) all vacation long - it's so much pressure to put on yourself. Perfectionism and all-or-nothing is really difficult to overcome, but this is only a minor slip-up - I hope you won't feel too badly about it. Remember the gas!!!

Turbo - Oh no, I definitely HAVE had mac 'n cheese with hot dogs! I haven't since I was a kid, but it's one of those quintessentially 'American' meals like peanut butter and jelly on Wonderbread or Oreos and milk. I remember my ex used to like to mix baked beans with his mac 'n cheese and I always thought that was weird... never tried it.
I find it interesting the things that are the same and the things that are different in various countries/cultures.

I'm with Kakers; riding 13km is not MY idea of lazy! hahaha It sounds like it was a good ride, albeit chilly, and I'm glad you didn't hit that tree! Death by ducks is not a good way to go!

So the muffins you made were banana nut, with dates?! That sounds awesome. I am a sucker for banana bread of any kind, but for me it's not complete unless it's warm and has a huge pat of butter on it. Probably explains why I haven't had it in a while...

Thanks to both you and Krampus for the vote of confidence regarding the photo shoot! I should have some pictures to show you guys on Monday, maybe Sunday night depending on what time I get home. The cool thing about this photographer is that not only is he AMAZING, but his prices are super affordable AND you leave that very day with your photos finished and already on a CD to take home.

I actually put together some of my outfits for it last night; some of them are complete, others are mix and match. Overall its a boudior shoot but it's not all super racy lingerie. My friend is flying in tonight and after dinner we're going to put together the rest of my looks. So far I have a corset outfit with accessories (I even hit the Halloween sales and found black angel wings, a black leather eye mask with studs and spikes, and really dramatic false lashes!), that rinestone bralette I posted a picture of -- which I'm pairing with jeans that are embellished with rinestones, a slip that kinda goes with my blue studded Louboutins, and a few other random pieces. I think I have enough, but I've learned it's good to overpack and have more stuff to choose from. LOL I did pack a silk robe, a tank top and some other things that provide more coverage too! hahaha.

Trying all that stuff on last night was not exactly confidence boosting, but hopefully once my hair and makeup is all done and looking super fierce I will feel better about it. In the end though, it's about going and having fun with my BFF anyway! I don't get to see her as much as I would like because she lives in Utah, but we do what we can. I saw her a couple of times this summer, and then of course I get to see her this weekend and for Thanksgiving my hubby and I are driving to spend it with her and her family. She actually is deploying for a whole year in January so this is the last I'll see her for a long time.

Kakers - True, I think I would normally have a few more holiday indulgences planned, but normally I am maintaining whereas right now I could stand to lose a couple of pounds. I figure even being super on plan with my diet I am not going to be able to workout much so just maintaining will be hard enough. It's more a goal just to stick to my plan for the mental aspect of it.

You are definitely knocking on the door of the 140's! Thats super exciting!

Krampus - LOL, that is a lot of food... for most people. It sounds delish too! I always think it's somehow better or more 'worth it' to indulge on homemade goodies like pork chops with parsnips, truffles and incredible cheese than it is to grab a Snickers from a vending machine. Generally, I try to save my indulgences for those special items you can't find every day like that.

You and Turbo are totally on point; it IS hard to explain to someone who has no emotional connection to food that I struggle with it when I'm stressed. He doesn't 'get it' but he does understand how much PTSD can effect you. He was, by his own admission, 'crazy' for about 6 years and chose to drink a lot and do a lot of stupid things. My "drug of choice" is food. He understands the connection in that regard.
Either way though he is incredibly supportive and I know that even though I am working my way through some things that have been brewing for a long time he's not going anywhere. I don't know what I did to get this man, but I surely don't deserve him.

maymarza - sometimes you have to 'fake it til you make it' and just go. There have been a couple of times I've gotten to the gym and been so exhausted that I didn't workout, but those times are super rare. 99.9% of the time just getting up and going does the trick, and the rest practically takes care of itself. I go first thing in the morning so that it kind of 'sets up' my day and once it's done, it's done!

Joss- Thanks for giving us all the update! It sounds like you've gotten a lot of stress off of your shoulders. I'll be looking forward to hearing how it goes when you start seeing a therapist. It's great that you had a nice time with your husband too! I totally understand what you mean: it's hard to really describe our struggles to people who have never experienced them! My husband is the same way, really has zero emotional attachment to food, and he's very supportive of me and helping me deal with overeating, but he really can only get the overeating part, not the real binging aspect, the deep mental and emotional bit. Keep working on it though, it's so great to hear that you've got some support!
Also thanks very much for your advice. For the timeline bits, just committing to not doing progress/weight checking eliminates the actual possible deadline goal, so that's one big help! I'm just trying to focus on, OK, this is the plan for TODAY, forget about four months from now, it'll take care of itself....

Turbo- Omg, sorry to hear you had the stomach problem too!! I guess it's not only me then. It sucks so bad, doesn't it?! Thanks so much for your encouragement!! I'm already feeling a bit better. Glad you're having fun with cooking and baking and bike-riding!

Kakers- Yeah, it's so weird, but I guess I'm not the only one who understands about the binge pain and still going back to it again and again! Good to know I'm not the only crazy one, lol. Wow, handsprings, sounds so cool. I wish I could see a video of you doing it!! haha

Maymarza- I hear you, I was just thinking this morning that my workouts are so superficial lately, it's all I can do to just get in there and do SOMETHING, I hardly put any effort into it lately, lol. My advice is to just do it though, at least go through the motions... anything is better than nothing! And often once you start, then the momentum can start building up. (:

Krampus- That's quite a food list! Sounds good though anyway. Ahhh, yeah, vacation is going to be so difficult to navigate. I'm already thinking up my strategies. You're right, perfectionism really is the worst enemy here.

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So, feeling a bit better today. It really is nice to have a plan that I like following and sticking to, that I know makes me feel good physically.

My two things I'm thinking about lately are 1) how to deal over my impending vacation and 2) long-term strategy with the binge eating, so I'm going to be thinking/writing about that later here probably! Now it's time for class though. (: Have a nice day, everyone!!!

krampus- knitting night sounds fun! You should learn That or crochet. And my bedtime snack of choice was melted string cheese. Except the kind I used apparently was so low fat it refused to melt right, so it was weird, but tasted fine so that was OK. I love melted cheese.

Joss- I am sure you look perfectly great in all of it.

mottainai- Actually, you CAN see a video of my front handspring. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IfyM-...&feature=g-upl I just don't have one of the back handpsring yet. Besides I was doing it off a trampoline onto a big cushy mat LOL I'm glad you're feeling better today!


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Still 152 when I woke up today. Holding steady. I'd weigh myself again (and get myself some food, I really am hungry) but I have a cat that doesn't think I should move from this chair.

~Katy

kakers : With all the parts that are hurting right now, I think you might be good for a rest day the 140's are soooo close! Go get iiiit!

maymarza : like krampus said, I don't know exactly where you are in the world, but at this time of the year, I think it's normal to lack a bit of motivation... Especially with the day light that decreases, it's right on the time of seasonal ''depress'' time and for me, it has huge impact on my motivation to work out... We gotta go what we gotta do though!

krampus : 123's? Where did you put all the food you had?? No seriously, that is awesome, indulging and not having any impact whatsoever! I love the idea of knitting/drinking/eating night! I knitt from times to times (read here : I've been on the same scarf for the last 3 years and it's not nearly done yet)

Jossfit : Beans and mac & cheese?? First time I hear of this Not quite tempted to try, though hehe! We also have Oreos and milk here too Never liked it much however, I always hated having some cookies lumps in the bottom of my milk... I was a weird kid

The muffins are actually just banana and datte but with a bit of All Bran Cereal (a Kellogg very high fiber kind of cereal), but adding nuts would probably just awesome I'm a sucker for banana bread too, but for a week days dessert, I always try to bake something a bit lighter, and these muffins are just great for that

I was going to ask you something like ''But are you bringing your gorgeous Louboutins shoes!????!!'' LOL I'm in love with your shoes. They are going to be awesome for your photoshooting!

mottaini : I'm glad to hear you feel better I think working on your plan in 2 times is nice, like short term on dealing with your upcoming vacations but also working on binging on long term... That is a really down to earth way of facing the problem and putting all the chances on your sides of succeding

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-0.8 from yesterday! yaaay. TOM kicked in this morning, and I'm like 1) thank god no baby on the way and 2) Mother Nature is really a ***** for getting me PMS on my birthday weekend, giving a ''eat all the food'' attitude. Oh well. I seem to be on the right track right now.

I'm taking a workout rest day today. I decided, with the hip being tricky right now, to start over on the program my physiotherapist put me on when I hurt my foot. It will force me to do some light run and stop pushing it.

It's probably the best time to give some rest time to my body in the cold season.. I'm starting the plan the 2013 race season and the first one will probably just be at the end of March. I'm still living in the fear that if I barely stop, I'll lose everything I gained in the past year in the fitness department. I know it's okay to lose a bit in the off season, but in my head, if I stop, I'll go back to not being able to run for 5 minutes straight... I knoow it's not working like that, but my head did not get the memo yet. I just focus on my 2013 goals and freak out. But still, I won't be able to do nothing if the body is all broken and stuff.. ahhhh.

On another subject, we are having 2 collegue/friends of my bf for dinner last night, which means having fun cooking everything but feeding someone else and not getting ALL the calories to myself. Best of both worlds