My hope is with the support here and the amazing testimonies it will help keep me encouraged instead of always trying to do it bymyself. On a positive note I did give up the laxitive addiction years ago. 
I want to beat this once and for all and not have the food control my life anymore. Another positive I really do like exercise and have exercised while losing weight and while gaining also (talk about insanity). I no longer use exercise to control the food I ate but I do it just for fun and to keep strong.
Thanks for listening and I look forward to the little scale icon going down once and for all. So many posts I have read here are such amazing inspiring stories. Thank you!
ASHLEY ~ I think you have to be a member for 20 days and 20 posts before you can get a ticker (scale) and send & receive PRIVATE MESSAGES ... so post a lot and come back regularly too! Maybe just eat a balanced, healthy plan, in moderation (when you are hungry only), and you should see some release of excess weight. Doing this can help you not feel deprived, which will prevent binging. Eat lots of veggies & salads & soup to fill you up; plus some fruit, some dairy, good fats, lean meats, and some healthy treats like yogurt, cheese, nuts (in moderation), etc. This would make a good start -- one step at a time, one day at a time. 
