I took my depression medication and I feel better tonight.

Sometimes when my pristiq is low in my system, it effects my head.

I feel better.

Sweet dreams everyone.

A strange thing has happened twice. Many people's posts have not shown up on the page when I go to write personals. That makes me seem rude that I leave then out when I am writing personals. I think my ipad is deceiving me. I think it is plotting against me

Holly yours was one of the post I did not see until tonight. You mentioned Goodwill. Yes I love shopping there. I have gotten some awesome things. the only good thing living where I do is that I am close to all these places. I live less than 5 miles from both Goodwill stores. The Williston one and the Shelburne Rd Store. I live less than 15 minutes from Costco. And the new Target is being built 10 minutes from my home. BTW I heard they will be having a "soft opening" in October. So much for shopping news, lol.

Your gardening sounds so awesome. I love petunias because if they are dead headed they will last through the summer. Super Petunias are even better. I love hearing about everything you have planted. I have to rely on Perennials now, because of money. Many things are in full bloom now. So it is looking pretty nice. But I would love to fill in with some annuals. when I win the lottery that will happen. Until then I can read about your garden!! Glad that things are so good for you at work. Working in the diningroom for extra money. Being appreciated. Baking wonderful things.... Ahhhh Gardening and baking. My two favorite things.

Panda I am sorry your parents did not have good boundaries with you. Eg going through your trash. I respect you for getting out as soon as you could. oh wow, I just read your post on the 5th. I am sorry your mother is being deceitful with you all. re: sneaking clothing in your bag, too bad it is not clothing you would like, and would fit you. My mother used to choose all my clothing. I was not allowed to choose anything. But they did fit. She is classically narcissistic. I am sorry your mom is so challenging I hope somehow you get some support through the weekend. Come here and post, if you need.

IBelieveInMe2 I hope you have had a good week


Coop I hope the jury duty is a fairly easy case. If not, I hope you are dismissed during jury selection process.

Lisa, I am glad your knee feels better. Glad to hear you figured out why your head was feeling not so good. And you were able to correct it by taking the antidepressants. WTG figuring it out !!!

My eating was not very good most of the past 6 days. I ate way too much salad and peaches. And added a bit of chili pepper sauce to my food. Caused the IBS to flair up. It has referred to my lower back as well. Today I ate better. No raw produce. And much lower calories. Although I found a new GF vegan snack food. So good. They are vegan cheese puffs. Sounds terrible. But they are very good.

I have all this stuff for salads in my refrigerator and cannot use it. ugh. I hope tomorrow I will be much better. Due to the back pain, I was not even able to weed the garden. But I can feel now that it is getting a bit better. I hope it continues to improve.

Tomorrow I am hoping the weight I gained over the previous 2 days will have been lost. anyway, I hope everyone has a great Friday. Yes !!! <3

Flower, I’ve missed people’s posts sometimes too and then I’m wondering how I missed it.

Peaches snd salad sounds healthy to me.

I haven’t had a good week. Worked til 8pm friday night, then did nothing. Canceled all my weekend fitness classes and slept in. Pushed myself to go to the event Saturday night which turned out to be a waste as no one else showed up. Sunday I did go out to buy groceries. But I haven’t stepped outside since. I don’t know how the weather has been, or if I have mail. I’ve just been indoors working working working and snacking all day and many thoughts and trouble sleeping.

And I can’t even look forward to the weekend, and I have to skip 2 of my workouts bc of the parents.

I have to be up early tomorrow and its already 2am. Yesterday was bad because i was up late and then birds chripping. Hope that doesn’t happen tonight. I think i already hear some. I have an air cleaner in my room which kind of cancels out some noise but not the birds. Anyone have tips for this?

Have a great day all!

Sorry you had a messed up day! sounded very aggravating. And we hope you feel better, do you think it's something specific in your diet, or maybe something missing? also, gosh I'm sorry to hear of the not-great relationship with your parents a parent's duty is to love and protect their child and if you felt you had to leave the household as soon as possible, that is not good. yikes at your mother going through your trash when you lived there!

Coop - jury duty! I hope it isn't a big horrid deal for you to go through. Are you all healed up from your fall?

Hi to everyone else!

my poor car! the car I love SO very much, has alot wrong with it. Bearings, lower control arm, ball joint, and bad enough rust to not pass inspection. I'm sure it has to do with the harsh winters and all the salt that goes on the roads. I'm waiting to hear the bad news, that it might not even be repairable, the body work being so extensive. UGh!! I know that's the chance with buying an older second hand car, but we have had good luck with beaters in the past, having them last 2 or even 3 years, this year was not the good luck year. So will have to go through the process of finding another car.

So I'm glad I have my motorcycle to commute with! because my car's been stuck at the mechanic for 3 days now.

Mowed the lawn and weedwhacked after work today, lawn looks so nice, wish it would not get shaggy so soon. Should have worn gloves to do the weedwhacking, I usually do, but didn't this time, now I will maybe get a blister on my palm.

Long day at work tomorrow, there's a wedding , and thank goodness I don't have to make the wedding cake, but i do have to make 122 servings of blueberry crisp. and get the servings onto plates without it being a mess. A challenge!

have a great night and a nice weekend!

I should have scrolled up and read all recent posts!!

PandaCupcake, wow that behavior of your mom sure does sound bonkers I'm glad your dad gave you a head's up but still!!! very frustrating situation indeed!!

flower - so sorry that even 'healthy' food like salad or peaches does not always work for you!! and that you were in pain and couldn't weed!

and i will gladly talk gardening with you I mowed the lawn yesterday, and today got the weedwhacker working again, I bought it from a second had store like 3 or 4 YEARS ago for $5 and it still works! Mostly It needs TLC. It's an electric one so I have to yank a 50000 foot cord all over the place but weedwhacking does the finishing touch to make a yard look freaking awesome My petunias are finally growing a bit, husband planted from seed "Magic Carpet" and they are pretty! but I the store bought ones ("Dream", that's a variety that is new to me) are gorgeous, BIG blooms and I love to deadhead so yeah they keep going late! I found some poppies coming up, that we started from seed last year, it is so fun to find things coming up from last year. A couple pansies self-seeded also! I keep saying I will post picture but I keep posting late at night when I should be in bed, I will get some pics here for you

Kathleen you have so much going on!! congrats to your daughter and best wishes on her surgery. I hope you can get your hip work done at home, somehow! and yay for Ireland!!!

Lisa HI to you my friend!! You had some GREAT life advice for both PandaCupcake and Kathleen!

Panda I am thinking of you this weekend with your mom. I hope she is not too off the rails. Birds chirping? yes I go to bed after the birds wake up. The early birds are currently starting at 3:50 where I live. I love the sound. Especially when they go into full symphony mode. The only way around it I know of is to close the windows so you do not hear them. Or get a cheap white sound machine??

Holly sorry your car is having so many problems. I think buying older cars in areas that have a lot of salt can be problematic. I had to get rid of my 18 1/2 year old car. The sub frame was so rotted that it may have been too dangerous to drive. Man, I loved that car. I hope all works out with your car one way or another. If this one is not worth fixing, I hope you find a beauty at a great price. That's a lot of blueberry crisp you have to make and plate. I am sure things will go well with it. What kind of poppies are coming up? I have oriental poppies. I LOVE when last year's plants seed themselves. I have even had petunias do that. BUT my condo association now puts down mulch. So no more petunias from last year. Or pansies, and johnny Jump ups. I do not like mulch. But I have a responsibility to keep my garden looking "presentable" because of the condo association board I was in the garden with a knife and shovel trying to remove some of the more stubborn and prolific overgrowth of plants and weeds. I need to do that for the other plants so they do not get choked out by the bully aggressive plants The peonies are looking beautiful. I have 3 different colors. Iris are out. And wild rose too. Well, lots of plants are in bloom. For my birthday someone sent me money to buy flowers. I bought a bunch of petunias. Some are wave. Others are the kind that have to be dead headed. I too like dead heading. Its a great way to communicate with the plants. Ahhhhh i love summer.

Hi to everyone else.

Today the eating was in control. I have to be careful because of my digestive system. So that cuts back the possibility of foods I can eat. And I do not keep trigger foods in the house. eg if I bought eggs, I would end up eating cake, lol. So I live on just a few foods. On my birthday someone told me to go buy lunch from them. So I did. I had "hot smoked" salmon. It was amazing. Not too dried out. Of course now I want it every day. I also had some other good food. For dinner I made Chinese food with rice. So on Saturday I let my body rest.

I hope everyone has a good Sunday <3 Pat

Hi all,

Holly, sorry to learn about the car. Flower, I wish I was good at recognizing flower types- I will have to search online so I can envision your garden!

So I’m headed back now from the parents’. It seemed they were having a lovely time; I hope they are proud of their decisions. I’m proud that I made it through the day. And I don’t intend to visit them again. I’m done.

Thanks, Holly. I do try.

Lisa, I hope you’ve been getting better sleep and that your tummy is better.
I’ve been trying to reduce or remove various things from my diet to see if my stomach will get better.
In early May I was eating a rice bowl at a chain restaurant and started feeling ill after a few bites, then was sick off and on for 10 days. I can’t tell if I am still not 100% since that day or if I am sensitive to something. Could be lactose? Maybe some foods have those sugar substitutes that cause problems, or gluten, or fats, carbonated drinks, caffeine, combination? Not sure

Today was forecast to be nice but turned out to be chilly and I had to spend the day shivering outdoors by a fire.

I don’t have the windows open when I hear the birds. I have an air cleaning machine which acts as a white noise machine but doesn’t cancel the birds. The only thing I can do is try to get to bed earlier with no late night caffeine etc, and then hopefully be in deep sleep by bird time so that I sleep through it.

Just because they are your parents, you don't owe them anything. Do what is best for you and your health.