June Ups and Downs Fighting Depression Thread

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    I have to go to my parents this coming weekend but trying not to think about it.
    Do you not get along with them, or is it a long drive there? sorry if I'm being too nosy or personal. I do like to get input from younger people, about their relationships with their parents. I miss our boys!!! We (husband and I ) tell ourselves that we did well by raising independent, self-sufficient kids, but they NEVER call or email unless we prod them. I thought that maybe it was a gender thing, that boys are like that, and girls tend to want to keep connected to their mom, but I don't know I try to remember how I felt about my mom when I was younger and I do admit that it felt like she was bugging me because I was so busy with working, my own kids, etc.
  • Quote: Do you not get along with them, or is it a long drive there? sorry if I'm being too nosy or personal. I do like to get input from younger people, about their relationships with their parents. I miss our boys!!! We (husband and I ) tell ourselves that we did well by raising independent, self-sufficient kids, but they NEVER call or email unless we prod them. I thought that maybe it was a gender thing, that boys are like that, and girls tend to want to keep connected to their mom, but I don't know I try to remember how I felt about my mom when I was younger and I do admit that it felt like she was bugging me because I was so busy with working, my own kids, etc.
    There’s a huge cultural difference between my parents and I as well as other factors. I don’t know what else to post but we always had food to eat growing up and they meant the best? There were different rules for me than the boys, and I left that household as soon as possible. And there was no privacy to the point where my mother would rummage through my trash. They were extremely angry the day i told them i had enrolled in college and was moving out in three days.
    It does take me about two hours each way (because I take public transportation most of the way) which I’m sure they don’t realize and I have claimed the trip is fine. They live in state half the year so I do try to visit every couple months but they guilt me about visiting even more. My brothers see them as they live closer and its free babysitting - they drop off their kids. My mother seems to think they are more important so their answers for not visiting are valid. They may have to take their kid to a sporting event or have prior plans with inlaws, etc. Meanwhile (this year debatable) I have always been busy yet unless I am on a business trip they feel I am available. It’s like, because I chose to be single I have no other obligations?

    I didn’t get to know my grandparents but there absolutely were issues with those relationships as well, so I don’t know why my parents act the way they do.
  • I've been called for Jury Duty! Well here's hoping it's not a murder trial
  • Quote: I've been called for Jury Duty! Well here's hoping it's not a murder trial
    Ooh! Last time I was called I actually went and checked in, watched the video, got lunch, then we were dismissed. Usually it gets canceled so that’s the furthest I’ve made it through the process- not sure if it’s been 3 years since; I know I can get called again after 3 years. Good luck! When I went it was interesting and the people were very nice and informative and explained the importance of our presence even though the cases didn’t end up needing us.

    Today was really messed up. I woke up and it was raining hard and my phone had an alert that the power was off. But my lights worked? My internet didn’t fully work. Anyway took half day off and then finally logged in and people needed me for stuff that actually wasn’t related to my job at all, so I am aggravated that stuff got escalated to director level because I was off line and the question the customer had wasn’t even something for me to do, it was something internal for his own company to do. Ugh

    I am going to head out this month to some other events to try to meet potential new friends.

    I haven’t been feeling well past month or so and am going to see if changing some of my diet helps.
  • I just spent an hour or more reading through every post since I last posted..... a month ago! Sounds like there have been a lot of Ups and Downs indeed! I am so sorry for those of you who are experiencing struggles right now. Do your best to keep one foot in front of the other and take one day and even one moment at a time. And..... I will try to practice what I preach as well! Life is just not easy some days. I am thankful that we have a place like this to come and relate to one another and find comfort and support. I have been dealing with a ton of different emotions and events in my life since I last posted, and I really need to get back to see my therapist, but I just don't want to add another appointment into my schedule. I know that sounds terrible, but all of my appointments (including my daughter's and keeping track of my son's appointments) have become a big part of my stress. My daughter graduated from high school on May 26th. She turned 19 on May 31st. And we had a combination grad and b-day party for her on the evening of June 1st. I have been busy planning for graduation and the big party. Now, my attention turns to our trip to Ireland in mid June! I don't think I've mentioned that yet. I absolutely can't wait for our vacation and hope I can finally relax once we are there, but I have SO much to do before we leave! My house is a MESS, and we have someone staying here with our dogs. She has stayed plenty of times and is well aware of my clutter problem, but I really need to get the house in some kind of order before we leave. I need to clear clutter and clean bathrooms thoroughly. I have tons of laundry to catch up on, which never ends. And, in the meantime, our appointments continue. And I have felt some of the exhaustion that many of you have spoken of, so working out after getting "the necessities" done just isn't happening. I went to 5 sessions of PT. The first one was really just an evaluation, so 4 active PT sessions. I felt like it was helping maybe a tiny bit, and then they told me that my insurance was only going to cover 6 visits. I am so angry and frustrated about that!!! I know it's my own fault that I waited so long to get help for my hip, but how is it supposed to get better in 6 visits?!? I haven't even scheduled the last one. I feel like it's pointless. They have given me resistance band exercises and stretches to do at home, so I am trying to focus on that. But now I am not getting regular workouts in. Just the resistance bands and stretches. And some days, I don't even have the energy for those after doing all of my running around for the day. I am just feeling incredibly stressed out and frustrated. Then, we will be home from Ireland for one day and then head to Cleveland Clinic for my daughter's pre-op and surgery the following day. They expect her to be in the hospital for two days after surgery if all goes well. I dread for her sake that she has to have this surgery and I pray that she won't experience too much pain afterward, but hopefully it will be a good outcome. It is an optional but necessary surgery at this time. It is pretty private, so I can't go into detail.

    One majorly positive thing is that my son got a job at our local grocery store!!! I am so proud of him! This is his 2nd or 3rd week and he is sticking with it and doing very well. He still has some major struggles in his life, but this is definitely a step in the right direction! I am very thankful!

    Well, that's what's going on with me. I just wanted to check in and let you know that I've read all of your posts and have lots to say but no energy for personals tonight. I am also overwhelmed with all there is to catch up on. Please know that I am thinking of all of you and wishing you well!
  • Quote: Hi all,

    I felt blah all weekend- cancelled my workouts to sleep in. Today I ironed a lot of clothing and cleaned and bought groceries.
    My neighbor is moving soon- she’s going to have roommates so she can pay less rent. I wonder who will move in.

    I have to go to my parents this coming weekend but trying not to think about it.
    Panda, I hope you get a great new neighbor who you can be friends with. Hoping the visit with your parents goes better than expected. I know how challenging those visits can be for lots of people.

    Sunday I did okay with food. Monday wasn't quite as okay. But not too bad. I am planning to make Tuesday a low calorie day. I want to stay low calories until Friday. I plan to forget the calories on Friday. Eat what I want.

    I hope everyone has a good Tuesday.
  • IBelieveinMe2 I don't know why your post didn't show up the last time I posted. I would have responded. I can see how much you have going on. Congrats on your daughter's graduation. And happy 19th birthday to her. Congrats to your son for his new job. I hope you have a great time in Ireland. And that you can get a much needed break from all the current daily activities of life. Being/feeling very tired and low energy is a common thing these days. For many it's pure exhaustion. I hope your insurance company will grant more PT apts if asked to do so. The number of apts seems too few.

    I hope everyone is having a good Tuesday
  • IBelieveinMe,
    The Ireland trip definitely sounds like something to look forward to! I wish you the best time! I’m glad your daughter enjoyed her graduation and your son’s new jpb is going well.

    Hope everyone is doing well.

    My father just secretly called me to nonchalantly reveal that my crazy mother is hatching a plan behind my back. I am fully livid. I kind of had a small suspicion but assumed I was being paranoid and guess what? I am NOT. My mother totally did NOT tell me the real reason she wants me to visit this weekend and my father just revealed and tried to just casually mention it but clearly she purposely didn’t tell me. I’m so mad right now. She is bonkers. I’m not sure if I should tell my brothers or what. I don’t want to get involved with that I guess they will just have to see me fuming the entire time. My father called to give me a heads up because he knows I will be upset and he knows what she is doing. So at the very least I’m glad I know a few days ahead because it would really be worse for everyone if I showed up and discovered that day. Although my mother doesn’t know my dad told me so I don’t know what I am going to say to her.

    How do I know if she is mentally challenged? Last time I went there she snuck about 9 items of clothing in my bag and I had to then make another trip to the donation bin. Why would she do that when I declined several times and plus those clothes were not my style at all and everything was many sizes too large for me? There are many things like this that make me question her sanity but it isn’t something on the decline; she’s always had these mental issues.

    I don’t feel I can cancel but I’m going to go and I’m not going to eat anything there and that will probably be my last visit this year.
  • I'm really tired tonight. I mean really tired and my stomach is really upset. Not a good night.

    I'll try to post tomorrow.
  • Quote: I'm really tired tonight. I mean really tired and my stomach is really upset. Not a good night.

    I'll try to post tomorrow.
    Lisa, sorry to read you’re having a rough night. Hope you get a good rest tonight.
  • Quote: Lisa, sorry to read you’re having a rough night. Hope you get a good rest tonight.
    I'm going to take a nap here pretty soon. My eyes are heavy.

    TMI alert!!!




    I've got gas so bad, stomach and well, you know.
  • Quote: IBelieveinMe,
    The Ireland trip definitely sounds like something to look forward to! I wish you the best time! I’m glad your daughter enjoyed her graduation and your son’s new jpb is going well.

    Hope everyone is doing well.

    My father just secretly called me to nonchalantly reveal that my crazy mother is hatching a plan behind my back. I am fully livid. I kind of had a small suspicion but assumed I was being paranoid and guess what? I am NOT. My mother totally did NOT tell me the real reason she wants me to visit this weekend and my father just revealed and tried to just casually mention it but clearly she purposely didn’t tell me. I’m so mad right now. She is bonkers. I’m not sure if I should tell my brothers or what. I don’t want to get involved with that I guess they will just have to see me fuming the entire time. My father called to give me a heads up because he knows I will be upset and he knows what she is doing. So at the very least I’m glad I know a few days ahead because it would really be worse for everyone if I showed up and discovered that day. Although my mother doesn’t know my dad told me so I don’t know what I am going to say to her.

    How do I know if she is mentally challenged? Last time I went there she snuck about 9 items of clothing in my bag and I had to then make another trip to the donation bin. Why would she do that when I declined several times and plus those clothes were not my style at all and everything was many sizes too large for me? There are many things like this that make me question her sanity but it isn’t something on the decline; she’s always had these mental issues.

    I don’t feel I can cancel but I’m going to go and I’m not going to eat anything there and that will probably be my last visit this year.
    Why do you put yourself through this?

    Just because it is family, does not mean you have to do anything.

    I had a great therapy session yesterday and we talked about something along this very line.

    The only thing you owe to anyone is yourself. Just think about what I said.
  • Quote: IBelieveinMe2 I don't know why your post didn't show up the last time I posted. I would have responded. I can see how much you have going on. Congrats on your daughter's graduation. And happy 19th birthday to her. Congrats to your son for his new job. I hope you have a great time in Ireland. And that you can get a much needed break from all the current daily activities of life. Being/feeling very tired and low energy is a common thing these days. For many it's pure exhaustion. I hope your insurance company will grant more PT apts if asked to do so. The number of apts seems too few.

    I hope everyone is having a good Tuesday
    Hi flower! I hope you are having a good day. It's so good to see you post.
  • Quote: I just spent an hour or more reading through every post since I last posted..... a month ago! Sounds like there have been a lot of Ups and Downs indeed! I am so sorry for those of you who are experiencing struggles right now. Do your best to keep one foot in front of the other and take one day and even one moment at a time. And..... I will try to practice what I preach as well! Life is just not easy some days. I am thankful that we have a place like this to come and relate to one another and find comfort and support. I have been dealing with a ton of different emotions and events in my life since I last posted, and I really need to get back to see my therapist, but I just don't want to add another appointment into my schedule. I know that sounds terrible, but all of my appointments (including my daughter's and keeping track of my son's appointments) have become a big part of my stress. My daughter graduated from high school on May 26th. She turned 19 on May 31st. And we had a combination grad and b-day party for her on the evening of June 1st. I have been busy planning for graduation and the big party. Now, my attention turns to our trip to Ireland in mid June! I don't think I've mentioned that yet. I absolutely can't wait for our vacation and hope I can finally relax once we are there, but I have SO much to do before we leave! My house is a MESS, and we have someone staying here with our dogs. She has stayed plenty of times and is well aware of my clutter problem, but I really need to get the house in some kind of order before we leave. I need to clear clutter and clean bathrooms thoroughly. I have tons of laundry to catch up on, which never ends. And, in the meantime, our appointments continue. And I have felt some of the exhaustion that many of you have spoken of, so working out after getting "the necessities" done just isn't happening. I went to 5 sessions of PT. The first one was really just an evaluation, so 4 active PT sessions. I felt like it was helping maybe a tiny bit, and then they told me that my insurance was only going to cover 6 visits. I am so angry and frustrated about that!!! I know it's my own fault that I waited so long to get help for my hip, but how is it supposed to get better in 6 visits?!? I haven't even scheduled the last one. I feel like it's pointless. They have given me resistance band exercises and stretches to do at home, so I am trying to focus on that. But now I am not getting regular workouts in. Just the resistance bands and stretches. And some days, I don't even have the energy for those after doing all of my running around for the day. I am just feeling incredibly stressed out and frustrated. Then, we will be home from Ireland for one day and then head to Cleveland Clinic for my daughter's pre-op and surgery the following day. They expect her to be in the hospital for two days after surgery if all goes well. I dread for her sake that she has to have this surgery and I pray that she won't experience too much pain afterward, but hopefully it will be a good outcome. It is an optional but necessary surgery at this time. It is pretty private, so I can't go into detail.

    One majorly positive thing is that my son got a job at our local grocery store!!! I am so proud of him! This is his 2nd or 3rd week and he is sticking with it and doing very well. He still has some major struggles in his life, but this is definitely a step in the right direction! I am very thankful!

    Well, that's what's going on with me. I just wanted to check in and let you know that I've read all of your posts and have lots to say but no energy for personals tonight. I am also overwhelmed with all there is to catch up on. Please know that I am thinking of all of you and wishing you well!
    Hi my wonderful friend!!

    Could you create a calender on a white board to help you keep appointments straight?

    Or perhaps get 1 calender for you. 1 calender for your son and 1 calender for your daughter. Pin them all up on your kitchen wall. They have those calender that are "big" calenders. Kinda like books that have large print.

    I use a calender app on my cell phone to keep track of my life crap.

    Can your son drive?

    They key to lessen stress is to try to organize your life a little better. You don't have to be perfect. Perfect does not exist, for anyone. It simply doesn't.

    I am so happy for your son.

    I hope your daughter heals quickly.

    Much love to you, Kathleen.
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    Lisa - so sorry to hear you don't feel like talking much but we are here for you!! Hey I LOVE shopping at Goodwill, too bad ours is almost 50 miles away. First, I love that the price is right. Second, I love that it is 'recycling, reusing' . Yay for you for taking care of the fur babies' itchy problem, they love you for that And I hope the new doctor is good for you.
    and that the cortisone shot gave you some relief.
    Holly,

    I'm sorry I didn't reply until now.

    Elvira has started itching again. I may give her another dose. I don't want to make her sick tho. I wish I had something to put on her skin to ease her dryness.

    My knee is much better. I like my new Dr a lot.

    I feel really weird today. My head feels weird. It's hard to explain.

    I miss you, Holly.