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I will respond to everyone's new posts but wanted to jot down a few things.
I finally relented a few weeks ago and bought a ton of new clothes in my new (slightly bigger) size. I've been wearing older, worn out casual clothes to work for last year or two, so these new clothes make me look more put together and I'm feeling more confident. I'm glad I swallowed my pride and bought new clothes in my new size.
My employment counsellor was sick last week, so I'm having to contact her to reschedule. I do not like using the phone it's taking me a while. I really need to keep my progress in that area going. I want to move on with my life and finally leave my current organization. I also want to move up in the world. I think my husband is finally understanding why moving up in my career and acquiring new skills is important to me.
I've been doing meditating lately and realized that a lot of things that I'm going through boil down to the fact that I'm experiencing profound separation and loneliness that has not be fixed simply by my being more social. It's a weird thought...I don't have a single friend left. I looked at some of our wedding pictures and I don't have a single friend left from those photos despite my best efforts. I've gone out of my way to stay connected to friends and family, but no one has been interested and finally I've been at a point where I can't put it the effort anymore - I need to focus on my own household (myself, husband and pets). It's a weird period of life. It's a big reason why moving up career wise is so important to me.
We also might be going to church again after a year's absence. I know we will, but its a matter of deciding to either stay at our church or find a new one.
Last edited by Cinnamonhearts; 05-05-2017 at 08:56 AM.
I will respond to everyone's new posts but wanted to jot down a few things.
I finally relented a few weeks ago and bought a ton of new clothes in my new (slightly bigger) size. I've been wearing older, worn out casual clothes to work for last year or two, so these new clothes make me look more put together and I'm feeling more confident. I'm glad I swallowed my pride and bought new clothes in my new size.
My employment counsellor was sick last week, so I'm having to contact her to reschedule. I do not like using the phone it's taking me a while. I really need to keep my progress in that area going. I want to move on with my life and finally leave my current organization. I also want to move up in the world. I think my husband is finally understanding why moving up in my career and acquiring new skills is important to me.
I've been doing meditating lately and realized that a lot of things that I'm going through boil down to the fact that I'm experiencing profound separation and loneliness that has not be fixed simply by my being more social. It's a weird thought...I don't have a single friend left. I looked at some of our wedding pictures and I don't have a single friend left from those photos despite my best efforts. I've gone out of my way to stay connected to friends and family, but no one has been interested and finally I've been at a point where I can't put it the effort anymore - I need to focus on my own household (myself, husband and pets). It's a weird period of life. It's a big reason why moving up career wise is so important to me.
We also might be going to church again after a year's absence. I know we will, but its a matter of deciding to either stay at our church or find a new one.
Hi cinammon,
I am so happy that you bought yourself some new clothes. I know we tell ourselves that we want to lose weight first but......When we have clothes that actually fit us, we feel better. I think that is so important. There is nothing wrong with taking care of ourselves.
I'm so sorry you don't have any friends, that is so tough. That does effect us when we feel alone. I have 2 good friends but I don't get to see them very often. I see them on Facebook though, so that is nice. Does your depression effect your ability to have friends? I chose to be alone these past years, it was hard to make myself go do things to meet new people. It's still hard to go but I did last Wednesday and it was fun.
I don't totally understand your post but htat is not important. The important things is we are here for you. Vent and know your post is important to us.
Last edited by lisaloveshearts; 05-05-2017 at 01:13 PM.
Lisa so glad you went out and had a good time!! and met lots of people, and made at least one friend Isn't it hard to make new friends once you're not a kid! and what a cutie kitty Feelix is! so glad he wasn't hurt in the dryer!!
Hi Holly,
I really did have a good time. I was a little uncomfortable but made myself stay. I will go again next Wed, as it is ladies night. I'm not going to stay as late though. I am still feeling the effects of a late night on Wed.
Feelix is a sweet kitty but does tend to get into things. i hope he's learned to stay out of the dryer.
I'm glad you were able to make some more money working for RB. Money is always a good thing.
Cinnamon yes that was a big step to buy the new clothes but a smart investment in your professional appearance but even more important your self-image and confidence I admire your ability to meditate and find things out about yourself, very revealing and helpful to yourself, and to others, it shows that one can do alot for ones self !
Lisa Hi and how are you today? Did you find the knee doctor okay last week? (or am I thinking of a different doctor?)
and HI to everyone else
I worked 3 days for the RB and am going to bank my earnings towards the eye doctors. Lots of other things I could put it towards, I have to put some dental work on the back burner but nothing terrible yet.
Our weather has been so crummy and bad for morale Last Thursday was the beautiful sunny day. Glad I took advantage of it! because since it has been either totally overcast, or raining, or about to rain, or just ending rain and tonight we might get 1" to 2" of snow! I know it will go away the next day but ugh. I have SO many plants to put in the ground, or in final flowerpots, but they have to wait. we have started from seed - petunias, pansies, marigolds, morning glories, and climbing beans. Plus the veggies - tomatoes, squash, pumpkins, gourds.
Holly, yes, I found the Dr's office but it wasn't easy. This was my first time at this particular office, even though I had seen this Dr in another town. He has numerous offices in the area. Both knees got shots, I didn't cuss this time. Just said, "son of a gun" on both knees. It is painful but i suck it up, put my big girl panties on and just do it. My knees feel better. The dr mentioned that in the future, He would want me to lose some weight for knee replacement. I thought that was kinda weird. They have mentioned that before, just in passing.
Holly, our weather has sucked lately. It's been cold and awful windy. The lake has been choppy and is full because of the daily rain we've been getting.
How is everyone? It's been quiet in here lately. I hope you ladies are ok.
I had to set my my wireless blu-ray player. I was clueless as to why it didn't work. I went into the setting on my tv and set up my internet on it. I will try again tomorrow to get that damn blu-ray player working. I wish now, i had gotten the one with the wires from the blu-ray plyer to the tv, simple. grrrrrrrrr
Ok, I'm checking out tonight. Sweet dreams, friends.
Lisa I hope your get your blu-ray player figured out. I love having internet through the TV, that's how I do my exercise.
Overcast and cold here and yes, a few dumb snowflakes are drifting around. Snow on the green grass. Ugh we have so many seedlings/little plants in the house that want OUT. I want them OUT
tomorrow morning will be my first day back at the summer job place I will load up my car tonight. I have about 5 boxes of stuff...my own kitchen tools, gadgets, and the extra clothes/shoes/living stuff that I put in my upstairs room for changing work clothes, and when I spend the night. And one of those boot/glove dryer-warmers, much better to use than to put wet boots and gloves in the oven to dry
Hope to hear from some other chicks here soon! I feel like I'm hogging the place
I've been so incredibly busy lately, I've hardly had any time to breathe! I am grateful to be able to swing by here this a.m. and say hello. I miss being here as often!
We are going on vacation in a couple of weeks to see family in Virginia. Looking forward to it, but it is the first vacation since my mom passed away.
Also having some anxiety/depression about upcoming Mother's Day
I'm trying, and some days are easier than others. I suppose, though, I'm making it through.
I am also beginning to study for my state licensure exam (Chemical Dependency Counselor.) I'm at about 3,200 intern hours out of the 4,000 hours needed. I'm getting a bit nervous, LOL! I'm not such a great test taker, and I had to request accommodations under the American's With Disabilities Act (I have ADHD.) So... we'll see... All the good luck vibes are welcome
Saw my doctor the other day and she's sending me to a specialist for my PCOS (ugh) and also wants me to get a transv. ultrasound and a mammogram d/t my history with Cancer. I'm actually quite nervous, LOL!
Well, I will be back soon! Going to read through some posts then get to work.
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I had my final (I hope!) breast reconstruction surgery yesterday and came home from the hospital early yesterday evening. All went well, although peeking into my shirt and past the bandages, I look lopsided, which has me worried. I hope it is just due to swelling on one side for now. They reminded me, prior to surgery, that even natural breasts are not perfect. But I told them I wanted a perfect result anyway! Time will tell, I guess. I am just SO relieved the surgery is behind me now. I was dreading it! Due to infection along the way, I think that was my 5th breast surgery since having a double mastectomy due to breast cancer in March of 2015. Feeling pretty good already, but I am on pain meds and taking it very easy.
We decided to have an alternative to prom and early 18th birthday party for my daughter since she wasn't able to take the sophomore boy to her prom at school. It was this past Saturday night (the 6th) and she had the time of her life!!! She danced with her dad, grandpa, and cousins. It was really a wonderful night!
My son finished his semester at school and is now officially a sophomore in college!!! So happy for him that he was able to be successful in school this semester despite all of his struggles last summer and even right up until the semester started. Now, I am on his butt to get a summer job. He is updating his resume as I type these words. I am hoping and praying that he will follow through!
petitemommy!!! So happy to have you here, but sad that you are down in the dumps. I can relate to getting bored and unfulfilled with household chores, as I am a stay-at-home mom/homemaker. I actually prefer it that way, though. For the longest time, I couldn't work outside the home due to anxiety and depression, so I guess it's what I am used to. Please feel free to come here often and vent all you want. We are on your side!
Lisa: I'm so happy to hear that you went to the bar last Wednesday night and met several people! That is definite progress! Good for you for pushing outside of your comfort zone and doing something just for YOU! So scary that cute little Feelix took a tumble in the dryer! So happy that he is okay!
Holly: Best wishes to you as you begin your summer job tomorrow! So happy that you will be back to a friendly place where you belong! You are way too kind to help out the r@t b@st@rd, but I guess I can't blame you since the money is good. Happy to hear that you are able to get back out into your yard to work now that your eye has recovered (I am assuming). I know you love that yardwork!
Cinnamonhearts: I am so impressed with all of the self-knowledge and insights you are working so hard for and getting! That is awesome!!! Good for you for going out and buying clothes that fit you right now! When I was doing a coaching program for weight loss in 2015, the leader stressed to us that we DESERVED to have clothes that fit us right where we are right now; that we DESERVED to feel good in our clothes NOW. So that is just what you are doing! Great job! Your practice of meditation is inspiring me to try meditating, too. It is difficult for me to get and stay quiet with my thoughts for very long, so it would be a huge challenge for me. My faith means the world to me and has been my rock through MANY traumatic situations in my life, so I fully support you in going back to church. In my opinion, it can only help matters (assuming you are attending a good church). Good luck with your decision about staying with your current church or going with a new one. My best advice would be to follow your heart!
Coop: It is great to hear from you! I was getting a bit worried because we hadn't heard from you in awhile (although I'm not one to talk about THAT subject). I hope all will be well with your OH's Gran! That must be scary, especially since you live far away from her and she's trying to cover up her memory mistakes. Big hugs to you!
JesikaBeth: Glad you had a chance to come up for air and pop in and say hello! Hope you have a wonderful time on your vacation to Virginia! I understand that all of these "firsts" since your mom passed away must be so difficult. And with Mother's Day coming up, that will be a tough day for you, too. I will be thinking about you and sending my prayers and hugs. Best of luck to you while you are studying for your state licensure exam to become a chemical dependency counselor. There is such a serious need for good counselors in that area! Sorry you are nervous about going to a specialist for your PCOS and having to do a transv. ultrasound and a mammogram. I would be, too, especially with my cancer history as well. Let's just hope and pray for a good result! Please keep us posted!
Last edited by IBelieveInMe2; 05-09-2017 at 04:04 PM.
Kathleen, I hope you are ok. I am very very glad that that was the last of your surgeries. I can't even imagine what you have been through, You're a tough cookie.
I didn't go out last night. I was under the weather. I've been getting small migraines every day and have been taking my Imitrex to help. They seem to be coming late in the day, except for today. I didn't have a great day.
I am still texting with my friend from Okcupid. I feel like we are friends and just chat about what goes on in our daily lives. Some days we don't talk, it's just very casual.
Kathleen Oh it's always so good to see your name and font here CONGRATS on hopefully your FINAL surgery!!!! I hope your recovery is quick and smooth and that there is no final lopsidedness You ARE a tough cookie as Lisa said, you have been through SO much personally, then physically, and dealing with family things...you rock girl! Hey that is great that your daughter had a good 'alternate' time, you must have put in alot of planning to make that work. And congrats to your son!! he stuck to it even through struggling. Because he has such a supportive mom Again, hoping so much there is no problem with recovery and we are thinking of you!
Lisa sorry to hear you are under the weather with migraines having never had one I dont' how to relate to the pain but they sound awful. Hope you are pain free today Is your weather improving?
JesikaBeth good to see you Yes it will be difficult for you on Mother's Day try to dwell on the love instead of the loss. Oh and yes plenty of good vibes from us to you on the State exam!
Our weather might finally be improving! we had 2 days without rain..and maybe the sun came out a couple times...and it has stayed above freezing for about 5 nights now..someday I can get all these seedlings planted outside!
the next door construction goes on and on..it's been 13 months now. I see that yesterday they came 5" (yes that is inches ) over our property line with dirt from their continuous excavating. I wish I had the time to SIT on our property line as they lumber up to it with the huge excavator to keep them from depositing even ONE molecule of dirt on our property
It was really nice this afternoon. Tomorrow is supposed to be even nicer, sunny and 75 degrees I think.
I had a slight headache today, not as bad as previous days. The neighbor had a barbecue and the smoke kinda bothered me. Buggy kept hearing them out back and he slithered into the closet, I bet, 10 times. He's the kitty that lived in my burnt house for 2 weeks.
Jennifer is coming sunday for mothers day. I am cooking and we are taking flowers to mom's grave. I didn't go last year, it was still too fresh. I will be working on the house tomorrow so it's nice for Jennifer. I need to pick some stuff up and then run the sweeper other than that, it's not too bad.
My blue yoga pants seem to be fitting better around the waist.
One more thing, Lily, my smallest kitty, she's actually technically a kitten, has made a friend. The neighbor Rottie comes to the window, jumps on the house so she can see lily. When lily hears her, she goes to the window. Here is this 100 pound Rottie friends with a 5 pound (at the very most) kitten.
One more thing, Lily, my smallest kitty, she's actually technically a kitten, has made a friend. The neighbor Rottie comes to the window, jumps on the house so she can see lily. When lily hears her, she goes to the window. Here is this 100 pound Rottie friends with a 5 pound (at the very most) kitten.
that is adorable!! and shows that Rotties are usually such gentle big babies.
Hi Lisa and kewl that your yoga pants feel looser!!
Happy Mother's Day to all mothers here, and honoring our mothers who have passed on *prayers* Husband and I are going to older son's home this afternoon, he is hosting and younger son and daughter-in-law are coming also. It will be nice to be together!
Today will be my last Sunday off in a long, long time but that's OK because it's the summer job time. And even though it's 40 and rainy today, there is supposed to be a warming trend finally coming (it's about time!!)
I stopped by for a good catch-up today, but I'm afraid I'm too tired. I visited my Dad yesterday, and I always seem to have a few insomnia nights after I go see him.
Apparently he hurt his side, and it was still incredibly sore a week later, so he went to hospital to have it checked over. This was 2 weeks ago, he didn't feel a need to tell us about it. Now I'm stressing about him not keeping us in the loop about his life/health again. I still can never get a hold of him when I phone, and I call 1-2 times weekly, but he will never call me.
I also got another full day with his girlfriend, who I felt was a bit inappropriate again. That is also stressing me out.
I'll try to stop by again hen I'm less tired, I can't keep my eyes open today!
and am going to bank my earnings towards the eye doctors. Lots of other things I could put it towards, I have to put some dental work on the back burner 
but nothing terrible yet. 
I will load up my car tonight. I have about 5 boxes of stuff...my own kitchen tools, gadgets, and the extra clothes/shoes/living stuff that I put in my upstairs room for changing work clothes, and when I spend the night. And one of those boot/glove dryer-warmers, much better to use than to put wet boots and gloves in the oven to dry 
Time will tell, I guess. I am just SO relieved the surgery is behind me now. I was dreading it! Due to infection along the way, I think that was my 5th breast surgery since having a double mastectomy due to breast cancer in March of 2015. 
So happy for him that he was able to be successful in school this semester despite all of his struggles last summer and even right up until the semester started. Now, I am on his butt to get a summer job. He is updating his resume as I type these words. I am hoping and praying that he will follow through! 
petitemommy!!! 
And with Mother's Day coming up, that will be a tough day for you, too. I will be thinking about you and sending my prayers and hugs. 
You ARE a tough cookie as Lisa said, you have been through SO much personally, then physically, and dealing with family things...you rock girl! 
Hey that is great that your daughter had a good 'alternate' time, you must have put in alot of planning to make that work. And congrats to your son!! he stuck to it even through struggling. Because he has such a supportive mom 
to all mothers here, and honoring our mothers who have passed on *prayers* Husband and I are going to older son's home this afternoon, he is hosting 