IBelieve, thank you for the kind words!
I'm so happy that you're looking out for your son. So many people don't get to experience having understanding, supportive parents, and so much healing could take place if there were more parents like you! I hope his sessions continue to go well and that he continues to progress.
I also like the idea of cutting off your meals early! Once I trust myself to not binge, I want to take that more intuitive approach to eating and weight loss, too.

Happy Monday, everyone!

Hi ladies, I'm back. To my old name that is. I went to Jennifer's today to wait for for a UPS package, for her. It had to be signed for. I found the list of my online passwords while I was there and brought it home.

I had kind of a bad day. I had a coughing spell while i was driving home and just about passed out. I have never done that in my life and it was damn scary. I couldn't see and I could feel myself not being able to think. I was so scared. I have never fainted in my life and yet, I know what was happening. I did manage to take my foot off the gas and hit the brake a little. I don't remember a whole lot but i do remember a few thoughts like I can't see and I can't think.

I went to aaron's today and started renting to own, a really nice lap top. The new one I bought last week, sucks. I only paid $200 for it and I got what I paid for. crap
Kathleen, it is so great to see you posting. Yes, I am pretty much at home here. Not all the boxes have been gone through but I am sooooooooo close. lol I have friends who want to come see the house and I want all the boxes gone though and ripped up. I remembered to put the trash out yesterday so I have empty garbage cans now. I'm so happy. lol Geez louise, silly things make me happy.

I finished a book called Father Of Lies. It's kinda spooky but it dragged on. I finally finished it. There are 2 more in the series that I will probably read too.



Cinnamon, you are so sweet. Thank you very much for your kind words.

I understand about skimping on sheets. I wish I could but I have worked in places that got bed bugs from second hand items. I hardly go to second hand stores anymore. I am just really paranoid.

I don't have room for a bedroom suite in my house just a bed. The house is really small but I still love it.

Thank you, I'm doing pretty well. Mom is always with me.

Holly, I haven't ordered piyo yet. I need to put some money on my debit card to order online. I'm just ordering the 59.99 set, not the more expensive set.

It looks kinda hard but I'll just start out for 5 minutes and work my way up. It took me years to get this big, it won't happen overnight so I'll try to be patient.

I've also thought about joining Nutrisystem. We'll see. You all know I am not a great cook. It would be great to have all my meals just sent to me. Anyway, it's just something I'm thinking about.

Just always remember, holly, that we ladies here love you to pieces. You are perfect just the way you are.

Britt, thank you so much for keeping the thread moving. We are so glad to have you here.

Is there anyone else I missed? Probably and if I did I apologize. I have written so much I am confused who I might have forgotten.

I had a huge falling out with my sister, yesterday. I have not one nice thing to say about her and I'm done. I told her to never contact me again unless it has to do with mom's estate. Once the house is sold, I will never talk to her again. She's a ***** and I'm done for good. She is very sick and it's awful to say but when she passes, I'm not going to her funeral.

Many of you on here know me pretty well. Some, not yet know me very well. Just know that I do not get mad easily but when I do........

Have a great night, ladies.

Cinnamonhearts: I am so sorry you've been too depressed to post. It made me so angry to read about how awful you were treated by your doctor! There is no excuse for how rude and unhelpful she was to you! Sorry you had such a bad experience. You deserve better treatment! Hang in there!

Lisa: Sorry to hear that you had a falling out with your sister... again. I can't blame you for being done with her. She sounds like a miserable (and toxic) person and like she wants to try to drag you down with her. Good for you for standing up for yourself and setting a firm boundary with her!

Britt: Thank you for your generous compliments on my parenting. I am by no means a perfect parent, but there is nothing in this world more important to me than my children. I do the very best I can. I just hope and pray it is enough! It is very difficult to see my son struggle so much. It makes me think that we must have failed him in some way.

oh please do not let that false thought enter your mind!! though I know that's what parents do. But you are such a caring and loving mother Kathleen, you did NOT fail him in any way!!

Cinnamonhearts - Oh man I wanted to punch the 'doctor" who was so disrespectful to you!! that must have been an AWFUL thing to sit through. what a jerk.

I will be back tonight for personals for ALL -

I go through my day and I remember what my friends here say and it does help me so much!!

Lisa - thank you so mjch for the loving me to pieces thought!!

IBelieve: do NOT feel that way. You aren't perfect at all, but you are making an effort to take his concerns seriously and help him address them. As someone who did not get that growing up, there is nothing I would have appreciated more than for my parents to validate my feelings, acknowledge that depression and anxiety are real illnesses, and help lead me to the help I needed instead of having to figure things out on my own. And I don't think I am assuming too much in saying that I'm sure your son has friends whose parents are that way as well, and I'm sure he appreciates it. You're doing your best. Don't be so hard on yourself!
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Today is a really good day so far. I meditated this morning, and I am in such a better place. I really need to get back into it on a daily basis. I feel so empowered!

Lisa It was so scary reading of the coughing fit where you almost passed out! thank goodness you kept control of the car. Do you have a cold that is making you cough?? I hope that never happens again!

booo to the computer not working out

Oh gosh I never thought of bedbugs in a second hand store before guess I've been lucky!! because I love to score cheap things in second hand stores.

I hope you get your house in order to have your friends over LOL at being happy at getting the trash out on time, I hear ya on that one, it means there was at least one thing we were in control of, in our life

take care of yourself Lisa Oh and yay for getting your user name back

Britt that is so wonderful that your meditation helps you so much! you must have strong focus to get so much out of it. way to go! I hope it helped you have a wonderful day

Cinnamonhearts (yes you can call me Holly or Vermontmom) again, what an awful experience with the doctor!

I have to say I did accomplish those 10 days with no sugar or flour but then fell off the wagon hard. But I hope to yet try again to curb my eating and work out more. I do like the sound of trying the yogurt with sugar free jam!

Kathleen It is always so good to see you here Kathleen and I hope you are able to keep convincing your son to follow up on continuing visits with the therapist. And that the relationship with the young lady keeps going well! I love the visual of your stars in your journal to mark your workout sessions