I love this little community. I have been away for a week or two, but am back
Mostly, I was feeling too depressed to post.
Coop – Thank you for your kind words
I felt pretty depressed since I last posted and did not attend the gym until last week. I did however decide I could commit to the gym three days a week instead of four, so it became more tolerable...on my other free day I can do something else in the mornings. It is hard to explain, I didn’t want to be around others and I also felt boxed in quite a bit. When you lose weight and you get used to exercise frequently...sometimes, even if you are doing everything you are supposed to do in terms of exercise and diet, you can feel really boxed in. Before it all might have been new and exciting, but at a certain point it is like – is this what the rest of my life is going to look like? Go to the gym 5, 6, 7 days a week and eat according to my plan or feel like everything is going to come crashing down? Thanks for sharing your experience, yes – for me, I just say hi to the receptionist and that is pretty much it. But it felt like I had a place to go, something regular to do (like a routine), and a place that I belonged to.
So, last week I went three times and it felt less pressured and more relaxed. It went really well
Thank you for asking.
I did not get my prescription; the doctor’s visit was a bit of a nightmare actually. After multitasking and barely listening to a word I said, she told me she felt that I just wanted the medication to lose weight. I corrected her and said, actually, I had already lost 120 pounds and wasn’t looking to take meds to lose weight. I follow a weight loss plan that is sensible and have been doing so for three years (or whatever) and also exercise. I was looking for medical help with a binge eating disorder that was getting out of control. She just kept on sort of smiling and sort of laughing and repeating that I just wanted to lose weight. She wasn’t hearing anything I said. I actually said I would be interested in any alternative therapies. I kid you not, she said that my problem is that I have trouble controlling my impulses and that anti depressants would help that. She started writing out a prescription for it even though I said I wasn’t interested. I then said, don’t most anti depressants actually make you gain weight/increase your appetite? She said that she had picked one for me that had the weight gaining effect, but not as much as others. Ok, that is not going to help me at all.
Seriously Coop I felt so humiliated. She even said, Vyvanse is not used for binge eating disorder it is used for headaches. So not true, I have done my research – looks like she didn’t do hers. It is approved in my country for binge eating disorder. It was such a horrible appointment, I felt like I told someone my most intimate details and they just threw it back in my face.
Regarding the CBT techniques – I am still practicing these. I feel like the last few weeks have been so tough. These are helping me hang on until there is some sort of relief. I am loving doing video journaling – it has been so helpful! I am going to do a separate post with some updates and comments about my video journaling.
Coop – hope everything is going well with you. I am glad that your sister and your family received good news!
VermontMom (Holly?)– Congratulations regarding your achievements with the SB diet! I am glad that your snow is almost gone. About your yogurt – can you get an unsweetened/artificial sugar jam made for diabetics to mix with your plain yogurt? I used to mix jam with plain Greek yogurt all the time and it is delicious. About your boss..I agree, it is best not to think about what he thinks. Some people....I can’t imagine commenting or thinking negatively about someone else’s weight.
Kathleen – hope you are doing well
I really like reading your posts. I think that it is excellent that you are able to see a counsellor/family therapist. I bet it was nice to positive feedback – that you are laughing more. Congrats on your seven pound weight loss!!! I am glad to hear that things have smoothed out at home. I can definitely relate to family conflict having a big effect on your state of mind. You sound like an amazing mom. I am glad your son is able to see a therapist. I am so glad he found a nice, down-to-earth girl! It might give him a different perspective of how other people perceive life, just like with me and my husband. I have learned so much from him – he is so laid back and has a healthy outlook. He also says I have taught him lots too, so that is nice.
That is an interesting technique – cutting yourself off earlier in the meal. I might look into it. It is nice that you are able to recognize that it is an area that you excel in.
Lisa – So excited to hear that you are getting all settled in! I am glad to hear that you got a bed, bedding etc. I always skimped on sheets and blankets...mostly got everything second hand and well loved from family. I recently bought a new to me bedroom set and bought brand new sheets. It is such a nice comfort, isn’t it??? The bedroom set is solid wood and provided much needed organization for our clothes. I have never bought a bedroom set before. Anyways, so I am very excited for you!
Lisa, you are always such an inspiration! I always love reading about the nice things you are doing for yourself and the things you are doing towards obtaining your goals (weight wise and other wise).
Jesika – Congrats on your weight loss
Hope that you have a great week. My thoughts are definitely with you and your wife (I am sorry; I know I am responding quite a bit later to your saying that you were celebrating your mom's birthday).
to brd88! please do join us here. even though you are not feeling the excitement i want to congratulate you on your upcoming doctoral study!! you MUST be a smart and ambitious person even if you dont feel it now! again welcome to our group 
is FINALLY shining here and we are mostly dug out from the 2 feet of snow. 
and it is almost at my highest from 15 years ago 
It's so important to put yourself first sometime! I agree, too, about being grateful. Sometimes it's easy to forget to do and get caught up in the negative, but being grateful can have a positive snowball effect, too, by attracting more things to be grateful for into our lives (or at least noticing them)! So let's do it, ladies!!! 
That will go a long way toward pulling you out of your "funk" by giving you some positive energy. So happy to see you keep posting! 
I hope that you and your wife had a special outing and good weather at the park to celebrate and reflect and remember your mom on her birthday. Wow... 54... she sure was young! 
We talked for awhile that night, but he tends to hold everything inside... even with his therapist, so ~ with his permission ~ I went with him to his most recent appointment because I wanted to be sure certain things were addressed in his session. I am trying to keep on him to make follow-up appointments each week, so that he stays consistent with his therapy. I have stressed to him how vital it is to his mental and emotional health right now. This girl has given him extra incentive to get healthy so that he can be in a healthy relationship, because she really seems "with it," well-rounded, and very down to earth. I think she sees the goodness in him (which there is a lot of) and is actually trying to help him to see it in himself. I am very thankful that she came into his life when she did (regardless if this goes anywhere or not). An answer to prayer, I believe.