I have also seen a counselor. I thought it helped a lot. Unloading on someone neutral is nice ! Hope everyone has a great day!

OK OK I changed it...

I HAVE TO TELL YOU ALL SOMETHING!!! I only told 2 people I applied for the biggest loser...I am not a tell everyone everything person...BUT I was looking at the view cause they just keep going up. Well on youtube it will tell you the area they were viewed from and then how the video was found. Well there is a think called external views...meaning I posted it somewhere and someone clicked on it. Well I posted it here and to some facebook sites. THEN I only EMAILED it to the biggestloser casting as my entry..Well there was 3 views from here at fat chicks and then one from facebook and 2 from the email...SO THAT MEANS they viewed it not only ONCE BUT TWICE!!! That has to count for something...if there was no shot they wouldn't have watched it 2 times!!! LOL so ok I just had to share cause I was excited!!!

on a lower not I have a sick child who threw up then pooped himself while sleeping to which I about threw up when I put him in the tub to take off the over flowing pull up...yeah NASTY...glad I bought extra lysol earlier this week!!
I had one of those awful days where I just wanted to crawl under the covers and hid...its such a horrible cycle my house work stresses me and depresses me, I am so over weight I have little to no energy and cant seem to get to all of it plus the kids, then my friend of 15 years cut me off for not much of a reason and i finally got her to talk today and bout had me in tears, then all this causes me to just be on edge and snappy with my kids...its hard to do anything and takes sooo much effort being so over weight so when they make messes because they were goofing off it makes me mad...I have NO flipping consitancy in my home area...I have some basic structure but thats about it...I NEED A TOTALLLLLL MAKEOVER. I know the biggest loser wouldnt fix my problems but it would sure help me with the weight and they have group therapy and stuff while your on the ranch and that would help and I could have more energy and start fresh...SOOO to answer...yes I am having an I really hate myself day!!

SORRY I am adhd and I know the above is very run together and a mess...like me...a hot mess...so thanks for listening girls...your pretty much all I got to listen and understand. My friend that cut me off knew me inside and out and understood everything when i told her....my other good friend is way busy with work and her family never much time to talk to her and of course my husband listens but doesn't get it sometimes!! SO THANK YOU!!

I wish I could see the counselor now. I'm having a panic attack right now. This is the 3rd straight night that this has happened. Prozac isn't helping with this. I do feel better depression-wise, but panic-wise, I'm feeling really crappy. I wish my regular doctor would put me back on clonazepam. I'm so tired of having nightly attacks.

Momof4- That is really exciting!!! I hope you get picked!!

Momo i hope you get on the biggest loser that would be fab for you. Hope your child is feeling better now. Keep your spirits up things will get better and were all here for you xxx

Franice i would go back to your doctor and tell then that prozac on its own aint working and you want something else xxx

momof4, I sure hope also that your child is better what a mess moms have to deal with...and that you get picked!

ems81 hi, are those progression pics of you in your avatar? is so, wow!

Hi to everyone else. We got about a foot of snow yesterday, not as much as others in NE but still a lot. I am still feeling pretty blah about the future. I'm trying to just put one foot in front of the other.

I have to write a letter to appeal the hospital grant being declined, I am not a begging person but I have to try.

I'm trying to get rid of some clutter (always, always, always) It's hard when you work for a couple of hours, and you have two huge garbage bags, but it doesn't LOOK like you did anything.

my positive thoughts for today - my knee isn't hurting right now...and I'm able to shovel snow, and to try to get rid of clutter, on my days off.

Hi Holly yes they are progression pics when i first done ww im inbetween the middle one and the last one now im hoping to get to the weight in the last one by july so i got about 28lbs to loose xxx

So according to what I heard on the news, the third Monday in January is supposed to be the most depressing day. According to the person who discovered/decided this it's because the holiday buzz is worn off and the bills are coming in, it's cold and dark... etc.

The third Friday in June is supposed to be the happiest day of the year.

hey everyone i lost 3.5lbs tonight. Hope your all well xxxx

Hi peeps,

It has been a loong week. I had four 14hr days in a row. I was off tonight and I'm off tomorrow. Thank goodness. I'm just done.

Momof4, I still haven't watched your video but it's on my list for this weekend. I've just been too busy or tired.

I finally went to the dr. about my ankle/foot that has been hurting since summer. I think I pulled something back when I was actually working out regulary and the pain came and went. Now it has morphed into something else. My whole foot hurts and is causing my leg to cramp. I got an anti-inflamatory shot in it and some medication. I go back in two weeks to see if it helped.

I'll try to catch up more this weekend.

Ems: Congrats on the 3.5 lbs!! Way to go!!

>.<

When i was at dads i was feeling great and had planned out all the stuff i was gonna do when i got back home, but now im here i just want to curl up and hide. I just realised it's because at dads I can be left alone for hours at a time and not really have to have a conversation unless I want to, but here I dont get a moment to myself! It's always a shouted conversation from the other side of the house or some "you're just getting bigger and bigger" or "why havent you got a job yet???" or asking some question i've already answered, or making me do something simple that she could do by herself.

"Go away and leave me alone" isn't some secret teenage code for "im lonely - suffocate me with attention", it means 'go away and leave me alone!' >.<

Now Im scared to weigh myself because even though I was being good with moderation and not eating wheat based carby foods, since ive been back (and it hasnt even been a day!) Ive already binged on bacon and mince tarts

hope-I hope you get to watch it...thats not cool about your foot I hope it gets better quick!!!

ems-that is awesome!!! Congrats on the loss!!

Summer-sorry...I guess as a mother we don't want our kids to feel alone and hid...but as a depressed person I totally understand what you feel! Hope things get better!!

I am to be getting up in less than 4 hours to go to a church class...but I am up with 2 3year olds who are sick...one is puking out the butt (as she tells me) and the other is puking out the mouth...so I have been wiping butts and mouths, showering one, changing sheets, cleaning up the floor, washing puked stuff..doesnt seem to be ending anytime soon.....so guess Im staying home..Hope we dont get in trouble there are only 3 classes and me and dh HAVE to attend them!

Thanks girls how is everyone? x

welcome popcorngirl x

cool :d x