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Well once again, you all were right. It was just what my boss said it was about.......Me and my overly dramatic thoughts. lol. So no big deal and yes I'm still employed!!! lol. Who'd a thought that'd be good news to me after all the complaining I've done about that job? Well that job that I've been complaining about is literally putting food on the table! And the big thorn that was once in my side is no more, at least for me. Getting rid of the Weasel was the best thing for our team I do believe! And guess what? Our new supervisor already has approved my time off for the end of September!!! That would have never happened with the "Weasel"!!! So now we can begin planning and yup we are still going somewhere, I don't care if we go somewhere and camp out, we are going!!! lol.
We are now maybe thinking about Gettysburg and possibly Washington, D.C. But I suppose Savannah, GA is still an option too.
I kinda fell off the wagon a bit but I'm ok, I know I will be just fine. DH had a job interview and a job offering. Only thing is its very low pay and further away than we'd like, esp with gas prices the way they are. So he's not gonna take it. He did file for unemployment so we'll see if that goes through. I'm still not worried. I believe in us. So we'll be just fine.
We are thinking about "downsizing" to a cheaper apt. though. Our rent isn't the problem here, its the stupid ulities that are killing us! Our town has its "own" ulitilities so they are a lot more expensive! Put it this way, we have a 800 sq. feet apt and we pay MORE than my in-laws do for their 1500 sq. feet HOUSE!
The only advantage we have here is we have no lease and we have been here a while and the owners do like us. So kind of a toss up. The in-laws have let it be known to us that we are always welcome there, if we need it. That is very sweet, but I'd rather not until we absolutely have too. Plus I believe in my husband and I know he'll find something very soon. If not he said he'd just go and work at Wal-Mart or something for the interim.
Anywho, that is the latest news from "Sassy's Corner"
Not much to report this morning...Have had a lingering headache this morning. dh Closes tonight so he has just been hanging out this morning..But I hate when he closes cause nights are always long when he is working all evening!! He used to work 3 a week sometimes 4 but now that he is manager he only has to work 2 in a 5 week schedule...so its nicer now...
I sat and did bills and UGHHH..Once sept comes it wont be bad but like with all the kids its hard to not have a lot of money and only go off of one income. I really think I might open up to baby sitting in sept. Because then it will be school i will be here all the time because of school and we wont be as busy...Just afraid of getting a kid that is really really bad and stuff. Now days not a lot of people discipline their kids. some kids mouths are just foul and they dont listen. But its something that would help and give extra spending money esp. with Christmas coming that would help!!! oh I dont know guess I gotta figure stuff out!!
Well I hope everyone else is doing good...
Sassy-thank goodness it wasnt anything major and u still got a job!!!
Sassy I am so glad everything went well at work. What a relief!
Hope Hi!! I guess I should have posted last night Hope you are having a good day at work. I'm having to work on my cholesterol levels as well. I have to make a dr's appt soon and need to get my blood work done before hand, but I'm a little nervous and have been trying to cut down on my egg consumption with the hopes that was why it was so high last time. I donno.
Oh and the bee in the tat is to remind me not to put much store in what "man" says and rely more on God. Scientist say a bumble bee shouldn't be able to fly, but God made it and it does. So now whenever I watch the news and start feeling, whats the point I have a reminder to smarten up. And yes the flowers are my girls in their favorite colours. Amanda-Lynn is purple, Bridget is orange and Colleen is blue.
Amarie I hope last night was better Good luck with the packing. Not the easiest things at the best of times but two totally different trips? And we would love to see a pic of you in all your finery!(hint,hint)
Momof4 congrats on the cleaning. I keep telling myself that I have to tackle the bedroom as all our clothes are just folded and stacked! With the mending thrown in for good measure! Hope you are feeling better today as well.
bella Congrats on the three pounds Whoot!! I've upped my exercise and am starting to get discouraged (even looked at some trim-spa in the store, got my senses and didn't buy tho) things just aren't moving, I go down 1.5lbs and then up 2 ect. I realize its just normal fluctuations, but boy its hard! And how odd about the golf ball. Maybe a garden fairy put it there
I hope everyone else is having a great day!
Not going to get much time at home today as the girls and I are going into town to do the things we had planned on yesterday. I just couldn't force myself to go to town during the day so I put it off until today. I did have to take DdB in to the movies and killed time at Wally's world. Got home late, so missed out on the treadmill, but the dog and I did go for that walk in the morning so I'm cutting myself some slack on that one.
So much for the light at the end of the tunnel - I just keep spiraling, even though I can see it happening and want so badly to stop it. My eating has gone to heck, I am not exercising, I'm shutting down into zombie state half the time. Ugh. My poor little prozacs are having to work their butts off just to keep me upright and out of bed - I'm tired all the time, except when I try to go to bed at night.
I'd love to just throw on a smile, say I'll pick myself and dust myself off like I usually do, but I can't. I know y'alls instict will be to try to cheer me up, but right now having people tell me I can get through this just seems to be digging me deeper in. What in the heck?
Its like procrastination's really mean and ugly cousin has set up shop in my life all of a sudden - and this is not the place I want to be. Maybe vaca will help, but right now I'm not even excited about that.
So, I guess please just bear with me folks... I don't mean to be the sullen Sally, but I think I'm just gonna have to ride it out. Like Hope and Buddly have said - transitions are hard. I hope I don't do terminal damage to my wl journey in the meantime.
Meanwhile, I think I'll go curl up in my office and stare at the wall for a while. I'll keep coming by to read, and will try to keep posting - you guys are such an inspiration, and I know that some of you in particular can relate to my struggles, and knowing that you have gotten through stuff makes me know I can too. Eventually
Sorry Amarie that you are having such a hard time right now. I won't go into any meaningless crap and try to sugarcoat it. Sometimes having friends with depression problems as well can be a bonus b/c they know when NOT to say such things.
I have a good friend who I can call and say 'I hate myself and my life and I just want to go on a rampage and then turn the gun on myself' and she will just burst out laughing, because she knows what I mean. There's no 'Oh, you shouldn't say that' or 'things will turn around soon'.
The last time she visited we went shopping and she came out of the dressing room and said 'I'm a big fat monster'. My reply, 'So, I guess the shopping trip is over?'. No lame BS, we like it that way.
Seriously though, I think what you are handling right now IS extremely stressful and I would probably be curled up hiding under the covers. Trying to work in 2 trips, remodel, declutter, and get ready to make a major life change and move would send me spiraling down too.
I guess what I'm trying to say is don't beat yourself up for feeling scared and overwhelmed. I'll say a prayer for some strength and stronger prozac to head your way.
meA-i so just love you....even when your down and having the crappiest time you still manage to make me laugh (your little prozac's working hard...) You are me a few months ago...Moves just SUCK...the difference is atleast you seemed to be working on all of it more than what I did...I totally procrastinated. then I ended up having break downs left and right so I PRAY that yours doesn't stay bad for long!!
Hope-I want you to be my friend!!!! Sounds like me in the dressing room and then my friend is like stop it you are fine you just had a baby and had 4 kids in a matter of 5 years....making excuses for me...or other people are like your not fat stop it...ARE THEY BLIND HELLO....Any clothes with x's after the number IS NOT A GOOD THING!!!!
Well i gots to go do laundry and see what else i can get into..maybe I can start doing some running...thanks to heather!!!!
It's Friday, yay! I'm back to Friday's by myself at work, as my other coworker has switched days. I think I'm ok with it, I'll get a lot more done (or less, who knows). She's bringing her puppy in this morning, so that will fun. I did 4 mornings in a row for exercise (and 3 after work), and I feel better and only cried twice in 3.5 days. That is an improvement for sure! Every day I have to force myself to exercise, and sometimes I talk myself out of it, but I need to remember that I actually do feel better afterwards. If I "get it out of the way" in the morning, then at least I have that. Sometimes I wish I could bottle that feeling!
I haven't heard from my old friend yet, and I'm getting down about it. I knew what I was in for going into this, but still I'm checking my email every 5 mins, hoping. It's absurd, but for some reason this feels really important, to repair this relationship. So much of how I've handled the last several years stems from an incident with him years ago. Whatever... I'm not letting this derail my efforts or any other part of my life this time around. I'm NOT!
Side note: it seems like spiders have taken over my back bungalow. It's strange, there are webs all over it (not an infestation, but pretty noticeable). So I'm out there often sweeping them away with the broom and cursing a little. I guess I can handle this more than bees, I can't stand bees/wasps anywhere near my house!
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hope4me -- You crack me up! and not in the way I'm already cracked... Those kinds of friends are so amazing, hang onto them! (and yes, I can also relate to the rampage!). Those food habits are the worst to break, especially when life is comfortable. I don't know if you are looking for advice or a jump start, so I'll just say "You can DO IT, you can eat good foods! YUM!"
Momof4 -- If you are thinking about daycare but worried about nasty kids, maybe you could have a probationary period, or meet with the kid for a day to see how they are. My guess is that kids usually show their personalities right up front. I do know that people are always looking for good childcare (lots of friends having kids) and it sounds like you know what you're doing!
Amarie -- I sooo get where you are coming from. Sometimes you go to friends for a "cheer up" and sometimes you just want to vent. And when you just want to vent, and they are all like "what about trying this", I just want to scream at them too (and that's putting it nicely). I've also been on the opposite end, as I am always trying to fix people's problems (which, apparently, is a very "male" attribute...), so sometimes I'll ask "do you want advice or just want to vent?". So anyways, I am throwing a ton of good energy to you and when you want a cheer up or anything else, I'll be right there!
buddly -- Thank you! I've tried a few of those weight loss gimmicks, er, I mean pills, i'm embarrassed to say. Now I always think of that thing that Oprah said, something along the lines of about how she is very rich, and if there was a weight loss pill or gimmick out there that really worked, she would get. But there isn't. There are things that trick your body for a little while, but most aren't safe long term and the good old "eat less, exercise more" is a pain, but it usually works. I think it is especially poo-ish for women as are bodies are less inclined to give up weight and more inclined to pack it back on. Who made these rules?? The walk with the dog is always a plus in my book (fresh air, exercise, and hanging out with your dog, you can't go wrong). Exercising doesn't have to mean the same thing all the time, a walk or jog with the dog can be just as good as a treadmill, and even more fun!
Sassy Chick -- YAY, I'm so happy for you about your boss and that the work situation is better. I hear ya about work, sometimes just realizing it puts food on the table and pays the bills, and my job doesn't define who I am, is enough to get me through the day. That sucks about the utilities, how can they do that? It sounds like you have great inlaws, their offer is so sweet. I'll keep my fingers crossed for your DH and the job. Your attitude is amazing!
well just a quick hello.....i got dishes that desperately need done cause yeah....they just need done...Laundry to finish....dh is home this morning and works tonight...So I will check back later. Hoping my dh will mow the lawn cause my kids are going to get lost in it soon. I just havent had the umph to do it and now that i have energy i gotta use it to get "my" stuff done like laundry cleaning the house. Yesterday my house was like it used to be cluttered...like just little things laying around not in the way just NOT put away...so I got that taken care of just have to finish it up since I wont be able to do much tomorrow...we have a block party and guess what I Get to be the clown...YIPEE...oh and I want to start the couch to the 5k or whatever its called...ok lata all!!
And TGIF!!! We have a long weekend here and it sounds like my hubby might be getting the three days off. Unfortunatly DdA is n her third day off and works the weekend, but at least she gets off at 2pm.
I'm feeling really blah today. Its cold and raining and TOM is due and bleck! Everything just feels wrong and takes to much effort. Here's hoping its a quick little down turn and there is an updraft soon
Bella I so understand about checking the email every few minutes. It is so frustrating. Give him some time to figure things out And yes I'm glad I didn't waste money on glorified laxatives. I do know I need to change my meds. The last 20 pounds I gain came after I started on the paxil. Its a pain, but I'm sure I'll get it all worked out its just so hard to not fall into the not eating trap that I'm so inclined to go into.
well i didnt get to do my run was busy getting ready for the block party tomorrow..had to help ladies bag some cookies then had to lock up the church and get home for Kaci to get here. Then wait for my friend to come back to get her lil girl i was watching. Then had to do the bed time thing get everyone laid down, then I had to practice my solo drama for tomorrow since it is a hard one i am completely soaked in sweat...and doing laundry in between all of this..tomorrow i am going to be completely pooped!!!
Tomorrow
gotta get up early and go to old house get the last load of stuff out bring it here unload it
go to the one store to get blow up clown shoes
then go to drama practice which i will be late for
Then help set up for the block party
then I have a solo drama to do
then I have a group drama to do
then I have to go in and get the clown outfit on and be in that for 4 hours
then have to help tear down
then i get to go home and fold all the laundry i have been washing
CAN I SKIP TOMORROW???
Like fast forward my life just a day...HAHA...
well i better finish up and get to bed sooonnnn since it is like 1:35 am!!!
lata!!
Mof4 - I hope you got some nice sleep, you sound like you are gonna need it - wowsa, busy!
I actually have not gone to bed yet - sad, huh, since its 5:00am. I get on the plane in about an hour, and I'll sleep then.
Today was my last day in the office, and I actualy enjoyed clearing out my desk. I kept expecting to feel sad, even though I hated it there, but it never happened. I had a good visit with my counselor, too, and got some tears out. So all in all, I feel a million times better than earlier this week, which is to say not great, but not buried alive either.
I will get on the ship tomorrow - and I'm actually starting to feel excited! I swear I packed enough for a month, but I'll be in the middle of the ocean, so its not like I could just run to WalMart if I need another tshirt.
Morning from Sassy!!!
lol. So no big deal and yes I'm still employed!!! 
lol. Who'd a thought that'd be good news to me after all the complaining I've done about that job? Well that job that I've been complaining about is literally putting food on the table! And the big thorn that was once in my side is no more, at least for me. Getting rid of the Weasel was the best thing for our team I do believe! And guess what? Our new supervisor already has approved my time off for the end of September!!! 
That would have never happened with the "Weasel"!!! So now we can begin planning and yup we are still going somewhere, I don't care if we go somewhere and camp out, we are going!!! lol.
DH had a job interview and a job offering. Only thing is its very low pay and further away than we'd like, esp with gas prices the way they are. So he's not gonna take it. He did file for unemployment so we'll see if that goes through. I'm still not worried. 
I believe in us. 
So we'll be just fine. 
I appreciate the understanding.
