Chris -- Sorry you were having such a tough day yesterday, hon! It's wonderful you came here instead of the yucky alternatives, like food or cigs. I'm praying today will be much better for you.
Ellis -- It sounds like you have a tough trainer! You'll be a svelte chickie in no time, right? I really need to get back to the gym, but where to find the time?! More on that in a min.
Kat -- Okay, here's how rural we are around here...I've never even been to a Gap store because there aren't any within a, say, two hour radius! Glad you had a good time. I don't enjoy shopping for clothes at my current size, but I've been looking for one of those cute initial handbags...
Angi -- Hope Elijah feels better soon! I'm glad you're still working with a sponsor.
Jennelle -- Good to hear from you. I know I'm just asking for punishment, but when do y'all get out for the summer down there?
Tracey -- Hello!
This might sound weird, but I'm ready to start counting my abstinent days again. I haven't been bingeing for awhile, but for other reasons I didn't want to count. Now that I have a reliable food plan I am comfortable with, I want to again. So I'm changing my siggy to reflect this.
I'm having trouble right now dealing with the stress that is my life. I try to focus on this day, this moment, but these days and moments snowball into the next and the next where there is so much to do for so many different people! I'm physically and emotionally tired all the time. Even when I sit down to relax, I can't turn my head off. I keep telling myself I just need to make it through the next two months and it'll slow down for awhile. I have the serenity prayer running on a continuous loop in my head, but my perfectionist tendencies are running right along side it. So, if you don't mind, when you get a minute send up some prayers and positive thoughts for your hamster-in-a-wheel buddy! I'd appreciate it very much!
Where is the weekend? I think like God it resides in your heart. Yesterday was miserable by 1500 I gave up and went home where I could do some screaming. Scream at my sponsor, scream at my family, scream at anyone who would listen, my head was pounding and I was so I bought SF chocolates and threw them with venom in the dumpster outside of my apartment.
And then I went to the Tuesday night where I was reminded that if we keeping reachig out to the program and HP that the promises of the program will come true and that these things will pass. So here I am still coughing a lung up this morning but in touch with the God of my understanding and I truly know in my heart this will pass, even the headache that seems to be creeping in again
Angi- How are you and Elijah this morning?
Ellis- Where the heck are you and how's the trainer
Christy- One day at a time that's all requires us to live (I got my 3 month chip last night, 3 months without a binge, It's possible even for me )
Holly- What a goose it was a company meeting not an OA meeting where people were sitting around eating. So glad to see you here!
honestly, i'm glad it's NOT the weekend - i have a much better food plan and routine during the week. but of course, i'd rather not be rushing off to work right now either!
well, i had a hard week, but on the scale it showed the same. no loss, no gain. i'm alright with that.
Hi all - Chris, I'm so sorry you had such a awful day. But I'm glad your spirit is back today! You really are doing a wonderful thing for yourself.
I wish I could shop at the Gap, Kat! Shopping is too unpleasant these days. But I have a pair of Gap jeans in my closet from 1993 that I'm looking forward to getting back into.
Well, I adopted a cat yesterday. Sounds crazy, like I don't have enough things to take care of. But my current cat is lonely, and is nervous around the kids. He's really playful with me, and very loving. Hopefully he'll adjust. I picked a female, about 6 months. She's being spayed today, and we'll get her on Friday. She let me hold her while I was also holding Matthew, so I think she'll have the right temperament.
I've yet to make a meeting yet, but I'll call the contact person today. I want to get started. At the same time, I'm not looking forward to defining my Abstinence for the same reasons you mentioned, Angi, but I'm still doing better on the whole. I did Weight Watchers a couple of years ago, and liked it, but still went over my allowance every day, just on lower-point stuff. But I think this plan may work the best with nursing, and my lifestyle. I still have all my books, so I could do it without rejoining (money is a big factor right now).
Oh, and I'm reading Dan Brown's Angels and Demons. If you read The Da Vinci Code, this one follows the same formula. Not quite as fascinating, but still very interesting.
other than another diet plan that does not work for me. They probably would work if I could work them but that never happens.
I checked out the Recovery Group and will be joining up. Actually I did the loop sign-up yesterday but have not posted yet.
I am 52 and completely out of control with food. I weight 270 on my scales which will make about 280 on the dr. scales. My cholesterol is controlled by meds, I have high blood pressure, fibromyalgia and the associated problems with that. I do go to Curves and have lost 3.5 inches and 2 lbs. The problem is that I am sick and tired of dieting and I cannot face another diet plan. I know for me avoiding overeating is the key but I don't have the tools to keep from doing that. I already have God in my life but surrender on this issue is a biggie and yet I know that I need to and I accept that He is all powerful but I won't let Him in the food area. I know for some reason, as yet undiscovered, that I am holding to this way of life even though it isn't working for me.
my kiddo has the green snots. So I get a Dr.'s appt together and my MIL has him, so I rescheduled for the morning first thing. But I had to ask my boss for the afternoon off to take him and now I feel all guilty and I want to eat. Or smoke. Or shop. And its just really not worth it. I am trying to think of a good way to use this time. Excercise? My body is not quite up to it, this quitting smoking is exhausting I could work on my step work I could just work
Anyway enough about me, except TOM has come and brought all these dialogues into my head. Oh the tribute to my ED I have written in my brain.
Bunna- Welcome! That surrender stuff is hard, stopping overeating is hard, living one day at a time is hard, trying not to control everyone you meet, and loving people as they are, that is hard. But the way is easy. So keep talking and sharing and letting us know and I tell you it works.
Tracy- So you got another cat to keep the other cat company? Umm OK I really think ya'll are making this abstinence thing way too hard, just don't get it confused with your food plan. Make it something you can succeed and grow with. And remember just for today
Holly- If your weigh-in isn't till April 1st, stay off the scale it doesn't say anything about you. How are your pants fitting? How do you feel? Have you been treating Holly in a loving caring way?
Christy and Jenelle- SCHOOLS OUT FOR THE DAY CHECK IN!!!!!!!
Christy - The student's last day is May 21st. It's a 60% day, so most students won't even come to school, which means the last day with students is effectively May 20th. We have to work until the following Wednesday. Keep in mind that we started school on August 5th.
Chris - You can do this. I'm so proud of you for tossing those SF chocolates in the trash! (I can't eat them...they make me super-poopy! :sick: )
I feel like I need a food plan. Right now, my abstinence is my food plan, and I am sticking to it well. However, now that I've detoxed from the junk food, I would like to start losing a little weight! I will NOT go back to WW, though. Too much "food porn." I can't deal with people sitting around talking about food. (Well, my disease can't deal with it, anyway.) I might call my GP and see about a referral to a nutritionist.
miss chris - i weigh weekly, i just have an april goal. i tried monthly and i allowed myself to get off track. not doing that again until i'm in a better place motivationally.
i am sitting here in a NEW BRA! and i have to say, this one fits better than i'e ever had a bra fit before. in the dressing room, when i put my old bra back on, i thought "boy, i wouldn't buy this one!" because it let me be all saggy. (they are a bit saggy after losing some of their fat!) but this new one isn't a push up or enhancer or anything, it's just supportive. imagine that.
Holly -- I was thinking yesterday that I need to get some new bras. Mine just don't fit properly. The straps always slip off my shoulders...grrr. I'm not sure which measurement is wrong - the band or the cups or both! I know I could go to a department store and be fitted, but I'd be mortified in all of my fatitude to do so!
Bunna -- Glad you're with us! Hope you find what you need here; jump right in!
Tracey -- A new kitty. How fun! We don't have pets, but a cat would be my choice if we did.
Chris -- The weekend lives in my heart...I can feel that, but I really need it here physically, KWIM? I know you do! Yesterday at one point the serenity prayer in my head began to sound less relaxing and more like Frank Costanza's "SERENITY NOW!" from Seinfeld! Remember that? Is the boy feeling better today?
Jennelle -- You finish up about three weeks before me. Not as bad as I expected actually.
Ellis and Angi -- Come out and play!
Today's another looong day. Check in later on the new thread one of you will start!
I have a long work weekend coming up, all day today, all day tomorrow and Saturday. I won't be posting much but will give it the old college try keeping up. Sunday will be a day off.
I am going to also work on getting a sponsor and start working the 12 steps. How many of you are doing that? Just curious.
I am going to have some and get going.
Chris: Hope your stress level drops. I stopped smoking fifteen years ago and it is so worth it. Just hard getting through that first little bit.
Okay, so I forgot all the other names already, will work on that for sure through the weekend.
I have to be honest though since I gave up the idea of following a specific diet plan I am feeling more relaxed. Everyone have a great day free of anxiety today.
Where's the Weekend Wednesday?! -- March 24
Excellent Thread Topic Christy!
and I was so 
I bought SF chocolates and threw them with venom in the dumpster outside of my apartment. 
(I got my 3 month chip last night, 3 months without a binge, It's possible even for me 
)
So glad to see you here!
I love ya'll 
Admitting I need help...
but I don't have the tools to keep from doing that. I already have God in my life but surrender on this issue is a biggie and yet I know that I need to and I accept that He is all powerful but I won't let Him in the food area. I know for some reason, as yet undiscovered, that I am holding to this way of life even though it isn't working for me. 
Got a call from the nurse and......
And its just really not worth it. I am trying to think of a good way to use this time. Excercise? My body is not quite up to it, this quitting smoking is exhausting 
and get going. 
