Xena - way to go! You're almost through one week! And you made it through your first weekend binge-free in over a year -- that is a HUGE accomplishment, and you should be SO PROUD of yourself!! And a loss too - I'm so happy for you! We can get through this week -- yes, let's make it a team effort!
Surfergirl - so sorry to hear of your struggles. Today is a new day! I agree that increasing your calories can make it a lot easier - strive for maintenance first, and if you feel like bingeing, remember you can eat up to maintenance and still be on track! Bingeing is not the only option! I struggle with the exact same way of thinking -- instead of thinking, I want to eat more; I can eat XXX more calories and still maintain...I think, I want to eat more, I must binge tonight! Try to remind yourself that if you're feeling binge-y, you can always eat up to maintenance! You're still successful if you eat at maintenace! It's so hard to stop the all-or-nothing thinking, isn't it?
Danzingurl - so happy to hear about your loss, and that you're so close to pre-binge weight! Was your binge only one day? I did see a bit more of a whoosh, but I expect that is the last of it -- down another 1.2 pounds, so the loss has significantly slowed. I know that being alone when I am used to being with someone is a trigger for me -- I feel like I can finally "get away" with something, even if I didn't really want to binge. It seems like a huge opportunity to binge for me -- so keep posting here, and we'll help keep you on track! You can do it!
Smurphy - way to go on day 4! What an accomplishment to get through a stressful day without bingeing! I hope today is even easier for you because it's a less stressful day!
I'm now within 8.7 pounds of where I was, pre-binge. Adding on the weight that I had already gained, I'm up 12.8 pounds from goal. But that's better than being up 20-25 pounds!!!! I can still see a huge, noticeable difference in the way my body looks (in a bad way - much flabbier), and I can't button my shorts that used to be baggy. But 12.8 pounds is a lot better than 20-25 pounds!!! I am definitely trying to look at it that way. And the longer that time goes by, the easier it gets to stay on plan, because I remember every day that I stayed on plan for numerous days in a row and be proud of it. Also, I'm becoming accustomed and accepting of my larger body, so that it's become my new baseline. I'm no longer thinking, "shame on you, look at all this weight you have to lose to get back to where you were!" I'm thinking, "I have 12.8 pounds to lose -- I can do it and will get there eventually! Look how far I've come in my weight loss journey! I had a slipup, but I caught it before I gained all the weight back! Way to go!" I hope this helps someone!
Last edited by DoingMyBest79; 03-20-2013 at 05:26 PM.
hi chicks, just checking up on you.
xena- you're doing great. and if only we would be able to lose weight by laying on the couch and stuffing our faces with junk
doingmybest- i hope you're feeling better and you got out of that viscious cycle.
danzigurl- i can't believe your body bounces back so easily. you're so lucky.
smurphy- you can do this without raiding the cabinets
ten days till the end of the march. i think i made it to one month but i'm not sure. i haven't had any huge cravings, no depriving even though i haven't been eating as much as i should. luckily i haven't had huge hunger pangs lately. when things go fine in my life i forget about binging. and right now i have neither the time or need to do it. but next week i'm returning home and it will be a huge test for me. i think i lost a few pounds maybe but i haven't weighed in a while and i'll do it when i return home. i hope the scale will not dissapoint me.
here's to the end of the march
Missunshine- good work! My weight has dropped right back down after binges lately... It used to take at least a week. I'm thankful but at the same time it sometimes feels easier to justify a binge when I'll be close to normal just a few days later.
Surfergirl- I'm sorry to hear about your binge, and I hope you can find a new strategy that works for you. I hope we ALL can. Good luck!
Doingmybest- it sounds like you are doing much better! I'm really happy for you! I binged two days in a row, and my weight is holding steady about .5 lbs up, not ideal obviously- but I'm glad that I was able to stop when I did.
I have been doing better than I thought with DH gone- tomorrow is what I'm really worried about. A 5 hour drive by myself to get to a dance competition for my students... I'll be alone, in my car, driving past convenience stores and fast food places for 5 hours. My plan is to just bring a lot of healthy snacks and only stop for bathroom breaks and gas- and find a good book on tape. If anyone has suggestions, let me know. ;-)
Danzingurl i would download an audiobook like the 4 day win. It is about how not to binge and u might like it. I feel it takes my thoughts away from food and gets me excited that i can do this.
Tonight is my date night with the DH. Burgers an ice cream. I ate little so far and am fine. Usually i already binge in the morning because i know i will not lose weight. Stupid thoughts!!! I am glad i don't think that way today and am looking forward to tonight even if i gain. I think i rather gain because of a great night with my DH than stuffing my face in secrecy.
So most of the way through day 5. And my doc told me today that my BP is finally normal and I don't have to see him again for like five months. Which is very nice cause I really hate going to see him every couple weeks.
Well, I just found out that my substitute teacher for tomorrow bailed- so i will miss all of my soloists but still have to make the 5 hour drive to aee my tem numbers- i cant count on anybody... and that next year the high school I teach at will be closing next year- so it's time to start looking for a new job. I spent the last two hours stuffing my face and that's not the worst part- I just purged a whole pint of ice cream before I sort of came to my senses and stopped. I am here to tell someone and to stop myself from continuing to try and purge up anything else I can.
I am scared- I know this is a bingeing forum but you guys are all so supportive and helpful. I want to talk to DH but he is on the road with his brother in law driving across the country and I don't really want brother in law to know. I need help- I thought I had at least escaped the purging side of things... I have for to stop this.
Danzingurl sorry to hear! But I have to say it seems like you are making progress. Have you ever been able to stop a binge in the middle?
You started to binge, realized how it doesn´t change anything - even makes it worse - and decided against it. I would call that a success as well.
It sucks that you have to go through all this this weekend. Maybe you could think of it as a challenge. If you can make this - everything else will be a piece of cake.
Do you have a journal? I like to take notes after a binge and read them next time I am thinking about bingeing.
Xena- thank you. I WANT to blame it all on a stressful weekend, but there will always be stress in my life- I need to find a better way to cope. What really frightens me the most is that a
part of me felt so much better after I purged... I know it's wrong and horrible and disgusting... But that little nasty part of me felt so relieved...
Thankfully, I just found someone to drive down to competition with- so tomorrow is already looking better.
danzingurl, could you call an eating disorder hotline or something anonymous so someone can talk you down in real time??
Binging hurts your tummy - throwing up relieves that hurt by making space - but it also damages your innards something awful and obviously is a really destructive pattern to fall into. I am hoping the relief of knowing tomorrow will be less dangerous than you thought will get you through the rest of tonight purge-free.
Danzing I know where you are coming from, and I have been dealing with something dangerously similar tonight. I have battled an ED almost all of my life since being a teenager, the adult years have proved to be much better than my control when I was a teenager. But if you ever need to talk to someone I am here for you!
