Mccull83- I wouldn't sweat it! 2500 is most definitely not the end of the world! I'm sure you'll be able to get right back on track!
Carolina- how did your meeting go? I hope try ha some healthy options there for you- it's SO hard to not know what kind of food you'll have access to for the day! (At least for me;-) )
Surfer girl- way to go on hitting that week mark!
Missunshine- sorry to hear about the stress! You have been doing amazing on the binging though! I am very impressed! I hope everything ends up working out for you!
Atoms- good job stayin strong!! Good luck with your friends it's seems so hard to keep friendships strong as life gets crazier and crazier- way to go for avoiding a binge!!
Day 7 today. Ever since I told my dr and my husband, I haven't binged. Maybe that's all it takes for me- that I'm now feeling accountable? I was never really bad off, but definitely did binge.
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Danzingurl: you know it. I hate not knowing! I decided to not bring "backup" food either, and just go with it and make good choices. I had a pretty good idea that they would have healthy options, though. Long and short of it, I did good! There was one point when I was eating my Planters Energy Mix, when I felt that old feeling coming on. That voice was saying, finish this and keep going! I knew I would be at risk when I came home. I usually use food to wind down from an all day meeting. But, came home, ate my planned dinner, got my workout clothes on despite feeling tired and did some exercise. Felt fine after that. So... Day 11.
Good job on day 4! Are you excited about your trip?
McCull83: great job getting back on the wagon despite the hit and run! It's amazing how quick you can bounce back if you get right back on....
CleverName: I agree, it's so important to share with you loved ones what you are going through. It sounds like they are supportive.
SurferGirl: hope day 8 is going well.
Missunshine: I get annoyed too when things aren't planned too. I am trying to learn to be in the moment and go with the flow, realizing I really am not in control of everything, although i sure try!
Atoms: way to go cutting it off.... That can be so hard sometimes. How's it going in your new city?
The good news is that I'm still binge free on Day 72. I went slightly nuts this morning with a can of fat-free Reddi Wip but no real damage done; maybe 75-100 cals more than I typically have for breakfast.
The bad news is just my emotional state: so tired from working, so tired from going through treatment, so tired of being constantly on the go and not having any control over things. I can't control my work situation, I can't control events going on in my life, and now I can't even control my food. I am frustrated because I am not supposed to restrict eating because the goal is to break the binge cycle, so I can't actively lose weight. But I haven't increased my eating THAT much, and I haven't lowered my exercise routine THAT much, and have actually increased it a bit on some days, yet my weight has only dropped about two pounds in three weeks. I have been stuck at 190.4 for nearly a week.
I should be happy about not gaining and loss shouldn't even be in my vocabulary right now. But I feel like I SHOULD be losing weight given my regimen. Is it my metabolism? Adding more carbs and reducing meat portions (which I did not want to do but it is part of the program, and the program has changed my life for the better?)? Or is my natural weight right where it is supposed to be? A depressing thought, but I could live this weight if I knew that the rest of my life I would just be going up and down around this weight level forever, rather than fighting it. Am I going to...gulp...GAIN weight, which is my biggest fear?
I'm just so tired and depressed. And I can't even control that depression with food. It is like I am in mourning for my old way of life. Yes, I was miserable from binging, but I actually saw weight loss too.
I worry that I will gain weight not from binging, but by eating a little extra here, a little extra there. And with a metabolism that won't let me eat more than 1500-1600/day and still lose weight.
Sorry for the long post; just had to get it out...
kittykat- if you follow your regimen you will not gain weight!! don't even think about that. i get you, we're in a similar place right now, past few days ecerything is out of control around me but i have a clear vision and goal in my mind and i won't give in just because a jerk of my boss is calling me every day to come work and in the evening he calls me to cancel. right after i organize my whole day. but i've come to terms that it is called life, and i can't be in control of everyone.
you're probably hitting a plateau but wait a few days and maybe you'll lose even more or jou're gaining some mucles or having water retention. do you measure yourself?
just don't give in now, look how far you've come
carolina- i'm anxious because my boss is constantly changing my schedule and i have to be ready at any time he calls me to come working. thank god it's only for a few days.
i'm going home tomorrow and i just hope i can cope with everyone without relying on food. it's gonna be 26 days today! i went shopping today and bought a size too small pants which will hopefully fit me in the summer. actually my closet is ful of new and too small clothes which i can't wait to wear.
Here's another "this might be obvious" thought: i finally realized that i will NEVER be able to just have a free day where i eat whatever i want in unlimited quantities. I used to think oh, once i finish dieting i will have a free day and eat as much as i want...or i'd think oh, once i've reformed my eating habits, i'll get fuller faster so i'll naturally want to eat less even when i'm not watching myself. Now, i've learned that none of that works for me. I will ALWAYS have to watch what i eat. I still intend to have splurge days where i can eat more than usual...but it will NEVER be "as much as i want." And importantly, i've let go of the idea that i NEED those all-you-can-eat events. I am learning to be satisfied by eating a normal amount.
surfergirl2 - Congratulations on making it to day 9! I definitely know what you mean about free days. If I ate as much as I wanted, I would never stop eating, since for me it's all an emotional want and not really about hunger or even flavor.
I am going to jump in on this challenge today. I didn't binge all January long, and I lost ten pounds! Then I ended up binging last Monday. I had a great Tuesday though, and today I was perfectly on plan until lunch.
After I ate lunch, I was still hungry. Usually I sit down with a big glass of water and make myself wait twenty minutes before eating more, but today I remembered I had some leftover chocolate and thought one piece wouldn't hurt.
Well, that one piece turned into three. Before I knew it, I found myself shoveling down handfuls of nuts too, sneaking to the kitchen for "just one more cracker with cheese" six times, and eventually sitting down with a big bowl of cereal.
It wasn't a huge binge, although I was 400 calories over my daily maximum without counting in dinner after it. I'm tempted to just have whatever I want for the rest of the day, of course. But I came here to join the challenge instead, and by this time tomorrow I will hopefully be 24 hours binge free.
I haven't joined any of these yet because I didn't have enough faith in myself, but it's day 5 for me, no binges.
But I should say I haven't been eating a calorie deficit. I just haven't felt 'out of control' and stuffed my face to sickness. Those are what I consider a binge.
I'm joining because I'm going to try putting myself into a deficit tomorrow, and I'd like to keep February binge-free while I do it!
5 days in and I'm feeling okay- feeling a little overwhelmed at work and hungry, hungry, hungry.... but I HAVE been in a calorie deficit for a little over a month (not counting the 2 binges I have had) so I guess thats understandable. I'm still really fighting the "all-or nothing" mentality where I am either severely restricting, or else I am binging... I wish I knew how to lose these last few pesky pounds without feeling like I have to kill myself to do it- I guess my goal weight is pretty low for my height- So I'll have to choose between being 5-10 lbs heavier than I would really like or else having to work my BUTT off trying to be the size I want... I guess I'm also kind of having an "I hate my body" day- which is silly - but I guess sometimes they happen. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be feeling better and stronger!
thewalrus- welcome Looks like we'll be trying to do the same thing! let me know if you figure out any tips/tricks!
hazy- welcome to you also! good luck getting back on track! those handfuls of nuts sure are EASY and tempting to binge on, huh?
surfergirl- great job with the 9 days! I totally know the feeling. When people mention "free days" I automatically think "binge" my so-called free days are actually days where I still count calories, but go to 2000 calories for the day instead of my usual number. I will also probably ALWAYS have to closely monitor my eating.
missunshine- good luck going home! I hope you are able to stay strong even with all the stresses! Just think about how amazing it will feel to be able to wear all of your new clothes!
kittykatfan- I'm SURE your body will adjust soon- and once you really feel "cured" of binging- you'll find a way to be able to cope while in a deficit also. 72 days is absolutely incredible by any standard- you should be SO proud of yourself! I hope you are able to find a way out of your funk soon and start feeling better! You are an absolute success in my eyes!
carolina- great job on exercising instead of binging! Exercise is a major appetite killer for me- but sometimes when I want to binge it is so hard to find the strength to get out and do it! so great job!
clevername- its good to hear that you have found help and support and that it has kept you accountable! great job making it a week!
Missunshine- well done on 26 days! Those new clothes will fit in no time!
KittyKat- Maybe just concentrate on maintaining, and breaking free of your binge patterns? Easier said than done, but try not to worry about gaining/losing, just maintaining while you work on binging.
SurferGirl2-Congrats on day 9! I am one day behind you, makes things easy for me when trying to remember what day I'm on, I can look at your posts too.
I know what you mean, I'm hoping that what I'm doing right now is not only helping me lose weight, but also changing my thoughts, my habits, and my desires/cravings for food. So when I do get to my goal, I won't want to have an all-you-can-eat-day.
Hazy- Welcome! Wow, 10 lbs in January is awesome! And I hear you on the 'just one piece' thing- its a slippery slope.
thewalrus- Welcome, and good job on 5 days! I haven't been eating in a defecit either, and I have been having junk, I've just been concentrating on not binging the past week. I was below calories today, I've just calorie-counted for the second time ever today. It definitely changes my eating, to be keeping track and actually knowing how much and what kind of food I'm putting into my body!
danzingurl- What number are you trying to get to? Is it about the number on the scale/clothing, or about how you look/feel?
Today is day 8. I had a dr appointment today. She asked how the past week has gone, how telling my hubby went, and talked about triggers. She also asked if I'd like to see a dietician, and she's going to refer me to one who specializes in ED.
In talking to her, and answering her questions, it really made me realise that this is a problem. For example, in saying that I plan what I'm going to buy when I go to the grocery store, wow, this made me realise that this isn't normal behaviour, that this is a problem. Saying these things out loud made them seem real, and much more serious. I can't wait to talk to a dietician and see what they have to say. I need to take a much more active role in my health (because this is what this is all about) and learn more about nutrition.
ok, i'm so dissapointed and frustrated right now.
i just got home, and decided to weigh myself and the darned scale says that i'm at the same weight as i was before i returned to university in january after alomst two weeks of binging and now it's almost four weeks since i'm on plan and i haven't even lost the water weight?!! what the ****??i'm gonna wait till tomorrow morning and weigh myself again but i was really expecting to have lost at least 6 pounds. i mean i notice a little change on my body but the scale says different. i really hope the thing is broken . ugh i sholdn't have stepped on it in the first place but i couldn't resist.
Missunshine - this happens and it is darn frustrating - whatever you do don't console by bingeing the weight will drop - but not always when the mind thinks it should
Kittykat this is a tricky game and really why many if us are within this forum, not only do we want to lose weight, we have also got to stop bingeing, waht helps me is making sure that I am full so try to eat the correct meals - cheese omelette with v low fat cheese helps me cos it keeps me full - as soon as I go off track by getting hungry at what i think is not the right time then I blow it -it's all or nothing for me
one thing that I did learn whilst in therapy was that if I ate three meals and 2 snacks my body would re regulate itself and I would recognise real body hunger and now i can - if I can eat at regular intervals it works , it helps to stop the binges although they do still occur sometimes when I am not physically hungry - there are many aspects to this it's a complex disease
day 3 for me in my conscious effort to stop bingeing - yesterday I ate some freebie samples of biscuits - and managed not to buy any - at one stage I did have 2 boxes in my hand to take to the checkout but then thank fully animal brain got overridden
thewalrus0 - Welcome! Whether or not you're eating a calorie deficit, I think it is a huge accomplishment to avoid a binge. Good luck!
danzingurl77 - Thanks for the kind words. I hope you're feeling better about yourself today.
CleverName - Thank you! Make sure to let us all know how it goes with the dietician. I hope I get the chance to talk to one myself someday.
missunshine - Sorry to hear you haven't had the best day. Better to maintain than gain weight, it's still something to be proud of! But that is really weird that you haven't lost anything in four weeks, I hope you see a change soon.
As for me, I'm 24 hours binge free, but I'm having a hard time again. I budgeted in a high-protein snack for the cravey few hours between lunch and dinner, but even after that and three big glasses of ice water, all I want to do is go pick over whatever's in the kitchen. Dinner is in two and a half hours, so here's hoping I manage to hold out until then.
it's seems so hard to keep friendships strong as life gets crazier and crazier- way to go for avoiding a binge!! 
