today i am earning day 2. i am hovering around 182 pounds now though... long long story... the short version is: it is my fault for overeating and binging and i am done with it...for my sake and the sake of my two gorgeous boys whom i want to see grow up... NO MORE BINGING!!!
For me, today IS the day, the only day that I have and the only day for which I should stay away from binge eating! I binge ate a bit yesterday, I ate half a slice of cake, 2 buiscuits and peanut butter all in one go. And although that might not sound like binge eating, I was off sugar for 2 weeks and this was a huge amount of sugar I ate and certainly not out of love towards myself. So there it is my truth, revealed, I don't have to hide what I eat any more. I am as sick as my secrets and I am not keeping this one a secret.
Today I had breakfast at 6.30 and then ate cherries throughout the morning. And it is my emotions that always drive me to binging. Not wanting to accept the way people act, fear that I am not good enough. False idea that I must be good enough and that I am not good enough. Really strange. I did get myself balanced a bit and had lunch. Hopefully today I am going to find enough love for myself, which stops me from food related self-harm.
earning day 3...something about knowing that binging could kill me, literally, really sobered me up!!! of course, today will be a huge test as i have an ultrasound on my pancreas at 3pm so i cannot eat again until after that... so 8am until 3pm with no food or water... seems like time is crawling by... not even hungry since i did have breakfast but i am painfully aware of the time ticking by....
Day 179! I can't believe I've made it this far, one day shy of 6 months. This is really huge for me, considering all the stresses I've been through for the last 6 months!
63! Great job on getting past a week fruitlady!! And congrats Tyla, almost half a YEAR! What a feat!
Keep up the phenomenal work over the weekend EVERYONE! And good luck to us all!
Day 6 for me, goal was to go a week// sat evening now, going to friends for dinner and drinks, hope this doesn't trigger me, I really don't want to have another monday binge hangover because of my sat sun bad eating.
Pars81, Tyla, ; well done!, i can't imagine making a month binge free, you guys are awesome.
My ticker has been the same for 2 weeks. Two weeks ago, I let myself eat whatever I wanted for one meal a day (for 4 days) for a bday celebration, and followed the program I'm on for the other meals. It has taken 2 weeks, but I am back down to the weight I was before i allowed that little indulgence. I can hopefully move my ticker next week.
Not feeling the greatest, during 'game-wine night' with the boyfriend, his parents, and friends, I may have been over-served a glass or 3 of wine my eating was okay for the most part. During the day I ate very well because I had a feeling that I wasn't going to eat very well at dinner (I knew mom was making pizza) But I had a few pieces of brownie that I regret. Luckily, I woke up this morning hungover and disgusted by the thought of drinking or eating. So, I know I'll get through the weekend. It's typical that when I'm up here visiting I have wine every night. Tonight and tomorrow I will say no, because I really dont want it.
earning day 4... this is going to be hard since my food has been very off this week due to health issues and i am going to be alone as of 8:30pm... going to have to commit myself to not binging...i have soo many reasons to not binge...just have to remember them all
day 1 again! oh well just small binge last night // Happytobeamum0f2, i am the same as you when left alone I'm way more likely to binge, specially on the weekend.
my eating was okay for the most part. During the day I ate very well because I had a feeling that I wasn't going to eat very well at dinner (I knew mom was making pizza) But I had a few pieces of brownie that I regret. Luckily, I woke up this morning hungover and disgusted by the thought of drinking or eating. So, I know I'll get through the weekend. It's typical that when I'm up here visiting I have wine every night. Tonight and tomorrow I will say no, because I really dont want it.
