Hi, I posted some of this in my Intro, but basically I eat when I'm depressed, I eat when I'm happy, I eat when I'm anxious -- and it seems to be a lot of the time. I'm living with a man who "can't perform" with a woman who is 30-40 lbs overweight like me. He has his certain "body type" he's into (he calls it his "limitations") and I'm not it. I yo-yo between working out 4-5 days a week and writing down everything I eat to baking batches of cinnamon rolls like my mother used to make and eating them all while my SO's at work. I can't have anything "good" in the house, meaning I can't have chips or crackers or sweets because I'll eat them all right away. Sometimes, if I'm really really sad I think about food; I even soothe myself to sleep at night sometimes by telling myself I'll make some cinnamon rolls in the morning after he leaves for work.
I feel so bad about myself. I need help! I'm sick of yo-yo-ing back and forth the same 5-10 lbs; I do great and then I binge and undo everything I accomplished. How do I stop this?
Day 61! The interview went well yesterday! Thank for the support Tyla, it really help get my day off to a great start!
I recently quit my job that had a very hostile and negative environment (there were only 5 of us in the office, so I definitely felt the heat everyday) Tomorrow is my last day and I am so relieved! So, since I some free time in my days I decided to walk alot. Yesterday I walked 3 times and went about 8-10 miles total. Phew. I did about 5 just now this morning.
On Tuesday my grandmother and I are taking a 10 day cruise to Alaska for my birthday. I was worried about it at first, just with the amount of food, etc. But I decided to take these 10 days and really make a retreat out of it. I went only and put "low cal/low fat" and "vegetarian" for my food preferences. I want to take up yoga on the trip and get plenty of use of the gym while were 'at sea.' I've also signed up for off-shore excursion that are very active (one is a 5 mile hike!)
Congrats Tyla and Paris, Keep your head up Peachy, and good luck to everyone!
I wish this thread would be as active as it used to be!
Last edited by tater tash; 08-04-2010 at 02:48 PM.
Day 4 for me today// I hope to go the whole week without binging, the weekend will be the true test. Well done ladies , and Peachykeen hope your day 1 went ok, chin up girl.
And day 3 of no caffeine and a goooood nights sleep, without sleep aids!
My hips hurts bad again, so I have to lay off the cardio for a couple days to let them relax. I'm taking joint medicine, so I hope that helps. I hope it doesn't set me back too far.
Today is Day 6. Almost a whole week with no binges!!! I've had high calorie meals but no mindless, hiding away eating!!! No shame or guilt!!! Wow, is all I can say, my friends!
Starting day 1 today. I've really been struggling lately because of the stress of moving and being alone right now. But the binging only makes it worse! Gotta remember that!
I binged today i mean bad.. and i dont know what brought it up.. i just dont know.. im happy and everything but now im so depressed cause i know i did wrong.. well i guess tomorrow is always another day
I binged today i mean bad.. and i dont know what brought it up.. i just dont know.. im happy and everything but now im so depressed cause i know i did wrong.. well i guess tomorrow is always another day
I know how you feel. We are all struggling with some sort of eating problem on this thread. Try and think back to what your thought process was. You said you were happy, so maybe you wanted to turn to food for 'celebration'?? Or maybe you thought 'hey i've been doing well so i deserve a break.' I'm just poking around in the dark here, I'm having problems with the same issue as you so I can only speak from experience. Don't beat yourself up to much over this. Just journal some of your feelings, like how you were happy but after u binged u were depressed? And don't wait for tomorrow to start back on plan again, eat well the very next meal if you can! I always want to just take the whole day off after I binge as well and the more crap i eat the crappier and crappier I feel and I definitely regret it!