If I dont let this all out I am going to go insane. Ok so things are not so hot at work, they shut down my department and put us in training for another one. The trainer sucks and I am not learning anything and I am very confused. So yesterday I was approached by our site manager and he is moving me to a different department cause I am "having trouble" understanding the material, which is complete BS. I understand what I am doing, the trainer just sucks. So I said fine and agreed to it cause i dont think I can take one more day with that trainer and his stupidity without choking him out. Well then after agreeing to the fact, I find out that the position pays 1.00 less, not a big deal to some, but I am living paycheck to paycheck so it is gonna crash me huge! BUT, I have a second interview today with a awesome company called USAA that pays at minimum 12.00/hour, so keep your fingers crossed for me please. It would help me out so much. And with all that happened yesterday, and I know that this is no excuse....I cheated. i ate bread and pudding and a rice crispy treat. We were at a buffet restaurant and I just went nuts. I am kicking myself now because I know that I have just wasted every bit of good that I have done. But I am getting back on track and it all actually made me pretty sick, even though i only ate a little bit of each. So I dont think I will do that again and dreading getting back to ketosis, but I know I will do it. I am getting away this weekend from everything and going to stay at my moms and I am dragging my friend Lacy and my brother with me and we are hitting the beach I dont care if I am fat, I am going to enjoy life right along with everyone else and I am going to get a tan. HA HA. I am going to the gym this morning and I am going to work my @$$ off. The good thing about the new job is that if I get it, I will be able to go back to the gym in the mornings again and I am so damn thrilled about it. Sorry about the language if I offended anyone and thank you all for listening. -Sandra
I've gained 7 pounds in the last FOUR days. My food choices haven't been the best, but it's been a thing of low carb yogurt, or a celery stick with low carb peanut butter, nothing awful!!! I'm just sick about it. I've worked so darn hard to get where I was (177) and then I start eating just a LITTLE more than eggs and meat and I balloon up again!!! I keep reading in fitness and muscle magazine about the success rate of Atkins and it scares the crap out of me. I think I will go hang around the long timers who have lost weight on atkins and see how they do it. I want to lose this weight more than anything but does keeping it off mean that I have to only eat eggs and meat with no fruit or nutritional food for the rest of my life??? Hindsight is 20/20 I suppose and I should have thought of this before starting. I honestly thought that I could go into OWL and then maintain by eating an apple a day, veggies daily, but it just isn't looking like that. Ok, sorry for the rant but I'm really feeling so weird right now.
Sandra - hope you find a better job, I can't imagine how discouraging that would be!!
Its a pretty day here today...everything is covered in a soft blanket of snow, and the sun it shining quite bright. Buts its still cold, so nothing is melting yet. Nice for a change.
Sandra~ for you and the new job.
Lacey~ 7lbs in 4 days....you know thats just water right?? I find when I start adding carbs, I wont get on the scale for a while. Its almost as if your body needs to learn how to burn the carbs again. Almost always I eat my carbs in the morning....that gives my body the day to burn it. Give it a chance Keep up your water intake, and your exercise, and things should switch over for you just fine.
Things are looking up around here. Dh and I dont fight often, I think this is the 3rd in 5 yrs. But it was enough to scare us both pretty good. Im not sure what we are up to today, dh has to fix the pellet stove. It hasnt been lighting so that needs to be fixed pronto! Ive been thinking about getting my hair cut....maybe....and maybe some lighter highlights where the grey is. Im still deciding.
Ive been out (when Im down I shop) shopping, and there are some awesome sales out there right now. Kmart has some really nice t-shirts for $5 !! Then I found some real pretty fleece 1/4 zip tops there, and out at gander mnt, I found more fleece at 50% offf!! I wear alot of fleece in the winter!
Our neighbour made it out of her open heart surgery fine, she should be coming home by tues, or wednesday if everything stays the course.
Eating still isnt op, but I'll get back there. A couple more days.
I've got to do a drive by today. Just wanted to let you all know that I made it OP and even though I didn't get the water in I did drink green tea (Lipton Diet Green Tea). I know..substitute the water bottle for the tea. I'm going to include pictures of my tattoo. I'll add pictures of DH's as well. His has the girls names in a design around his bicep. It looks SO cool (but I bet is still smarting him!!)!! The bruised look is only because of leftover ink that didn't get wiped off.
Ok thank you guys for listening to my vent this morning. I went to the gym and I am down 3lbs. so that lifted my spirits. Now if I could just get through this interview I will be fine.
Wow I'm SO excited! I haven't had this big of a WHOOSH since I started this.
A couple of days ago I was looking at 248 or so. Yesterday the scale went to 245.5, but this morning I got up and it was at 242.5!!!! First thing! No jumping on the scale again and again a few hours later to see if it would go lower.
Persistance DOES pay off. I feel like dancing!
That's like my first goal met, and my second goal within 1/2 pound of being met all in only 1 day!
Of course the simple answer for this is that it didn't happen in only one day, but has been happening all along, but the scale wouldn't show it because of retained water or something, but Gee this is NEAT! I'm so happy I could cry!
I guess it says something to me that I really needed to know. For a long time when I was doing this before, when I got to my lowest weight and could never get below it, I would go through long stretches of no loss and I would get discouraged and give up and cheat, assuming that my body had just reached a stage where it wasn't going to lose any more. Now I'm finding that maybe it would have if I had just kept on keeping on and trusting in the process! What a good thing to know!
Wow I'm SO excited! I haven't had this big of a WHOOSH since I started this.
WOO HOO! Now there's your motivation! It was just a matter of time. Good for you hon.. I'm doing a happy dance in the chair for ya! I want a woosh like that too.
Speaking of scales: What do you find better, regular joe kind, or digital.
I have a Taylor Professional regular kind, and the weird thing is.. I can actually move it around the bathroom and get different readings. Of course, my heart wants to take the lowest of them, but i'd also rather be acurate.
The scale is use is digital. It is a Tanita with the body fat readings. I'm not sure how accurate it is, but it usually gives me a pretty consistant reading sometimes up or down by a half pound or so depending on how I stand on it. I always take the lowest reading it gives me, but that way I'm at least being consistent. What really matters is the loss, not the number. I mean you could always take the highest reading and use that, but if you constantly used the highest number then the loss would be the same. Either way it is the same and the lower numbers make you feel more encouraged so as long as you are consistent it really doesn't matter that much. I don't move it around though I leave it in pretty much the same spot on the floor.
Sherry - that's great - congratulations on the scale keeping moving downward!
Falon - I've always been the primary breadwinner - my DH usually has jobs that pay between $10 and $12 an hour so it doesn't hurt our income too badly. He needs to make enough money to cover his car payment and he only has 5 of them left. The paycheck he got yesterday will cover the next 3 since it was for 3 weeks plus OT plus they gave him back his benefits. I'd rather he works part time and takes care of the house.
Sandra - hang in there girl. Hope the new job works out. I have USAA insurance and I love it. My DH was in the military for 14 years. It's very cheap compared to others. And they don't hold all my DH's tickets against him.
Lacey -- I was having real problems without the fruit and nutrition too. I switched to a different low carb program - I got Prevention Magazine's Lose Weight the Smart Low-Carb Way and after 3 days, I love it so far. I know a couple of other people here were doing a different low-carb program as well - I bought the Protein Power book and am still reading it too.
I got the Sonoma diet book and have been reading it. It isn't low carb, but some of what it has to say is pretty good about "power foods" one of which is wine (or grapes). Grapes have a lot of sugar, and I don't want to stop Atkins yet, but I thought I would incorporate some of her power foods into the program I'm doing. I did have a glass of wine last night and the night before. Wondering if that helped with the whoosh?
awesome tattoo pics, I LOVE the cross and vines, just beautiful!!
Robin: THREE TIMES!!! Wow, I can't wait to tell my husband this, we fight about three times a day. I hate fighting but the making up can be pretty fun
Falon: I have digital scales and I keep them in the same exact place by my refrigerator. My house is so old that I can move them around and get different readings so I just get on, weigh once and stick to that reading for the day
Thanks for the support girls, if I don't come in here on a daily basis I can REALLY feel myself sliding downhill. I've lost my Atkins book and I think I need to re-read it because I KNOW there are people out there who have been on maintenance for years doing atkins. I refuse to give up!!!
I went shopping today. Bought some cute clothes. I love shopping for my daughter. She has this cute little tiny figure. I don't enjoy shopping for myself near as much although I did when I looked more like her.
I bought her a cute little pink and white skirt with a lime green top and a little brown jacket to go over it The fabric for the skirt and top is that crinkly imported type fabric and they look cute together. I bought her a pink blouse to wear with the skirt alternatively. But the thing she and I both really loved was a white dress that is really a bit too old for her. It is like a party dress that is strapless. It hugged her cute little body just perfect though. Has a cloth rose pinned over one hip, flared little skirt and stretchy material that hugs her body really nicely. She's going to need a strapless bra now though. She's only 14 and doesn't have much bust to speak of, and could go braless if you couldn't see too much through the fabric!
She loved it! I need to get her a little satiny jacket to wear over it though. I don't want her looking too sexy at her age.
For my son I bought an orange dress shirt and a black tie. I knew he would love it. (He's a San Francisco Giant's fan and those are their colors). I also bought him a dark blue dress shirt and a light blue tie. My husband was envious of my son's orange and black! I told him I would have got the same for him, but he never goes anywhere dressed up enough to wear a shirt and tie. (The kids and I go to religious meetings). He didn't care, he still liked the colors.
*sigh* I can't get my husband to the gym to save my life. I have been trying everything. He told me to get the rec center family pass, so I did, but he hasn't been once. I have even offered to get up with him at 4 and go from 5 -6am before he needs to leave. 4 is his usual time to get up, but se sits on the computer until it's time to leave. Anyhow, he just asked me what my plans are for the day, and I said I was going to the gym this morning, then to get groceries. I asked him the same, and he said he was going to go down to the gun show in Denver. I guess my point is, I give up. He is still losing weight, and is down 20 pounds, so no complaints in that department. I just can't motivate him to go and I figure it's time to stop trying. I just need to let him begin when he does.
Ok, vent over.
Sandra - shame you're having to deal with petty crap at work. It's not fair. It's not fair, but i'm a firm believer that things work out the way they are intendend to. Good luck!
Thanks for the scale tips. I happened to figure out the different readings bit because my husbvand would pull it out from it's usual place since he's a big guy and needed more room. I think i'll have to get one.
Susan- My husband would love nothing more than to be a house husband. I just really think he'd suck at the job. Sounds like it works well for you guys.
Lacey - Your loss so far, is very inspiring. I hope you don't quit! YOu have come so far, and I am in awe.
Sherry - Sounds like you had a great time shopping! I'm not a shopper, but my daughter is.. LOL She's turning 13 this year, and her desire is to be a mall rat. I won't let that happen, but that's what she'd love most!
Ok, so i'm gonna head off to the gym, and see if Andy follows my lead. I'm not hopeful, but you never know. Hope you all have a lovely Saturday.
My daughter has her show tonight at an Irish Pub (of course ) and so I hope to get a bite to eat for dinner there that is acceptable. I am also going to splurge and have a rum and diet coke!
wouldn't it be so neat if we could do a scan of our bodies like we do our computers so we would know what's going on? Like "You are retaining water today" or "You've eaten too much splenda" LOL
Gonna clean house today, fun fun!! Hope y'all have a great weekend!
I am going to scream
I dont care if I am fat, I am going to enjoy life right along with everyone else and I am going to get a tan. HA HA. I am going to the gym this morning and I am going to work my @$$ off. The good thing about the new job is that if I get it, I will be able to go back to the gym in the mornings again and I am so damn thrilled about it. Sorry about the language if I offended anyone and thank you all for listening. -Sandra
for you and the new job. 
Im still deciding.
shopping, and there are some awesome sales out there right now. Kmart has some really nice t-shirts for $5 !! Then I found some real pretty fleece 1/4 zip tops there, and out at gander mnt, I found more fleece at 50% offf!! I wear alot of fleece in the winter! 
) and so I hope to get a bite to eat for dinner there that is acceptable. I am also going to splurge and have a rum and diet coke!