Hey Joy :carrot::carrot::carrot::carrot: Look at you WONDERFUL! goal is a hop skip and a tiny jump for you. CONGRATS
Hey I did like my forties In fact that was when I was fitting in my size 6 lol
Yah I know there is no magic bullet, I really don't know how to eat anymore. Been on a diet since the age of 7 due to the doctors. Chubby was not in, in the 60's and being a teen in the 70's was worse. lol

I turned 53 and really don't mind it, I just hate the fact that this added weight is making me feel older not perky and happy like I normally am. I know who I am and right now this is sooooo not me. Think that's why I'm looking for the quick fix.

But man it was good you droped in I have been cheering you on and so pleased your pretty much there (goal) :carrot::carrot::carrot::carrot: More happy dance for you. Have a great day friend. :D

Alrighty Well now I think today I well just eat and keep track. and write it down. No rules. And see what happens.

Writing back to Joy made me realize that I truly have been living by rules to eat or what not to eat my entire life, except when I my DH passed away. Which is when I lost all my weight and stayed there for 4 years. I ate when I was hungry and didn't think about food 24/7. It was a very painful time for me.

And what brought the weight back was all due to tiring to lose 5 stinking pounds to get to that magic number in my head (125 I was 130). The more I tried the more I gained. I Dieted myself fat again. In reality 5 lbs probably would not have made any difference at all.

One thing I have been lucky at, as my extra weight is not in just one area. It's distributed pretty evenly so I don't look as heavy like a lot of women my age that have a big belly or bottom, and of course being a bit taller 5'5 helps also.
Oh I well never except this extra weight, But I need to get off the rule kick, I know that I am a rule breaker big time. (only with food) lol. I hated it as a kid watching everyone having ice cream in front of me and not being able to have it cause I was put on 1000 calorie diet. And I think its the kid in me (still) that is going to do everything possible to break the rules.

Well well another book lol. But it helps to get it out of the system.

So lets see what happens with the NO RULE diet lol. Only track what I eat to see what I eat. and when I want to eat. Instead of eat this at this time but only after this. LOL

Then again, I will probable always impose rules on myself its a way of life for me. So Well track for now and maybe do a few things like eat slower and maybe better food choices and keep the amount smaller but not deprive myself of more if I am hungry and the biggest thing DON'T FEEL GUILTY.

Baby steps :D

Today's food on my new Baby Steps Eating Plan :D


big glass choc milk made w/ff milk
Glass of milk 2%
peanuts
pizza
snack cake
corn chips

total calories 1430
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Yesterdays foods was pretty trashy, but I ate what I wanted didn't gorge. The calories are except-able. So will continue on and see what goes. Plus I was not really hungry for a meal.

I am going to eat what I like and try to clean up some stuff (better choices)
One thing I am going to do is drop the artificial sweetener and buy the truvia if I need to add some sweet to my drinks. I have always drank coffee black and on occasion do like it with cream and a sweetener. Today may be more fruit as I need to get it used up before it goes bad and I do like the smoothie so will see what goes.

Today's food

milk banana smoothie
orange
can of tuna in water with 1 piece toast
coffee w/milk

WELL sugar and carbs seem to be winning the Battle. Even my oatmeal is setting off binges. Oh well.

Starting the Dukan Diet today low carb and see if I can get the cravings under control. Its similar to Atkins, But different. I Hate having to go lc again but it does stop the munchies (after getting past that 3 day mark)

Who knows, Maybe this will be the only way for me. I really hate being stuffed all the time and still hungry and tired. If I don't get it under control then I can see diabetes in my future and so not want to go down that path.

My meals will consist of lean meats, egg whites, and ff dairy for 4 days then, will be adding in veggies. Think my meat of choice well be chicken breast as I do have a bag in the freezer and I can cook today and wont have to worry about it during Phase one the attack phase.

I do like the idea of dairy on this so it maybe will make it easier.

Well I least I am still looking for a way to get this weight off. I am a perfect example that One diet is not for all. And it is truly a rocky road finding what will work for you (me). Everything I have been trying worked when I was younger, but now that I am in that old group it is really hard. lol and life goes on. :D

Yesterday went good till, my daughter brought me a cake, and cookies as a late mother day's present. Oh well I hate Lc anyway lol.

My weight is moving up, and I am again dieting myself fatter. Humm How do you get off the ride?

Looking back over this thread I was doing good with the calorie counting. But just cant seem to get back there.

The mind and body can not seem to agree on what to do. I don't care what anyone says the sugar cravings are physical and It controls you. Will power does not work. So I am now on the eat, crash, starving, eat crash ride again. and this has really brought on the hot flashes again so I am miserable.

I wish I could except the extra weight and say @#&% it. :censored: :) kidding

So again its a new day and will track my calories.

Just a few minutes ago my other daughter stopped by and brought me another after moms day gift lol a big cookie the size of a medium pizza. Go figure lol but i am in a better mood

Hi surfn,
I like your expression "dieting myself fatter." Isn't it frustrating??? I had to stop counting my calories because I was rationalizing what I ate. Like even if I wasn't hungry, I had 300 calories left for the day so I would eat them. Or I would save all my calories for the end of the day so I could pig out.... and I was eating crap because of it. Ugh. Sugar addiction is awful. I tell myself, this is what smokers must feel like, and can understand why it's so hard to quit. Hang in there! Try to take it one meal at a time.

Just noticed something if I would have been happy with 1 lb a week I would have been down 16 lbs by now, which would have been 164. Wow that would have been nice.

See wasted so much time again looking for the quick fix. :rolleyes:

Well there is I think 33 weeks left in the year and I will have to get it in my head 1 lb a week will put me at 147 at the end of the year and yes that would make me happy. Forget about the 50 lbs and be happy to just start moving down.

I am going to start with 1200 to 1500 range which is really a lot of food if not eating the processed stuff, but I am not going to try to restrict anything cause it just makes me want it more.

I just need to get back in a routine again Like I was earlier in this thread and maybe the 6 meals that I was very happy with and then strayed.

Well if there is a bright side, writing all this stuff down (even the failed attempts helps one to go back and see what was working and what didn't.
And yes I do have a crap load of what didn't work :o

So with keeping with my saying "no starting over just continue" that's what I'll do as I hate day 1"s

So onward on my journey (knocking the chip off my shoulder) :carrot:

flippychick Thank you needed that, and great advice. Its nice to know that we are not alone. Well keep looking for the answer and keep trying cause I know I will eventually get it right, Thank you again for dropping in :D

Hang in there!

One food in front of the other, slow and steady wins the race!

readyfreddy Thank you, All of you are so great, I"ll remember that "one food in front of the other" I have to say I am feeling so much better :carrot:

Well I might have figured out how I got into the sugar binging again. A few weeks ago I quit smoking and starting eating the surgery junk. Well I could not take the binging and started smoking again, But the sugar binging has continued. So one bad now equals 2 bad's lol. but maybe I can settle down a bit and stop driving my self nuts.

OK so my new plan of attack. I always have one :D

1. I wrap up the cookie pie and other crap and getting rid of it. (toss the crap)
2. Going to the store and stock up on fresh veggies and fruit.
Making me a veggie platter and have it on hand in the fridge for my lunch and side at dinner.
3. No more diet sodas during the day or only have at meals. When thirsty Drink water.
4. Eat 3 meals and no snacking (get another hobby)
5. No eating after 8pm and middle of the night eating. (This may take some real work to achieve but will give it my all, need the sleep)
6. Eat less and slow (this is also a learning process)

Whats the old saying "practice make perfect" So I will practice this each day.

I don't think I am being to hard on my self and as I said before I have a hard time following rules and restrictions, But I think these are more guide lines ;)

Starting this today (now) even tho at 4 this morning I got out of bed and attacked the cookies. (they are gone, got up while writing this and tossed them)

kk well check in later, I well more then likely be a crab going through sugar withdraw lol
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Gm, feel great today. Haven't said that in a while. Yesterday was really good in the food area. no binging. I did however have a piece of cake before bed. But its almost gone and the only thing I didn't toss as Hubby likes it and will eat most of it before I do.

OK This is another point or putting 2 and 2 together. When I was doing well my moods were great. Even tho I was program hopping I was feeling good and losing here and there. The one major thing that I was doing or attempting to do on each plan was to eat clean. Which I did yesterday except the cake, but what a difference.

I slept last night no raiding, no brain fog. feel happy and perky lol. I thinking about going and picking up the relacore again took it along time ago and it does make you feel good. Its just basically vitamins. Did not take it with a diet plan, I was expecting it to do all the work. lol But you do get that less stress feel good out of it. Well see

Picked up all my Veggie and fruits yesterday. going to put my platter together today so I can munch away on it. Grabbed my oatmeal too, think I was just over dosing on sugar as to why I thought the oatmeal set me off on the binge. Will have it for breakfast in a bit and see if it causes me grief. If so then my puppies get a treat they love oatmeal.

kk will check in later got to go do veggies and dishes :D

Well getting ready to try the oatmeal w/raisins and cinnamon love that. No sweeteners or sugar added. Letting the raisins be my sweetener.

Also stopping the breakfast and eating after 12 like I use to, never ate breakfast when I was at goal or my entire life and only started it because a diet told me so and I would not be hungry and feel great rightttttttt.

All that did was add calories and make me hungry. Need to re-train my body.

Got all my veggies cleaned and cut up for a late lunch/snack later. I am learning to eat raw veggies never been a veggie lover and stuck my nose up at the veggie platter on many outing lol. Trying ranch dressing to to dip in hate mayo so don't know if I well like the ranch well see. If not well find something I like. I know I well need a dip. Wonder if they sell a low fat french onion dip well need to look :D

Yesterday went real well. Ate the veggies and a little ranch dressing at 3pm, then dinner at 6:30. felt really full on a lot less. Had a few more snacks one good one bad. But now all the bad is gone.

Will wait again after noon to eat today, seems that I am not starving the rest of the day so we'll see

Going to get all my blood work done today. Hope I didn't screw myself up with the eating and weight gain. Should get the results back next week. yes a little nervous about it. He's also doing the vitamin d test pretty sure I may be low there due to age and I just really started drinking milk and eating veggies.

Well it is better to know and do something about it then not know and get worse.

will check back later in the day