At last night's TOPS meeting I was presented with a certificate and pin for losing 50 pounds. Had I been at TOPS since the beginning of my weight loss journey I'd be closing in on a 150 pound award, but hey, what can ya do?
Getting the award and looking at this photo is making my weight loss seem all the more real. I've
mentally been at 250 my entire life, despite being anywhere between 360 and 220, and I've never actually been anywhere under 220 until the past few weeks. I feel like a "regular" person now, not the one that's always been overweight by at least 100 pounds.
I'm currently at 213 and at my given pace I'm hoping to be under 200 this summer (if not, no big deal, as long as I'm still going the right direction it's all good).
. . .
This is really happening.
I feel people are finally going to see me as simply Karen, and will no longer dismiss me as just the fat lady. I don't know, maybe I carry a chip on my shoulder over it? But I've spent my entire life being either the fat girl or the fat lady, and there's so much more to me and everyone else than just our size. I'm so ready to shed that label and be seen more for who I actually am.