Back down today. 251.2 went for a short walk/run, the first in a week.

Okee ... I have sent a few PMs to some of our missing members to see if they still want to continue ... hopefully they will come back in ... but if not then I hope they are ok and will do well on their journey anyway :)

So here is the most updated sheet ... as a team we have almost lost 90 pounds!!! FANTASTIC JOB!!

Looking at the results I think its been a hard week for a few of us .. but dont be disheartened .. it happens and you can still do this ... tomorrow is another day .. next week is another weigh in.

So here are the results :)

I had a good start today .. was determined to get a routine going .. so I made myself get up early (even though I didnt go to bed til about 3am lol) and after a shake for breakfast I did a level 1 Walk Away the Pounds routine .. discovering new muscles but recovered well ... will do level 1 each day for a week .. then go on to level 2 .. that is my challenge for this next week. 20 minutes workout level 1 so I can definitely fit that in :) Having some chicken for lunch with some nuts ... then dinner is a little schnitzel with lots of veges ... nuts are nibbles today .. so I have todays plan in place lol ..

Sorry I didn't get back to weigh in until today! Work is very hectic and between that, working out and sleeping I am not getting a lot of time to spend online.

Starting next week I will change my weigh in day to a saturday in the hope that i can get on more promptly to update! I will be trying to lose as much as possible this week as on the 12th I am leaving for New Orleans (and trying to be good while there) for vacation for 6 days so I am sure it won't be great! I will therefore weigh in on the 11th and then not again for 10 days until the 21st when I get back from vacation! (Hope that doesn't cause any issues)


Starting weight (for challenge) 8/21: 276

8/28 - 273.5 -2.5
9/4 -269.8 -3.7
9/11 -
9/21 -
9/28 -
10/5 -
10/12 -
10/19 -
10/26 -
11/2 -
11/9 -
11/16 -
11/23 -
11/30 -
12/7 -
12/14 -
12/21 -

Nightkat, that is amazing progress!! You must be thrilled!! Awesome!!

Down to 250.2!

Start- 253.8

Week 01 Aug 26-251.8
Week 02 Sep 02-251.2
Week 03 Sep 09-
Week 04 Sep 16-
Week 05 Sep 23-
Week 06 Sep 30-
Week 07 Oct 07-
Week 08 Oct 14-
Week 09 Oct 21-
Week 10 Oct 28-
Week 11 Nov 04-
Week 12 Nov 11-
Week 13 Nov 18-
Week 14 Nov 25-
Week 15 Dec 02-
Week 16 Dec 09-
Week 17 Dec 16-
Week 18 Dec 23-


Christmas 2013 Goal- 220

Thinking of throwing in the towel. I have suffered a gain, and this is defeating. On top of that, inches have increased in some areas. This just doesn't make sense to me. I workout, I eat decent, with maybe a slip up here and there, but I have always been under x amount of calories and lost weight. Now I am going in the opposite direction?? I am so disgusted with myself right now.

Aw Heather please dont give up on yourself! Stop thinking about what its doing at the moment and focus on what you have already achieved. This week saw a few of us struggle .. a few ups .. and a few barely downs/maintaining. Its part of the journey .. and I think its the time that you then focus on another part of the journey .. its all about the mental. I have been struggling a little this week foodwise .. the cravings have been getting to me with TOM visiting and while I am trying to hold strong .. today may be a bit more of a challenge as we are going visiting family .. but I will just enjoy it and try not to be too bad .. but if I do .. ah well .. I will just have to work harder next week.

Keep believing in yourself Heather .. I believe in you :) :hug:

I am with NightKatt..we are here for you ShyHeather...:hug:

I know it is the pits sometimes. It seems I have to "be perfect" for two weeks before is shows on the scale..:mad:

Okay, I will make you a deal...I never thought I would really do this BUT..if you keep working on your weight loss - hang in there over these rough times...I will post my measurements...WHEW :eek: Can't believe I am agreeing to this. (because I really am SHY)

Deal??????????????????????????

Starting Weight Since July 1st: 333lbs

WEEK 1 - 12/8 - 322lbs
WEEK 2 - 19/8 - 322lbs
WEEK 3 - 26/8 - 322lbs
WEEK 4 - 02/9 - 317bs
WEEK 5 - 09/9 -
WEEK 6 - 16/9 -
WEEK 7 - 23/9 -
WEEK 8 - 30/9 -
WEEK 9 - 07/10 -
WEEK 10 - 14/10 -
WEEK 11 - 21/10 -
WEEK 12 - 28/10 -
WEEK 13 - 04/11 -
WEEK 14 - 11/11 -
WEEK 15 - 18/11 -
WEEK 16 - 25/11 -
WEEK 17 - 02/12 -
WEEK 18 - 09/12 -

I want in on this. I have already been keeping track for another challenge so I am just going to jump right in here. I am hoping to lose another 18 pounds by Halloween, but I have no idea if that will happen. I have been very, very sick, vitamin deficient, lots of tests and procedures lately so life hasn't been easy. I don't have the energy to exercise, being tested for thyroid disease. SO, I will continue to do the things I can control like drink my water and eat the best that I can with what I have to work with! Already lost 16 pounds so I am doing something! I would just love to see that number 2, 299 by Christmas, so that is all I care about right now. That would be the best gift ever.

Hi guys!! I was going to join before and then went off piste, thanks to a lovely and thoughtful email from Katt i'm here!! I'm starting a little later than everyone else but hey ho i'm here, my weigh in is on sunday so will post from tomorrow along with a goal. Thanks again Katt x

Isles .... thats a lovely offer of support there ... very brave of you :) I hope Heather can see we are here for her if she needs to vent ... Its sooo understandable when the scales seem to turn against you .. and the measuring tape (more on that for my update).

Slush .... Welcome on board! Thanks for updating your sheet I have added it on to the team sheet which I post each Friday :) You have been doing a great job so far .. congrats on the 16 already a distant memory :)

Sheena!! .... Wonderful to see you back .. so glad you are wanting to stay with us :) Doesnt matter when you start .. any time is fine .. adjust your weight loss target to a realistic goal (something that is achievable) to cover the next 14 weigh ins (takes us to the start of December ... I may be off the following week because Im getting married so wont be able to update as quickly lol but we can carry on to the week of Christmas :) )

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Okee ... so not the most positive update .. in fact confidence took a bit of a knock today ... and really I should have been prepared for it .. but I left my guard down and comments hit harder than they usually would. Now Im of two minds to binge on chocolate or just stop eating altogether. I know I wont do either of those things because Im too stubborn to let someone else have that sort of control over me .. but I just wanted to share in case anyone else experiences the same sort of thing. What happened?
Feeling very excited (and my daughter coming over to come for the ride was an extra treat) we got in the car this morning to go to my home town to see my sister (mainly) to start discussing the wedding. As a treat (mainly for my hunny and daughter) we stopped at Wendys restaurant for lunch on the way (as we dont have one near where we are so not a common treat) and I had already looked at what the best option calorie-wise would be for me .. so I went for the Grilled Chicken Burger with no sauce. I also had 10 of my hunnys chips/fries. We carried on to my sisters and my mom was there too .. which was nice .. so we sat down to have a cuppa, my sister had made some scones (just small ones .. about 2" long & 1" wide and 3/4" high when split open) .. so I had one piece with my cuppa. My sister had also baked a cake .. now she cant have any dairy and is very conscious of sugar so she doesnt use any dairy or eggs in her cakes and minimal sugar ... so having a piece wasnt going to be too bad ... I just had a small piece .. and it was heaven (have asked her to make it for our wedding cake lol) .. THEN .. as I put my spoon down my mother started commenting about things I shouldnt be eating .. telling me on my wedding day (as we had been discussing menus) I wont be able to eat a lot of the things we were discussing having ... and as it was soooo unexpected it just sent me right back to when I was 12 and she put me on Weight Watchers :(
My darling jumped in with stating I have (in 3 weeks) lost 7 blocks of cheese in weight ... and instead of compliment only .. it was again a double edged one with "thats great .. but you still have a lot of work to do and it will be hard .. you really need to watch what you are eating" ... sigh .. hence the reason I instinctively thought GIVE ME CHOCOLATE RIGHT NOW!!! Just to bite off a chunk and eat it in front of her as if to thumb my nose at her ... so I just went quiet and starting doubting myself again .. wondering if I would ever be thin enough for her ..
I had been bulimic in my teens because of the guilt I felt for anything I let pass my mouth thinking of the calories I was consuming ... so of course my second instinct was to go and throw up the chocolate cake!!! GRRRR
I had recently been told that the "ideal weight" was based on size 8-10 clothes in NZ (dont know what that would be overseas .. but its darn small! Even my 13 year old niece is a 12!! and she is tiny!) .. which I mentioned as part of a conversation later .. and said that I would never want to go down to that .. The lowest I have been as an adult was 95kg (209 pounds) and I felt like a walking coathanger .. I had bones sticking out everywhere and I felt so uncomfortable in my skin .. and even though I said that .. my mother said "Oh but you would have felt better about yourself" ... no .. I just said I didnt like how I looked!! GRRR
Soooo ... the whole drive home (which is about 1.5 hours) all I had going through my head was the guilt of enjoying the Wendys treat .. the guilt for eating a small piece of chocolate cake ... the words of my mother now and when I was younger .... and the ping pong reaction of cutting my calories even further (not that I eat the 1900 Im supposed to anyway!), not eating solids and living on Meal replacment shakes for the next 3 months, or binging on chocolate and cookies thinking damn the world!
I tried explaining the pain of those words to my darling .. but he doesnt understand how deep the cuts were from when I was younger and when the comments first started .. I can take it from other people .. I dont care .. but from your mother .. it leaves you wondering of your worth and whatever self-confidence you have it knocks it with doubt with a few small words.

Sooo we have come home .. stopped at the supermarket and went in with my daughter to get some fresh veg and a cooked chicken .. came home and cooked a healthy stir fry for me .. added a little of the cooked chicken to it and some haloumi (which I love) ... my hunny and daughter had bread rolls with the chicken and mushrooms and cheese ... I served what would be my normal size helping .. and barely ate half of it before the guilt started again .. so stopped eating even though Im still a little peckish and put it in the fridge to have for lunch tomorrow. Soooo I dont know what this will end up doing to my weigh in for the next week or so .. it tends to take me a week or two to get my mind back on track properly .. if ever .. sometimes it just stays off for months .. but Im gonna fight it and just be happy with whatever I do at my weigh in on Monday .. Oh .. and my hunny redid my measurements .. dang thing was wrong when I did it lol .. still lost in the waist .. but not the hips and bust .. ah well .. a loss is a loss lol ..

Sorry for the ramble peeps .. just wanted to share in case anyone else feels like this sometimes ... Like Ive said before .. we are all on the same journey .. never feel like no-one else will understand .. even the happiest level-headed, confident and upbeat person has those days or moments where doubts come in with a rush to fight back and get beyond it. :hug:

Ohhh nooo katt dont take it to heart!! If it helps my mum did pretty much the same thing when I was a kid, public humiliation over my weight was par for course! Her sisters weren't much kinder either! My husbands uncle felt the need to mention it at my engagement party (nice). I'm Indian and at my Indian version of an engagement party your in laws have an outfit made for you and give you gifts such as jewellery and clothes and then your sister in laws help you get dressed and do your hair and make up for you, make you feel pretty!! It was so nasty to get vicious comments especially on that day, i burst into tears after the party!! Looking back on it i realise that desoite what anyone says there were so many people who were really kind and loving towards me, one person doesnt matter.

HOWEVER someone loves you enough to want to marry you, thats a big deal, i kept my mind focussed on that, its horrible when you are pondering something lovely (like your wedding) and someone brings you down like that.

It doesnt matter what your mum thinks of your weight, you're a grown up now and your own woman with relationships which bolster you. I understand how being put down as a kid can really harm your self esteem and leave a wound which never really goes away as it's so easy to split it open and feel terribly small.

Remember all the nice things everyone says to you and the kindnesses people show you, it doesnt excuse unpleasant experiences but it does help to remind you that you are infact loved for who you are, also you're doing great whoo hooo you xx

And thanks again for giving me a little nudge, needed it!!

NightKatt... Oh I so understand what you went thru and are going thru. I can never make my parents happy... Its always a compliment followed by a sharp pointed bring down statement (I am 55 here too and it still hasn't stopped).. My mother has stopped saying something specific to my face, but always, ALWAYS talks about ladies she has met and how slender, thin, gorgeous they look as they are just so thin yadda yadda yadda , constantly and then she turns and asks me how much I have lost? REALLY??!!! Nothing like.. "oh I can see a difference" (never said to me at all and I have lost now 64 lbs).. No I hear.. your friend "XXX" looks so young and slender... and I just want to strangle her! I really do... The topper, finally, was about a month ago when we were talking food and our age old argument of what food plan I can stick with and "like" to stay with is NOT what she thinks is right for me. (I do Atkins and for 30+ years everytime I started she tried to sabotage me as I do NOT like veggies and she and my dad eat them raw if possible.. Tho she did have a turnaround about Atkins about 10 years ago... which she has NOW forgotten). So I finally stopped her last rant of you need to eat.... blah blah blah, with.. MOM, That is what works for YOU, not for me and I would appreciate it it if you stopped trying to sabotage what I think is best for me. Stop it... as you have tried for years to make me you and I am not you and I do not like what you like. WELL That stopped it (for now) for 4 weeks now.. and I hope she heard me. ..... Sorry about my long story.. But NightKatt... what I was trying to get at... Talk to your mom.. tell her you really do not appreciate her saying the things she does as it affects you as she is an important person in your life and you listen to her. When she (your mom) says things that make you doubt yourself and are NOT constructive, Not Well meaning, but more like a put down, you start not liking yourself and go to a bad place.... Tell her something like that... so that YOU gain control of yourself and what you need to do to take care of yourself and know that she will Back You with your decisions. I think (most people), that she would be mortified that her words hurt you as I know she loves you... Sometimes people just need to know that they are not helpful, but hurtfull... Just a thought. It would probably ease up some trust between you too, as you know the shoe won't drop if you have a meal with her in the future... I know I am rambling here and the words are better in my mind than here on the screen... I am sorry... Just know... You are in charge of YOU... Noone else is!!! ....... From this little time that I have been (lucky me for joining!) a part of this challenge, I see that you are a WONDERFUL, LOVING, CARING and very COMPASSIONATE person.. oh gosh.. just a person who probably worries more about the people in your life more than yourself! I am glad to know you (thru this site) and know that I (and I am sure us all) are behind you 1000000000000000000 % !!

BIGTIME :hug: or HUG to you :)

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From this little time that I have been (lucky me for joining!) a part of this challenge, I see that you are a WONDERFUL, LOVING, CARING and very COMPASSIONATE person.. oh gosh.. just a person who probably worries more about the people in your life more than yourself! I am glad to know you (thru this site) and know that I (and I am sure us all) are behind you 1000000000000000000 % !!

Ditto...what wannaskipandlaugh says.

Sheena82 I feel for all of you. I don't have that Mother issue because mine died when I was 18 being hurt by those you love ---- it's inexcusable for them to be that way to family. Family should support you!!!!

Well, I have to put a chair together and drink more water yet today. :D