Chris - I am so sorry to hear about your grandmother. You certainly don't need the stress of exams with such a tough family issue hanging overhead. You seem to be in a good place about it, though. It is so hard to lose any family member, but you can take comfort in knowing that she feels ready, versus being taken from your with much left undone or unexpectedly. *HUGS*

You're a smart chicky and you've studied hard. Your exams are in two hours...relax. Freaking out and cramming in for every last second will do nothing but stress you. You know this stuff, so it's already done. You'll do great, and even better if you give yourself some time to center and get mentally/emotionally prepared for these tests. Have a great breakfast and take a nice walk. Think about the exams, but feel confident in your ability! You're going to ace every one and be outta there!!! Good luck!

woah.....this cant be happening
the weight is coming off!
leave it to a man to go away for a week

I read everything I swear... I just have nothing to say

My scale and I are not speaking... and I'm super not happy with it even though I've been on plan and what not...however a lot of things have changed...so maybe my body is just get use to it

I'm having steak for dinner :) Stella says that works lol

Haley - it DOES work. I had a cheeseburger the other day and automatically lost a 1 lb overnight :)

Chris - I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. I went through a similar situation with mine, except she was only sick for 3 months before she died. Its very hard, but you will find the strength to do your finals. Just think, you have someone extra pulling for you now to succeed! That's the way I look at it. Like this hike is freaking me the **** out for this weekend, but I know my mom and my grandmother will be pushing me towards the finish line :) /hug

Star - On a 7 day schedule (7 days before said race) you do low carb for the first 3 days while working out intensely, then high carb while working out lightly, then just stick to high carb w/ no exercise for the 7th day. WARNING: I was told this only works if you do it once a year, otherwise your body will get used to it and adjust.

Ugh. I hate anxiety and not being able to work out. This is ridiculous. At least I'm storing up the adrenaline. And I saw 172.0 this morning, so I'm counting it :)

Thanks, Ladies. This thing with my grandma is hard, and I've always been very close to her. But it is life I guess. I hate that she's suffering, and she's been sick for a few years, but the last few months since Christmas time have been sooo horrible for her. She's just not herself anymore, and she doesn't want to continue the way and I don't want her to be in pain anymore. It's just hard knowing that today is basically her planned date of death. Like I'm just waiting on edge for the news. Maybe she'll make it longer, but she wanted to talk the other day so they took off the ventilator and she basically had a panic attack and her heart rate shot up to like 250bpm, so I really doubt she will even make it home from the hospital.

Ugh. Exam 1 took the cake (or should I say, carrots, as I'm abstaining from cake until my birthday on Sunday). It really was easy.

The harder exam is coming up... leaving the library now. Ick. Today is just dumb. Dumb day. I'm glad I have bible study with my pastor right after exam so I can talk with him.

Chris - I'm so sorry to hear about your grandmother. My grandma had alzheimers and eventually had to be moved into a nursing home. It was so hard watching her deteriorate before our eyes. Like you, my brother and I were both very close with her. She eventually wasn't our grandma anymore, she just wasn't there. There was solace in knowing that she would no longer be suffering or trapped in a mind and body that no longer would cooperate with her. She was ready to go. :hug: If your grandma is ready then you kind of have to respect that. In death we are selfish as we are mourning OUR loss, not theirs. I like to think it must be pretty awesome to go surf the cosmos.... Hang in there, sweetie.

hugs chris its hard losing a family member

i watched my mom's health slide down over the last several years before my last visit to her before she passed.
just remember the good times

Hey everyone!!!

I'm done my projects so I'm just stopping by quickly to say hi and such before I head to the gym. I'm down to 141.8 now...I'm so close to my goal!!
My allergies have started acting up because of the trees so my throat is very sore right now. I also hurt my back yesterday...I haven't told anyone why cause it's embarrassing, but I was dancing in my apartment yesterday and pulled a muscle in my back. I can't dance and that was a huge reinforcement of that!!!
I got a 96% on my audiological evaluation report project that literally took me a month to do. :)
I graduate in NINE days!

I literally skimmed through these pages, so I'm sorry if I don't get everyone...I just grabbed from what other people were saying and such. I'm sorry!!

Feral-Congrats on the 184!!

Chris- I'm so sorry about your grandmother! I just lost my great grandmother to cancer back in November. It's really hard to lose someone you love, but it's more of a relief that they're not in pain and not suffering anymore. We had to put my great grandmother on hospice right before she left..and the day they said that she might go was one of the slowest days of my life. It's really tough and you're so strong to be able to still concentrate on your school work...good luck with your exams and I'm sending you air hugs!

Sam- Hope you're feeling better! and those meal replacement bars are ridiculous!! I'd rather have a snickers or an actual meal!

Okay in general...keep kicking butt on exams, weight loss, staying on track, anything kick butt-able!!! Have a great day, and a good weekend! It's gorgeous here on the east side, enjoy that sunshine if you have it!

Chris - Good luck on your exams. Sorry to hear about your grandmother. If you can, try to celebrate her life instead of focusing on her passing. Grandmothers have a lot to offer in terms of knowledge, so try to remember everything she's ever taught you :)

Haley - It does!

Stella - I've read that bodybuilders do that too to get more pop into their muscles before competitions cause something about filling their muscles up with carbs. Yum carbo-loading :)

I'm 1 pound away from -30lbs, woo! Maybe when I get there I'll actually believe it is because of me and not like...30 pounds of water weight. >.>

Samantha - Yay for graduating in 9 days! Congrats! I've totally hurt my back while dancing too, you're not the only one!

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I am highly frustrated right now, at not being able to work out. I hurt my ankle last Friday and have been on crutches & in an air cast since. It's slowly healing, but it's really frustrating. The doctor said it could take 3-6 weeks to heel completely. Of course, this happened the day before I was supposed to start P90X, and I also had a weekend of sports playing lined up. Go figure! I've been walking 3 miles a day. Having to sit all day, is driving me nuts!

Thanks everyone, and I am thinking about all the good times with my grandma, and I am certainly glad she won't suffer anymore. You're right though, it's just a looooong day trying to wait and hear news. I'm at work right now sitting in the library watching a kid play computer games, and thinking about my phone which I accidentally left in my car. My aunt said she'd call me after 9 when I get off work though. They were taking my grandma off the life support at 5:30 so it's weird to think right now that she might already be gone, or maybe she's hanging on. I don't know. I honestly hope she passes soon and peacefully now that she is off it because I just don't want her to be in pain anymore. I'm worried for my aunt too, because you know, she's one of those crazy cat lady aunts who has never gotten married or been able to keep a boyfriend long. Her mom is her best friend, and she doesn't have kids or anything, so I'm going to try and keep in touch with her more. Ugh... I just need to think about other things for the next hour because it's stressing me out.

Hm... different topic... I went for a run this afternoon after I finished exams (which all went well and easy), and I ran 4.1 miles in 50 minutes. That's a 12 minute mile, and that's further than I've run straight before! Only a little bit further, but still. Good for me. I haven't timed myself before, so now I might start keeping track. My 5k is next Saturday. I don't even care if I come in last. I just want to finish it, and I'm sure I will be able to.

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Stella; I'm excited to hear about how your hike goes! Can't wait for the hiking season to start up here... still needs to get a biiiit warmer for backpacking for my tastes. Below freezing at night is no fun for camping unless you have proper gear.

Samantha; Ewww dancing injuries. I pulled a muscle dancing this week too. In my stomach nonetheless by trying to do stomach flutters while bellydancing. Weird thing to explain to people who don't know I bellydance. Nobody understands how you can pull a stomach muscle... well, I guess it's an ab muscle. But whatever.

Aliquot; -30 yay! Keep it up!

Vertigo; Hey where abouts in Michigan are you from? LP or UP? :) I'm sorry about your injury. I was let up on injuries a couple months ago for moooonths. It was awful.

Okay, out for now.

Michigan...is it nice there???? I could end up there for law school... and it seems very...cold lol

Chris-Glad you're exams went well and glad your running experience was nice... I'm sooo afraid of running

I had a yummy steak for dinner and I only ate half which is awesome for me because it was sooooo freaking amazing

technically I'm 2 pounds away from the hundred pound mark... which is insane

I colored my hair tonight... I needed a change...hitting the gym early tomorrow and then going to see the boyfriend...ugh I wish it wasnt such a long drive

thank you everyone for making me snap out of it! it kinda worked. i need to be accountable, so here is what i ate today: banana, chicken/veggie/brown rice bowl, 100 cal pack cookies x 2 lol, apple and peanut butter, oven roasted chicken and broccoli, skim milk.... and now i want another 100 cal pack of cookies... mmmm. haven't decided yet....

also, i did zumba class tonight, and then 30 mins on elliptical. and then a crazy *** ab workout. woo go me.

i want to be the number on my ticker tomorrow!!!! *crosses fingers*

Hey, what are some good food brands that you guys like? For wraps, almond butter, almond milk, oats, snacks, protein bars, that kind of stuff.

I need some ideas. I just tried some VitaMuffins from Vitalicious and they're pretty good!

Jess - Nice work at the gym! Your foods sound yummy. I haven't decided what I'll make yet for dinner. Hungry.

Bike 28 miles today. Holy tired.