Busy Busy day have another meeting next week with a groomer that wants to carry my items YAY!!! had balsamic roasted chicken and veggies for dinner so YUMMY!! i seem to not have enough hours in the day for all i need to get done

Feral - what a d-bag is right! wow! I like your short n' not-so-sweet message back to him!! My ex-boy is one too, but I EFFING MISS HIM SO EFFING MUCH! it sucks. I was okay, my friends have been so supportive and keeping me busy and stuff, but I just want to see him, but I gotta stay strong. Ughk!!!! If anything staying under calories hasn't been hard this past because I'm so frigging nauseas thinking of him so much that I can't even bare the thought of eating....

One paper down, one to go...

...not yet finished with my second paper but am thinking about sleep. Is 4.5 hours of sleep worth it?

Morning girlies! Finally back down to 181 had been bouncing between 182 and 183 for a week. Bought a new pilates dvd yesterday at walmart. I also found 10 min high calorie burn workouts on prevention.com that will be so useful in the next couple of weeks when i'm sooo busy.

Morning Ladies.

I am semi back to the land of the living which really means I just came to work today. It seems all my sinus stuff is starting to move into my chest. Yay. *note sarcasm*

So yesterday was just a bad day in general - felt like poop. decided to stay home and rest and somehow in there I managed to have a really bad binge. *sigh* Today is a new day and I haven't had one of those in quite a while.

My weight was down to 183 on Saturday and has been holding out at 187-189 for the past few days. Now, I know I drank a lot on Saturday and my eating wasn't fantastic, but there is no way I consumed enough calories to gain 4-7 lbs.

I hope its just my body hanging on to a bunch of water because I'm sick and my body is under stress. Either way its still frustrating.

Can I go home and crawl back into bed now?

Feral - Facebook?!? Really?!?! Ok, Mike just amped it up to a whole new level of d-bag! OOoooo that ticks me off. ICK! If there wasn't a spark though (as you have said too), then best not to waste your precious time, when the right guy is out there waiting. I am all about character. If he couldn't find the nerve to pick up the phone, this guy is lacking. You and Jenny both deserve men (not boys) who will treat you with the respect and care that you are owed as smart sexy women. D-bags...both of them!

I do find it really interesting that Jenny is channeling her feelings into diet resolve. Way to find that silver lining, girl! lol That guy didn't know what he had...just wait until you see him out all alone missing you...he'll be drooling over your hot self and you can just stick your nose up and walk the other way!

In other news...today is 31 cent scoop night at Baskin Robbins. Now, yes, we really shouldn't be going for ice cream, but the company is donating $100,000 to the Fallen Firefighters foundation, so splurging on discounted scoops is for a good cause. And, yes, those firefighters can be d-bags, too, but they are crazy enough to run into your burning house, so supporting them is a good plan. lol Plus, you're really supporting the families of those who were lost on the fireground, so think of the kids and wives and eat some ice cream!!! lol

I made chicken fajitas last night. I was going to forego the wrap, but I bought some for the hubby. I got the 96% fat free (much lower calorie). I broke down and decided to have one. I was good all day, what the ****. Well...it turns out that whatever keeps it from being fat free, also keeps the wrap from exploding when folded. I took the dumping of all fajita contents as a sign from the universe to turn back. I threw out the wrap and felt much better about myself! lol

I think I'll try round two of the soap fried rice tonight in the rice cooker. We'll see if I can get Jess' liquid ratio strategy right.

Lauren - I know right. I really expected more out of him. I mean, I kind of figured something was up because we hadn't talked much... and let's face it. It takes 30 seconds to shoot someone a message and say "good morning" or "have a good day." I'm really big on that... that's part of who I am. I'm all about the little things. I don't need any elaborate flashy gifts, just lemme know you're thinking about me. [And yes, I did read He's Just Not That Into You.] Thank you for your kind words.

LOL @ the fajita wrap. That sounds like something that would happen to me. In fact, I wish it would've happened to me last night when I was being naughty.

Jenny - Hang in there baby cakes!!!! Sounds like you're doing pretty well though. I know you miss him but you know what? There is someone else out there that YOU deserve... and he isn't it.

Lissa - Glad to hear the hubby got the job. Are you going to be staying in the same area?

Sam - was it worth it? Sometimes it is, sometimes it does more harm than good. You're almost done. Keep on truckin!

Skinny - YAY! I can't wait to see 183 on the scale again. It's taunting me I tell you!

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I may actually go to the doctor today if I can get an appointment. Very rarely do I result to Western medicine but this crap is creeping into my chest and I know I won't be able to breathe and it's just going to linger around and I'm going to be miserable if I don't. I'd rather get some meds and knock it out now than have it knock me out for the next week. I didn't work out yesterday AND I missed Sunday so I'm already 2 behind for my 3 week challenge.

Way to go, Feral.... knock yourself out of alignment and your body follows suit.

i did some digging on here and found what i want my goal for the summer to be
i want to get back to 168 i was there 2 yrs ago and now i want to go back

feral- nope we're going to leave the stress state and go back to Virginia

i gotta agree with lauren- total d-bag (i love using that word its so descriptive when it comes to boys sometimes) you and jenny will find some real men.

While we are somewhat on the guy bashing topic, I have to share an experience from last night...a good guy doing something mean.

When we first bought the farm, there was all kinds of debris that had to be removed from demo (wood products and pieces). We made a giant burn pile and had the most massive bonfire in the history of man to celebrate me getting my MBA.

We have since fenced in the area that once had said pile, and it is actually the pasture that my babies will be going into Friday. My stepfather in all of his glorious wisdom (knee deep in sarcasm) decided to continue the pile with the bits cut from putting up the fence. The pile is literally 5 feet tall, 10-12 feet across, and right up against another fenceline. Hence, we light the pile and the whole place goes up like dominos.

For those of you not familiar with the ways of a horse: big and beautiful though they may be, they are some of the most fragile things on the planet. If you leave one stick in the middle of a 20 acre field, they will find it, hurl themselves upon it, and be impaled. If there is a way to get injured, they will find it. Needless to say, a giant pile of sharp things...not such a brilliant idea.

So this pile has to go...has had to go for the last month. They are coming home in two days, so I guess I'm the one to move it. I get the hubby (sleepy from midnight shifts) to drive the gator out to it with me, so I can load up the pieces. Anyone see a potential hazard with leaving a giant wood pile in an open rural field? Snakes.

Now, I'm no girly girl scared of snakes, but I'm not keen on getting up close and personal with something poisonous that I can't see coming. I was taking my time with the pile, surveying the area carefully each time I reached. He knew I was nervous. I don't do "getting scared". I don't watch scary movies. I don't like surprises. The last time I went to a haunted house, a guy jumped at my friend and I punched him square in the nose. Don't scare me. I reach for one more piece, and just as my hand touches it, he hits the horn (loudest horn in the history of man). I damn near peed myself...thank god I didn't scream. I called him a F***-head and called it a night. This after I got home and did all my chores and made him dinner, letting him sleep as long as possible. They can all be d-bags. ALL of them.

I'm not a girly-girl, and I'm terrified of snakes :( Its a subconscious thing - I see one and before my brain realizes what it is, I have a panic attack. Its so much fun. When I was hiking this weekend, everything was damp, and I was walking along watching where I stepped, and my brain went into panic mode and I screamed. Some d-bag left an internet cable out there - it was black with red stripes but the shape and color set my alarm system off and I near sh*t myself, and then CB and I just started laughing. A similar thing happened later on in the day when I almost stepped on a box turtle. I like turtles. They're cute. This little brat saw me coming and moved, so he startled me, and I jumped 5 feet in the air.

Anywhoo. Yes, I'm a city girl. We don't do snakes :)

Lissa - good luck with the move!

Sam - How'd the paper go? Doing mine last night was like pulling teeth. Ugh, school.

Jenny and Feral - hang in there :)

Also, yes, boys are D-bags, although CB made my morning. He's picking me up from the hike in WV (about an hour away)- he offered, and he won't let me give him gas money, and I'm just like yeah, so you're awesome. Sigh.

I think I saw 172.8 this morning. I'm done exercising until the hike. My body needs to rest. And I'm TRYING to carb-load, but damn this is hard. I've been eating very well, so its hard to get the carbs and the calories. I may have an extra bowl of oatmeal when I get home from school tonight.

Stella - I think the fear of snakes is instinctual and that we are hardwired that way. The cord probably would have made me jump, too. I have encountered them before and been fine...but only if I can see them and focus from a safe distance. Having my face down that close really made me nervous. Like you turtle, though, I had a toad jump near my foot the other night and I nearly sh!t a brick. I'm fine with toads, just not things ground-colored moving near my feet when least expected. lol

This CB is sounding good... :D

Lauren - Agreed. Its like some people with their fear of bugs/spiders. I think spiders are so pretty. My former roommate would run around screaming like a 5 year old girl (he's a 27 year old MAN) if he even saw a spider. He wouldn't act like that if he could control it :)

And yes, CB is awesome. Someone at work told me the other day that we all need an intervention. I was like yeah, probably...

lauren strange i never knew horses would do that. thought they would aim for fences (my mom went thru 2 fences on 2 different horses)

my husband bordered into d-bag territory this morning calling me for directions to get to his new job and i'm not even in the same state