[Taylor86]

star2be I am theater and english major but I do mostly opera with Opera Colorado and Sante Fe Opera House .I don't study opera at my school because I hate the vocal department and everyone thinks they are "OmG So GoOd AnD LiKe TOtAlLy!" I take theory/voice from an outside school and avoid the 'drama' at my school. I am auditioning for a play called Hot L Baltimore so there is a part for a "soft bodied prostitute with a beautiful face" and she is basically crazy throughout the whole play and comes in to each scene with a different guy. It seemed too fun to pass up!

I did okay at my dads. I didn't end up eating my dinner at all and drank 5 glasses of wine. I have 308 calories left and now I am gonna go make a tuna sandwich. >.<

[Blcarter84]

okay so i worked out pretty good at the gym today. And I ate a really healthy lunch and dinner. I was pretty down on my calories for the day since all I got in for breakfast was a yogurt. I sat down and was having a drink with my man when he opened up some doritos which I haven't had since I was in high school(so like 7 years) and I ate a whole bunch of them. EWWW I am never doing that AGAIN! I feel gross. I hope that doesn't mess up my progress. Well I guess that was only one mistake so not so terrible. I will try and wake up all refreshed before I have to go to wor\k.

[Here we go again]

Good morning. Happy Friday!

I'm so glad it's Friday. I had a good day yesterday. I am confused. Last night I weighed after I ate dinner and worked out. I was 283 and I had been 286 that morning. This morning I weighed and I was 285. I'm always lighter in the morning until now. So weird.

I am happy to report that my skinny jeans are now really baggy on me. yay! I'm also wearing an XL tank top which is still amazing me that I'm wearing clothes from a regular store and not the plus section!

[BellaHTH]

Ahhh Friday! This week has been a lot LOT better than last week, tolerable at least. I'm really trying to not live my life for "what's next", wanting things to just be over with and move on to when things are "better" because then my life will just pass me by. What's that quote, "Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans" ??? So I'm choosing today, to enjoy TODAY! With that said, yesterday was a really good day. Well, there was work -- blah. But after work I hung out with a friend, ordered some running shoes (the most I have EVER paid for a piece of clothing, EVER. but I think they will be worth it) and then we went out for Chinese. I haven't had in a long time, sesame tofu, and it was wonderful! I had half and took half home, HUGE thing for me. Then we went to her house and hung out, played with her dog (so cute, I wanted to take her home) and watched Grey's (ummm, it was mostly a downer episode). All in all it was a good evening. And then I got up this morning and worked out, so I'm proud of me. And tomorrow and I think I'm going to a cranberry festival.. should be fun!

Blcarter84 -- Don't you just hate that, when you aren't even really wanting to eat something, but it's there in front of you so you do? Anyways, I say partaking in Doritos every 7 years is ok...

Taylor86 -- 5 glasses of wine and I'd be passed out on the floor! I'm not even joking, I can not handle alcohol like I used to. *sigh* Oh, that parts sounds super fun!!! I'll be keeping my fingers and toes crossed for you!

artsnsmarts -- My heart lept when I read your post, these are the moments that keep me motivated. Even just hearing you talk about yours helps me to imagine the moment when that will happen to me. To go clothes shopping again is a huge deal for me, I really enjoy fashion, not obsessed but I love pretty things! And that is so AMAZING about the audition!

RemeberHowToSmile -- Ahh, compliments are so nice to hear from people you wouldn't expect them from. I like to hear them but they still make me uncomfortable (yeah, I'm weird).

Star2Be -- Haha, I see you writing your posts just bouncing around! you can totally do the whole school things, and you are going to rock at it! Just remember to breath, you'll be ok. And that is so awesome about the blood pressure!

Here we go again -- your inspirational post brought tears to my eyes. We are all doing this amazing and challenging thing, but we are doing it! Thank you for that post. And I like the idea of not dwelling on the negative (hard as that is sometimes), sometimes it seems harder than being healthy!! ha! And YAY to the "baggy" skinny jeans!!

i am still trying -- I totally know what you mean about seeing a thin person and thoughts just popping into my head. Like, how do they make it look so EASY to be thin? Of course, that doesn't matter, cuz I need to do what works for me and what is best for my health. But at those moments, seeing those people, sometimes I want to scream "Life is NOT fair!" Eh, I don't have an answer or solution, except to just keep doing the work, it WILL pay off!!

ghost -- Only you know what you can handle, so don't beat yourself up! Plus, I'm sure you will look back and appreciate the time you are able to spend with your son now. It's never too late to go back to school! I can relate to the feeling weird mentally and the different perspective. It's a little unnerving for me as well. And also, eww to the fishy vomit smell...

caligirl98 -- Please remember to take care of yourself. I am sending you good energy and a little more energy!

Spoz -- You are doing an amazing job, one slip will NOT derail you!!! Just recognize it, and move on. You will not be defined by the lows, but rather by the accomplishments!!!

[Taylor86]

yeah, it was a bad choice to not eat any dinner and have 5 glasses of wine. I made a bad choice when I got home. Damn. Oh well, I know for next time.

arts break a leg at the audition! That sounds so cool!

[ghost]

yeah!!! its friday! I sooo need a weekend to just sleep. So, I finally found an ebay seller who will ship some dang pants to me! For all you ebay sellers out there, may I point out that if you don't ship to Alaska yet you claim to ship to the United States, you are a liar. It doesn't cost a single penny more to ship to Alaska, and there is absolutly no customs to ship to Alaska, we are a part of the US. So, I'm getting two new pairs of size 12 pants, hopefully soon because I'm looking pretty sloppy in my size 14's.

I'm wiped out today. I just want to take a long nap.

[Here we go again]

Ghost- That's awesome! Size 12 great job.

It's been quiet around here. On my lunch break I went and splurged. My skinny jeans are too big so I went shopping and I'm down a size! Yay. I don't know if it's officially down but it is in retrospect. My regular jeans are size 4 and Lane Bryant. My skinny jeans that are too big are 18. So I went to LB cus they were having a sale. I got a size 2 so I really don't know where I'm at but they fit good. I wish it was regular sizes so I know what they are. grrr. lol

[Iconised Ghost]

here we go again: that is awesome progress, you must be feeling on top of the world

I've had one of those weeks where you stress over all the little things you know? from losing keys, to not getting enough work done, to being late, to eating to a little bit too much every night, its been driving me nuts thank god its the weekend

[Taylor86]

I got the Hungry Girl Cookbook today! It is so AWESOME! I love it and I am so willing to post anything you girls are looking for. Just let me know - there are some really AMAZING and easy stuff in there! It's got low-cal margaritas, chocolate, breakfasts, coffee drinks, smoothies..really anything! Just let me know!


I made a "Bacon cheese burger" from the HG cookbook for lunch.
It was a boca burger, light bun, jenni-o turkey bacon and a slice of fat free cheese and 1/2 a tablespoon of light miracle whip. So yummy and I believe it was only 260 calories!

I got a new audition outfit today at Lane Bryant. Not all black, but black pants, a maroon blouse and a black button down sweater. It looks super good!

It kinda sucks I have lost 22 inches and only one pant size. I have lost 2 shirt sizes though. I think it has to do with my butt. I have a white girl booty which I actually love but I just wish it would momentarily make itself smaller when I try on pants. Oh well.

I am sorta being bad right now - I am drinking a giant diet coke. I feel bad cause I know that diet coke isn't the best for me but gosh - I guess it is better than the Cheetos I would love to be eating right now. MMmm Cheetos.

here we go I know, the LB sizes drive me nutty! I am a red 3 and I think that is a 18/20...I am not sure. But GREAT JOB with the weight loss and getting into a smaller size! You go girl!

iconised ghost I totally understand about the little things stressing you out. I can get into the bad habit of stressing out about every little thing - but oddly enough if I am eating healthy and taking care of myself the little things seem to get smaller.

bellaI know, it's kind bad about how much I can drink at one time but one thing I never do is drive. Ever. It was a bad choice to drink and not eat, though. I won't do that again. Great job on taking 1/2 of your food home! I can never seem to do that!

[Taylor86]

Ever just felt like you need to buckle down? Yeah, I am there. I just need to put my game face on and go for this. I have been fiddling with this for too long - I am gonna get serious.

[artsnsmarts]

Taylor -- It's good to not wear all black for an audition!! Soooo many people wear all black to auditions and it just makes you forgettable! ALSO -- my biggest piece of advice is to wear memorable shoes!! Think about it...everyone behind the table needs a place to look and in order to avoid awkwardness, a lot of times they'll look at your shoes!! I've gotten callbacks JUST BECAUSE my wearing not-normal shoes has sparked a conversation. I know it sounds ridiculous, but it's true!!

AND I AM TOTALLY WITH YOU ON FEELING LIKE I NEED TO BUCKLE DOWN!! Let's doing a Taylor/Arts joint buckle down starting immediately tomorrow morning!! (I just say that since I'm not planning on eating anything else tonight...) Sound like a plan?

[i am still trying]

taylor- I had that feeling a month ago, and so far not bad for me. a little slip here and there, but I really did get serious.

Is the Hungry Girl Cookbook in chapters?I might buy it, sounds good.

I have the Looney Spoons Cookbook which is the best cookbook EVER for low fat delicious recipies. Maybe it's a Canadian thing? Because it's pretty popular here and they actually have made at least one more of thier cookbooks. I for sure recommend Looney Spoons. I like using the recipies for get togethers so that I know I am bringing something Yummy but healthy too.

[Taylor86]

arts Totally sounds like a plan to me! Buckle down is a total go! Yeah, I love my black clothes but since I am going for a prostitute I thought a lacy blouse under my black button up would look good. Shoes? I have zerba ones from Ann Taylor that might work but they are 4 inch heels....I will think about it. And I always wear the same thing to the call back so they know who I am. GO BUCKLE DOWN!

I am still tryingThe HG cookbook is in chapters and it so much fun to read! Yeah something just clicked for me. Even though I have been staying within my calories my choices still could be better....and no more "bites" of the boyfriends stuff!

[Iconised Ghost]

Originally Posted by Taylor86

iconised ghost I totally understand about the little things stressing you out. I can get into the bad habit of stressing out about every little thing - but oddly enough if I am eating healthy and taking care of myself the little things seem to get smaller.

Yes, on days where i work out everything else seems to just fall into place easier. I have no idea why, you would think that adding another thing into your day would make the other things worse good luck with your audition!

[i am still trying]

I hear you about the 'bites' of the boyfriends food. i do that ALL the time!! And then it's really hard to count those calories because I'm sure exactly how much I ate etc...

Is anyone exercising today? Need some motivation. It's super rainy here and so I could do a DVD I have, kickboxing....