Counsler tomorrow!!
Well, I like Jenelle am seeking advice from a professional. I have an appointment at 5:00 with her tomorrow. Im a little nervous, but this clinic is suppose to specialize in eating disorders etc.
I have also bought the Dr. Phil book for some insperation. He can get annoying sometimes but Im not that far into the book and it seems to make alot of sense. Im the reason Im fat, Not my genes, not my work, Im the reason. I have control over everything I put in my mouth. I just always choose the wrong things. Once I begin to like myself, he says that things will start to happen. This is true and always has been true. I overeat because Im stressed, bored, happy, sad, and anything else. So I just need to take control and do something instead. Im happy, why do I have to grab the Ben and Jerry. Why cant I call a friend and tell her why? Im sad, why cant I call a friend or take a walk or go to the mall, that always cheers me up. Bored, come on!!! I can find 3 hours to watch the food network, but I cant seem to make time for the gym. Something is definetly wrong with this picture.
My friend had the gastric bypass done and has gotten to a size 18 from a 32. She gave me some clothes today and I cringed when I seen the 20's. They are so darn cute compared to the stuff Im wearing now. I dont know if you find this true but have ya noticed that the bigger stores like Fashion Bug plus are selling clothes that should be on thin people on the plus side. Come on people, I understand if you have great confidence about yourself, but you couldnt catch me dead in a sleeveless, mid drift length top that is form fitting that a soap star would wear. Give me the long cotton ones that hide my tire. And the jeans, I havent had a pair of them on in years. I hated the mark it left around my waist digging into my rolls. I know I should of bought a bigger size, but another thing, they think that all large people have big legs, so when I get bigger size pants the legs get bigger. Im a stomach girl. All Apple, so my legs are smaller.
Anyway, I got off on a tangent. Im really going to focus on what Im putting in my body. If I have to think about it, I just wont do it. He gives a list of food that you should be eating, we all know that, and if your like me everything on the dont eat list is my diet.
So I will see how it goes tomorrow. I will let you guys know. I think I really need to do this for myself.
Terri
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