H'lo everyone. I thought I would try coming back to visit for a while in hopes of picking up on your good moods. I've been wallowing, and it has been difficult to come here and read about your perky progresses....And all that optimism! Yowza! You see, my vision has been getting worse, and I've been frightened out of my mind. I'm ok for now...I can drive, cook, clean, get my job done and lots of other things done with varying degrees of success and faking it, but reading is becoming increasingly difficult. I dare not talk about it at work. I keep things to myself. There are times I want to bawl like a baby. But I don't. I'm trying to stay busy and not feel sorry for myself, and with teenagers in the house, there's distracting drama daily, so that helps. (What am I saying???? That doesn't help at all!!) I have to admit, it's difficult to stay away from the self pity party.
Anyway, I've been keeping to a good diet, but not counting calories. And it doesn't take much for me to gain. Maybe if I come back here regularly I will see that this is one area of my health/life that I can control and I will get some empowerment out of that. (And I really don't care if that sounds like the anorexia mantra.)
Sorry to be such a downer ladies. You are all doing so well. I hope I can find some way to crawl back onto this trail and join you in the march to thin-ness.
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Oh well, maybe I can literally freeze my butt off :P
