wow jamisue congrats!!!! that's so awesome--hate to see you leave though, i enjoy your posts! hopefully i'll see you int 250's thread soon. i'd say you just go over there and accept that you are officially in the 250's!!! how exciting!
and thanks for your kind words...yes, im over my binge. it's just frustrating that food has such an emotional tie for me. i really want to break my emotional dependency on it
DCchick - I know what you mean. I'm totally an emotional eater. Half the time I do it, I don't even realize I'm doing it. I certainly rarely enjoy it.. and I usually feel guilty and physically sick afterward. The hardest part for me is letting it go. It's always been difficult for me to let go of my mistakes and move on, but this journey is teaching me every day that one slip up doesn't have to mean failure. I still struggle with forgiving myself and I still struggle with guilt, but I'm getting better at not letting one mistake ruin everything I've worked hard for.
You have an advantage in that you recognize the slip up and are seeking support for it both here and with personal help. There is always someone else's strength to lean on when we struggle, and that will get you through whatever rough time you might be having. Today is a new day and today you can make positive progress.
aww thanks sabrina--that was a really sweet post. yeah, i think it would have been alot harder to get over my binge if i had gained or stayed the same weight this week, but since i had a loss, it was a little easier. i just want to make sure this doesnt trigger a cycle of binging/purging. for me, the purging is a way to justify the purging..it's not that i feel full and disgusting afterwards that makes/made me purge...i went into the binge knowing i would purge, which is/was my way of 'justifying' purges. like 'it wont count anyway' so may as well get the pleasure out of it
Thanks for all the congrats ladies! I'm going to be sticking around for a bit. My "official" WI isn't until Friday and TOM is right around the corner so I might bounce back outta here just a teensie bit.
I hate out for lunch today but chose a salad and only ate about 1/4 of what they gave me and got my dressing on the side. Geez that salad was large. I'm sure it had plenty of sodium too so I'm chugging that water today for sure!
DCchick -- Glad your feeling better today. More for you. I've been thinkin' boutcha today.
OMG. I am having some SERIOUS cravings right now... Its like not even funny. I don't even know what I am craving I just want to eat and eat and eat. I like...can't even drink my water fast enough. I think I have had 4 or 5 16 oz glasses in the last hr. I know I am not hungry. I just am CRAVING and like dying of thirst. Darn body.
I seem to be stuck again and I'm not sure if it's water weight from TOM or what, honestly. I've been almost perfect on plan food wise. I've exercised every single day, but this weight is being stubborn and not moving. I want to say it's just temporary TOM weight, but I have a nagging feeling it's more than that.. and I get so frustrated when I'm doing the right things and not seeing the result. I know I am being impatient. I know it doesn't happen over night. But I'm having a particularly bad "coping" week this week. Usually, I'm able to just put my head down and plow forward, but this week I'm distracted by everything and don't feel like I've been focusing on the goal.
I told myself that I wasn't going to let the pressure get to me and I was just going to take it one day at a time. I was going to just do my best and whatever happens, happens. But it's not playing out that way. I'm frustrated and I'm distracted and I'm obsessing and I'm unfocused and I'm dangerously close to a pity party.
Sabrina -- E. Nuf! Okay, now that we got that out of the way...let's dig into this a bit. I hear that you're exercising everyday. AWESOME! I hear that you're "almost" perfectly on plan for food. Can you quantify was the "almost" part is? Depending on where or how you're slipping, it very well could be sodium. I'm hoping that if you did into the "almost", maybe you'll find your answer? OR...Maybe do something completely different for a few days. Do a completely different kind of exercise maybe? I've often heard that doing that can jump start your metabolism out of it's plateau.
Other than that, I think there are just times when you HAVE to fake it 'til you make it. You HAVE to suck it up because...what's the alternative?
I'm not religious (so excuse the website tone) but there's a fabulous story about a female swimmer, Florence Chadwick, that might give you some inspiration. I think this plateau is to you what the fog was to Florence. Choose to let the stalemate urge you on rather than doom you to failure.
Jami - When I say "almost", for me it's staying under 2,000 a day. In the last 2 weeks I've gone over 2,000 I would say 3 or 4 times. Each time I went over it was by less than 100 calories, and each time it was because I indulged in some kind of afternoon snack, which I know is my downfall mostly because I tend to lose focus in the afternoon and spend about 2 hours trying to force myself to stay on track. Most days I can manage it. I'll distract myself or I will change the scenery or I will work on a different project to force my brain to stay busy so I don't struggle so hard to stay on plan. But when I'm feeling de-railed I end up giving in mostly out of boredom (which is awful especially when I'm at work!) and end up eating something because it's there.. not because I'm actually hungry.
The bad behavior of letting myself give in to old habits is where my downfall is, more so than the snack I have chosen on any given day. It's forcing myself to stay in the mindset of healthy habits where I'm coming up short more than anything else. To be so strong some days and then to be a total spaz on other days is just frustrating.
This week has felt like a constant struggle with myself to do anything remotely functional. I'm on auto pilot right now. While the majority of my auto pilot behaviors are still the right ones... I know that I'm not putting 100% into it, which is probably why the stalemate.
I know "fake it til you make it" can still be effective, because even if I'm only half-assing it, I'm still doing something rather than nothing... but I also know that I get out what I put in. It's the vicious cycle of going through the motions, which is yielding little to no results, which makes me depressed, so I just go through the motions.....
Bleh... I need a kick in the pants.
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Go Jami! 
Down 1.1 this morning to 258.6! Ya freaking hoo!! 
Okay, now that we got that out of the way...let's dig into this a bit. I hear that you're exercising everyday. AWESOME! I hear that you're "almost" perfectly on plan for food. Can you quantify was the "almost" part is? Depending on where or how you're slipping, it very well could be sodium. I'm hoping that if you did into the "almost", maybe you'll find your answer? OR...Maybe do something completely different for a few days. Do a completely different kind of exercise maybe? I've often heard that doing that can jump start your metabolism out of it's plateau.