Aimee: Congrats on your 16!!!!
Cita: Congrats! That counts in my book...ticker worthy!!!
Kukkie: Well......this is how I am below ...a mess!!! lol......
Just venting here....need to babble...have no one else who will understand really. I'm ok but frustrated. Not just at TOM or the situation but with myself too. The past 3 days its taken
everything in me to even eat as much as 600 calories a day ((I know...BAD... I agree with you & I feel like Im a baby force feeding myself))...during TOM...I noticed last month too... I find it very hard to have
any appetite. I dont get it...it's like..
wheres my appetite??? 8 months ago I ate everything under the sun during TOM & now I have no appetite when it comes??? Today I'm
forcing myself back to 1200 ....I know its affecting me big time... my mindset is feeling cruddy...I feel cruddy & I wont allow myself to feel as bad as yesterday for another day. The constipation issue is lessening..the ex lax helped with that....but this water retention & lack of appetite is just driving me up the wall. Im on Diurex & chugging 1/2 my weight in oz with fresh lemon....drinking so much water that I bet if you poke a hole in my skull, water will come madly spurting out like a community water fountain.
Last night was ****...I had no energy last night...
none... but I
did push myself with everything I had in me to do 10 wimpy minutes on the elliptical & did only 30 laps in the pool & just had to stop cause I felt sick to my stomach with a headache that was coming on. I came in from the pool at 11:30p & before my shower I made myself eat a Morning Star veggie patty...just had to get something in my system since the protein shake I forced down 20 minutes before the pool didnt stay put & I had to jump out of the water from getting sick.
Humpty Dumpty is putting herself back together again today....Im fed up!!! Ive tried hard to eat...I really have...I havent liked the way Ive felt at all.
I'm now up 3lbs at 247...which is fine...getting my cals back up & staying on my water pills...Im sure I'll be back at my ticker weight by the weekend. Will be back at the pool tonight with the proper cals & nutrition in my body. My head is still a bit of a mess....but one thing I cant figure out is I want to eat more so bad......& people limit themselves like this on nutrition & cals
on purpose???? Screw that!!! No way!!!! They can have it....geesh.
UHG. Just UHG. K...my rant is done. Sorry to burden you with it...just needed to get it out.
Congrats on all losses!!