It's only food!!! I need it to live, not to be happy!
This is my new motto... I'm beginning a quest to lose weight (yet again) I'm doing it for a different reason this time, so maybe I'll have more motivation.
Since I started working in December, I've been a little miserable. I was ok, until they changed my uniform from slacks to a skirt which in itself isn't bad but they made me wear Pantyhose!!! (Gag) The first night I worked in my new uniform (Valentine's Day) I got friction sores on the insides of my thighs.... By the end of the night, I could hardly walk and was in tears. It hurt so bad... when I got home... my Panty hose were stuck to my thighs and the sores were bleeding. It took a few days for them to heal but it was OK... I switched from wearing Panty hose to knee highs (my skirt is halfway between my knee and ankles) and wearing shorts under my skirt. It was a good fix for the thigh friction... and cured the problem.
I started having a new problem.... the bottom of my belly rubs the top of my thigh (well, right in my bikini area) when I walk. I don't weigh any more now than I did before, but all of the suddenly it's become a chronic problem... I had red moist weeping sores on the bottom of my belly and my bikini area.... it hurt SO bad and I'm disgusted with myself. I asked the pharmacist what I could use and he recommended Gold Bond powder (for the sore) and a diet. Now, don't worry... he wasn't rude about it and he didn't hurt my feelings or anything... but he pointed out until I lose the weight... this will be a chronic problem forever. The powder worked and the sores are almost gone... but the thought of them coming back is still there.
Anyway.... I'm here to find support from those who have been ther. I get lots of support from friends and family... but they don't know what I'm going through. It's very hard to change everything about your lifestyle all at once. I started last Monday and it's been ok... I'm trying that Metabolife stuff... it's given me a lot of energy that I didn't have before but not really curbing my appetite. I weighed in last Monday at 230 pounds, the recommended weight for my height is 130, so that's what I'm going for.... 100 pounds :::::sigh::::: It really feels like A LOT! But I can do anything... right?
I'm only allowing myself to get on the scale once a week... This Monday I was 218... I realize that most of that 12 pounds is water weight.. .but it really did seem like a lot. I've never lost that much when I started a diet (usually 5-7 pounds in the first week) Who knows.. .maybe I was bloated when I weighed for the first time. What is your opinion on how much is TOO much to lose in a week? My goal is 2 pounds a week. If I keep losing more... should I increase my calories? Stop taking the Metabolite?
I look forward to getting to know you all....
Thanks for listening!
P.S. I'm new to this kind of message board... is there a "manual" anywhere to explain it? and I noticed some of you have your picture by your messages... how do I do that??? THanks


Hope you're feeling better now....


