I wish I could! I am getting better. I took too many days off, so now starting over..BUT it is easier. YAY.
I am trying currently not to have a full on set back. I got a letter from my doctor yesterday regarding some test results. About a month ago I had my regular bloodwork/lady check and I did not hear back. No news is good news right? That is how it has always been. Anyway, I got this letter saying that they had been trying to get ahold of me (lie) regarding these test results. So I called and the only thing the girl could tell me is that there was some results on one or more of the tests that was "abnormal" and my doc wanted to see me to discuss them. Not give me a call tomorrow or whenever she was in next, but actually have an appointment.
I am telling myself that it is just my blood sugar acting up again, and that the reason she wants to see me is so that she can bill my insurance for another office visit and collect my copay. But the truth is that I am really nervous. Three of my grandparents and one of my parents had or currently have cancer, and I had a cervical cancer scare 16-17 years ago.
This is not good. BUT, I have decided to just go about my day until Friday (appointment day) still go to the gym daily, still focus on my diet and health and not let this whole thing throw me into a tailspin. If for no other reason than if I do get the worst news, I will need to be as strong and as physically healthy as possible to deal
Sorry for the purge. Everyone have a great day
I HATE it when they won't just tell you, and make you wait for an appointment. Definitely try to keep your mind off of it. I always tell myself that worrying never helped anybody.
