i'm totally fine with my muscle getting as big as it wants. i just want to SEE the muscle. aside from being in a bathing suit (which hasn't happened in a really loong time) muscle on my arms is a passing thought. i do push ups or lifting with my arms rarely. i can feel the muscle, my arms have shrank considerably. i really just don't care that much about my arms. once i put on a t-shirt i look fine.
legs on the other hand. that's all i ever post about. all the workouts are focused on legs and cardio. i want to see muscle when i where shorts. i want to be proud to wear shorts this summer. and darnit it's going to happen. real shorts, not those darn burmudas because i hate my knees.
i'll never have that dancer's body. totally at piece with that. i just want to look fit

and i'm on my way