Ok tomorrow I'm officially getting back on the weight loss wagon!!
I had a binge today, felt sick enough to not want to do it in a while and I think I've given myself enough time to have a pity party, time to suck it up and get out of the 170s!!! I was 173 today and felt so depressed, I could feel it too which was awful, but I'm done.
GET IT TOGETHER HHM6!!!!
Hope to be an "official" member soon!
And rubidoux-my binge today was from attempting to fast, might stick with Dukan until I can fast for more than 3 hrs lol (awful I know!!)
Aww, I'm sorry you're stuck. How long did you fast before it went all bad? For me fasting was a natural progression from eating high fat, like I was eating a really high fat diet and realized that I just didn't need to eat very often and at first went more off just eating when hungry rather than trying to only eat at particular times, yk? So I didn't have that head trip of "you can't eat now!" which I would think could do one in. Even when I've done my longer fasts, it's been more like I realize near dinner time that I'm just not that hungry so I don't eat. It's not like I wake up in the morning thinking I'm not going to eat until tomorrow. I think that would be really hard. But like I've said before, I can't imagine doing this without eating a very high proportion of fat.
Anyway, if Dukan has worked for you up till now, I think that's a good idea and will get you back in the game.
I'm at 163.2, which is technically a new low for me, but since I've been at 164.4 for 7 days (w some irritating little bumps up, of course), it's not very satisfying. I'm ready to move...
Ugh, I had the absolute worse stomach illness I've ever experienced Wednesday night. Thinking it must have been food poisoning because it came on so suddenly and was so violent. I'll skip the gory details (believe me, you don't want to hear them), but the upside is I'm down to 167.8. I'm not sure it will stick, but I'm hoping it does. I would never in a million years wish anyone to go through what I did (I actually blacked out for the first time in my life), but maybe it got me off of my plateau. I know one thing for sure, I will never eat ground turkey again!!
Oh man, that sucks, Jennifer! I hope it sticks, though. I have had that happen twice since starting my WL journey and once it stuck and once it didn't.
I am totally feeling sorry for myself here. And I feel like a big idiot about it. I wish I could say I was premenstrual or something, but that's not it. I am just not bouncing back from this crappy news I got yesterday. I had a b*tch of an ear infection mother's day weekend. Like it was totally debilitating for days and I felt like I was going to die. I went to urgent care and then followup with GP two weeks later. Both of them told me that the hearing loss I had in that ear was not permanent and would totally resolve. And I believed them bc I had never heard of an adult losing hearing from an ear infection. So, then yesterday I go to the ear, nose, throat specialist and she tells me that in fact it probably is permanent (20% loss in my right ear, not the end of the world, but it is fairly significant in terms of how its affecting me), but it would not have been if I had come in when it first started. Can you freaking believe that??? So, I kinda felt after that yesterday like I had a good excuse for a binge. But I didn't do it.
Then this morning when I woke up my b/s was only 28 which is pretty much off the charts low. I should really, really have had my skittles, but my husband was having some greek yogurt with fresh blueberries, which looked so healthy and yummy and why not, right? How could it be that skittles would be healthier for me than that??? So, I made some for myself, added a few strawberries, inhaled it, and then dug into my kids' cookies, and pretzels, and ate the last 10 "round crackers" with hummus. And in the last couple of hours I've grabbed three pretzels every time I walk through the kitchen. I believe this is the first time I've had any grain at all in something like six weeks and first time for gluten in even longer. And then to make things worse we have a party to go to tonight and another one tomorrow. I am thinking I'm just gonna do whatever I want tonight. There's maybe a 5% chance that I'll decide to try to get back to plan, much more likely I'll see the food and want some. But I don't want to stay off plan tomorrow just because of this party. I almost wish I could skip it but my kids are really looking forward to it. Sigh...
This is where my thinking is messed up... but I really, truly can't see where I'm wrong, please tell me!!! If I go off plan for half a day, I will gain 4 pounds. If I go off plan for two full days, I will probably gain 5 pounds. Doesn't it seem like I get more bang for my buck if I stay off for a couple of days???
Rubidoux: First for all you've gone through! Hoping the hearing loss is only temporary, and good job on not binging after getting possibly bad news. I'm sorry your BS dipped so low. I understand the eating after that! You are doing too well to go crazy at the parties, but if you lose a little control, you know you can get right back on plan! It has been major graduation party season here, and I've been to 12+ over the last few weeks, and I've made some poor choices. I'm not beating myself up about it though because I know things happen in life and sometimes I splurge. I want my weight loss plan to be truly something I can live with (or I will gain everything back [I]again [I]), so I know that has to include times of overindulgence. What I have found though, is even when I indulge, it is not to the same extent as it would have been before I started this journey. So I guess I'm saying that whatever choices you make at your parties, don't be too harsh on yourself. You will rebound and lose again!
Thanks, Jennifer! Your post makes me feel better bc I have been thinking some of those same things, but not sure if it was my usual disordered thinking about food or if I could rely on it. I actually have been totally off my plan all day yesterday and all day today. Yikes! But, like you said, it was nowhere near as bad as I would have been just on an average day before starting this journey.
It's the first time I've been off for more than one day since december, so that's kind of scary, but I do think I need to be able to navigate scary situations if this is gonna be a lifelong thing.
I think I'll be able to get back on plan tomorrow. I really want it and I think I kind of need it, even beyond the weight loss issue. I'm feeling kind of anxious about things in general and feeling out of control of my eating will (and maybe has) make that ten times worse.
I haven't weighed myself. I'll be a little scared to see what the damage is tomorrow. I do hope I'll still be under 170. Even if I only go off for one meal, I gain four pounds, but I think it's mostly water. Sigh...
Aww, Rubidoux...sending lots of love and support your way. Sorry I didn't read that earlier but I am glad Jennifer was there to make you feel better! And no matter what those numbers say, you will still be a 160's chick- that never changes even with a tonne of salt!!
I've been avoiding 3FC a bit because it's day 22 of my stall. lol I am still here though, I promise!
I was up to 168.6 today, so I think I am officially rehydrated from being so sick! I am hoping to lose 1.5-2 pounds this week, so I'm going to try to stay on plan every day.
Thanks, amandie! I am doing okay. I'm back on and I feel pretty solid in it. Phew! I get all insecure feeling now when I'm not eating on plan, so scared I won't get back to it, yk? But it's all good, I think. I was 167.6 this morning, which is fine, about 4.5 pounds. I'm crossing my fingers, though, that it doesn't go up a bit more tomorrow morning. Sometimes when I eat off plan, the weight doesn't show up till two mornings later.
So, today I went in to get that steroid shot in my eardrum (kinda unpleasant but not terribly painful) and you will never guess... I tell the doc that I feel like there's something going on besides the nerve damage that they measured bc it's like I can hear something moving around in there, like you do when your ears are really popping on an airplane. I thought it seemed like fluid in there. So I was hoping it would turn out that some of my loss of hearing was not nerve damage, which is the bad kind. And she says, "well, there is this thing that can happen when you lose a lot of weight pretty quickly..." Good grief! What are the freaking odds that my weight loss would cause me hearing loss at the same exact time that I have nerve damage happen in my ear??? In a way it is good news. I do have a 20% loss of hearing in that ear due to nerve damage, but I may also have this thing due to weight loss which will probably get better. So... what I'm feeling now is probably more than 20% and I will get better up to that point, if that makes sense. But really... has anyone ever heard of weight loss related hearing loss? Gah!
And, amandie, that has to be water. That's just too much of a leap for anything else.
NorthernChick and Jennifer... woot! I hope it's a trend for you guys!
This morning I was 170.7, that is amazing because I know if I had woken up and waited around before working out-the door, I could have been still at my weigh in from Sunday. I usually lose a pound from merely...waking up, post pee. It is uneven!
I trust you guys have a wonderful day on strategy!!!
Angelic and Patrice: You guys are breathing down the neck of the 160s! I know it will happen very soon.
I was at 167.6 this morning, which is a pound down from yesterday. I get nervous when I lose a pound in a day because it so rarely sticks. It's TOM though, so maybe this one is different!
And then to make things worse we have a party to go to tonight and another one tomorrow. 
for all you've gone through! Hoping the hearing loss is only temporary, and good job on not binging after getting possibly bad news. I'm sorry your BS dipped so low. I understand the eating after that! You are doing too well to go crazy at the parties, but if you lose a little control, you know you can get right back on plan! It has been major graduation party season here, and I've been to 12+ over the last few weeks, and I've made some poor choices. I'm not beating myself up about it though because I know things happen in life and sometimes I splurge. I want my weight loss plan to be truly something I can live with (or I will gain everything back [I]again [I]), so I know that has to include times of overindulgence. What I have found though, is even when I indulge, it is not to the same extent as it would have been before I started this journey. So I guess I'm saying that whatever choices you make at your parties, don't be too harsh on yourself. You will rebound and lose again!
Your post makes me feel better bc I have been thinking some of those same things, but not sure if it was my usual disordered thinking about food or if I could rely on it. I actually have been totally off my plan all day yesterday and all day today. Yikes! But, like you said, it was nowhere near as bad as I would have been just on an average day before starting this journey. 
Even if I only go off for one meal, I gain four pounds, but I think it's mostly water. Sigh...
on staying under 170! But you can always lose that again and more!
