[ravenousblue]

Hi everyone. I have stuggled with my weight for most of my life and realized now that binge eating started for me as a child. Growing up I was always tall for my age and I developed early - I was active and thick but not really fat.
I was made fun of in elementary school for being "fat" (which the baby fat would have gone away if I just lived my life) so by junior high I starved my way down 40 lbs by living on salad, mustard packets, diet soda, and gum.

When I ate that way I was exhausted and dizzy so the weight came back pretty fast. I never had a great relationship with food. My highest was 285. At that point in my life I was in my early 20's and didn't have alot of responsbility to deal with so losing weight was my number one goal. I got hypnosis therapy and over 1 year lost 100 lbs. Over 5 years time took me to get back to 240. I have since got myself down to 215-220 over the last two years. I still enjoy healthy foods and exercise enough to keep my heart healthy.
I actually started running and was up to 3 miles but started having back issues and have been resting the last few days but the realization is that I love to workout but that won't cut it. I need to get my eating under control. I eat healthy foods but I also eat junk and tend to binge on that. I recently realize now that I eat when I am sad, bored, stressed and I don't really understand when I am truly hungry and when I am truly full.

I am going to continue to workout but I may scale back because I tend to over do it. I have tried hypnosis again but it hasn't had the same affect probably because I am just not as urgently motivated as I was at 285 plus I am now caught up in adult life of miserable job, money issues, job hunting, regret.. blah blah


so with that - I am going to weight watchers tomorrow. I went over 10 years ago and lost 20 lbs - it does work and it is a healthy method. I hope it will be the support I need to gain control over my portion and triggers. I used to think the meetings were silly but I think I will appreciate them more now.
Wish me luck

[Fashion Nelle]

i feel your pain blue. I also have been on a roller coaster ride with my weight forever. i am currently at the heaviest i have been in my life and scared of getting any bigger. It has gotten so much harder now to lose the weight no I am older and also its affecting my mental state of mind. I am so fed up but at the same time i am at a loss for help. I have started..again..attempting to lose weight and currently doing the Fat smash diet which is really hard right now. I have been thinking about doing weight watchers but i just have spent so much money on diets that I am doubtful...i wish you luck and hopefully it will stick this time for both of us.

[DiBaskin]

Hi, I can't say I have had a weight problem all my life but I have been struggling with being over-weight for the past 10 years. It seems every year I start out doing well and within a few months I fall off and give up. I am just cutting back and trying to exercise more. I don't like the diets that make you cook and eat because I rarely cook. Buying all the ingredients can be expensive. I do buy the prepared meals a lot. I eat a lot of chicken and fish with vegetables. They all come prepared and ready to microwave or boil. I find that I want instant results and I think that is my problem. When I don't lose what I think I should as fast as I want, I give up and say it is useless. I read on these boards where someone said about setting goals. Perhaps we need to set reasonable goals like the person said one pound a week is better then nothing and it isn't as restrictive. I am thinking we have to find what works for us and do it. Perhaps have a rewards day where you can have a special treat but don't over do it. I was doing the Kaiser three day diet and it did work for me but got boring. You eat certain foods on the diet for three days then the rest of the week you eat normal. I did lose on that one and I didn't feel as restricted because I knew four days a week I could eat normal. This site is very helpful for me. I came here a couple years ago that was the year I had the most success. When I stopped coming because of things that happened in my life I went off and gained it all back. I am happy to find people on here I can relate to. I hope you keep posting because it makes me feel better to know I am not alone.