Okay, I'm starting to get worried about myself. I KNOW that if I can't eat something, then I won't lose weight. More importantly, I know that if I don't eat, I won't be able to function.

But I just can't seem to. I don't know what's wrong with me and I don't know what to do at this point.

Possible reasons: I'm on wellbutrin, which could cause a bit of lack of appitite; I'm on very low carbs (which happen to be my favorite food group); and I still haven't put myself back together after a TERRIBLE breakup in September.

I just don't feel like any of these could cause *complete* lack of appitite, which is what I have. I have just admitted to myself that for about the last year (maybe longer) I've make excuses not to eat, I don't go to the grocery store (justified by my full time student finances), and I tell people I've already eaten so I won't have to deal with it.

I'm 180 lbs, with PCOS - so it's not like I'm wasting away or anything. The PCOS has kept the weight on. I'm worried and scared now and I don't feel like I can tell anyone.

What should I do? It's like I just....*can't.*

I would definitely consider seeing someone about not having an appetite. I understand that you may have several reason as to why you may not eat-- but the desire of not wanting to eat comes from a source. Have you seen your doctor about this?

I haven't told a doctor - or anyone. I don't look like someone that doesn't eat. The first thing out of any doctor's/trainer's/nutritionist's mouth is how I should be eating less. When I was younger, and actually ate very sensibly, I was actually fired by a trainer who thought I was lying about my diet. A doctor once told me I was in denial about my own bad choices.

I guess now that I'm trying to lose weight, I'm just now being aware of what I put in my body....and realizing that it's nothing.

What kind of doctor should I go to for this?

Not eating slows your metabolism and you don't lose weight. Go and see your GP and talk to them. The wellbutrin may not be what you need to be on...maybe another antidepressant...? I know there are lots of days when I just don't want to eat, am too busy, not hungry, etc. If I catch myself pulling that stunt, I have to make a list or schedule and make myself eat something knowing that it will be worth it later. An egg here, a cheese stick there...just something. Good luck with this, I know it's a drag!

I know this might sound silly, but try looking at this FreeMD website. I googled "loss of appetite doctor to see" and go it as a result. It ask you a few questions and give you advice. Hopefully it will help

http://www.freemd.com/loss-of-appeti...ual-doctor.htm

I'm not sure if this would be helpful or not, but could you at least have a smoothie? There are so many different options out there for smoothies.

I once broke up with my boyfriend (my husband now) and I was so devastated that I completely lost my appetite. I tried to eat but just couldn't. These days, I joke with him that he should pretend to leave me so that I could get that back! I know it's not a funny experience though because we need food to survive and thrive.

I do think you should talk to the doctor who Rx the Wellbutrin. Even though you're not "wasting away," your body is not getting proper nutrition which is not healthy.

I'm sure you'll figure this out soon.

Thank you so much for your suggestions. I'm on Christmas break right now, so I may go into a doctor and try to explain it all. I wish they understood PCOS better.

The smoothie idea was good! I might look on Amazon for a low carb kind of shake.

I've heard great things about Spirutein. I just bought the chocolate flavor today. I'm going to make it with almond milk and a banana and some ice.

Update!

I've been trying Isopure Low Carb Chocolate protein shake. Low in fat, calories, and carbs, but it's got 50 grams of protein per mixup! Also - the special thing about Isopure is that there's an equivilent of a multivitamin in each shake.

It's delicious in the morning - and doesn't seem to gross me out like eating first thing does.

I've pledged to eat as much as possible, but fill in any "missing" meals with a shake. Here's hoping I'm on my way to being healthier!

Thank you again for the support - I was feeling really low. You all are amazing.