I feel so low and hate what I have done to myself lately. Over eating binging and totally spiralling out of control. All my hard work and focus undone so now my work trousers cut me in half. My gym gear is so tight.
So I have to regroup and take these steps back to and today I went to spin class. I need to not look back, that is only hurting. I need to not look too far forward either and just live right now, making small baby steps that at positive. Eat right, live right and breathe.
I feel like I am in a big pit and need to claw out one little bit at a time.
I don't know why I am writing this but I hope I will feel better soon but I think it's going to take time I guess the first few days of recovery are the worst!
to you! It sounds like you are definitely ready! You are so right - baby steps are so important - before you know it huge changes have been made. Sometimes it is all about the moment for me - I don't know who wrote this on this board, I read it somewhere and I chant it to myself at trying times: "Wait. Breathe. It all counts." I find it very soothing and reminds me of my goals.
Thank you! I can see a little glimmer of light. E.g I went to spin class and almost quit 5 mins in but I stayed and finished, sure I might have worked harder but I didn't get off the bike and walk. That's a small victory. I need to keep making small wins! One step, one foot at a time. I know this self loathing is going to evaporate with each small victory.
Good job on sticking it out and finishing the class! That first workout is tough to finish. It feels like it's never going to end! But afterwards you feel great and the next class will be semi more enjoyable.
Baby steps are very important! We get so caught up in the past, or the future and our goals that we can get frustrated with how much time it may take and feel discouraged.
Self loathing and trying to be positive
to you! It sounds like you are definitely ready! You are so right - baby steps are so important - before you know it huge changes have been made. Sometimes it is all about the moment for me - I don't know who wrote this on this board, I read it somewhere and I chant it to myself at trying times: "Wait. Breathe. It all counts." I find it very soothing and reminds me of my goals.
That first workout is tough to finish. It feels like it's never going to end! But afterwards you feel great and the next class will be semi more enjoyable. 
