I had my moment today inside the dressing room, the moment I realized, that I'm actually losing weight. I'm actually doing this. And it felt amazing.
I cant even believe it. It's like, how am I so lucky that this is actually working? I've never been lucky in the past, why now? Its all just so surreal. I'm not the person who can commit to somthing, or commit to somthing and actually have it work. Especially somthing like dieting. I guess since I'm not looking it as a diet, but more of a healthy lifestyle, has helped a little.
Only a few months ago, I was a size 24. 5'4 274lb was my all time high. I walked into Lane Bryant today weighing 216, and saw the cutest outfit in the world. I thought this is so cute, but it will never fit me. A size 18, it fit and it looked great! And I just have to say, my a** looked amazing lol. I have never felt so confident about my butt.
I just could not believe it, and still do not believe this is all happening. For the longest time, I was in denial that I was losing any weight. I guess out of fear that I was succeeding. I saw the number on the scale go down, but in my mind and my heart I was still that 275lb girl, and I felt I still looked it.
I'm so happy that I'm finally realising that I'm doing this, I dont know what it is but aparently it's working. And I'm pumped. It just gives me all the more motivation to keep on going.
Sorry for my rambles, I just had to share the excitment. I havnt felt this confident about my body in years.
Oh and aparently my boobs shrunk. Like can that happen? Honestly? I had read in places that it could happen, but I never would have actually believed it. I went from a 42DD to a 40D! I have never in my life been a D. Not that I remember at least. It's kind of sad really, I loved my DD's lol. But I don't care, it's worth it for my health and losing weight.