Yay for you!! You are awesome!!
Your post really resonated with me. One some levels, absolutely I believe I've lost 91.5 lbs in five and a half months. But on the deeper levels, I don't see it gone and I don't believe it. Part of me is walking around in a haze. And I'm afraid I'm going to wake up and realize I'm still 360 lbs. Because I was, just a few short months ago.
Part of my issue is, I just still have so, so much left to lose and I'm afraid of what it'll be like to get there. The smallest I ever was as an adult was a size 14. I have no idea what it's going to be like, or what I'm going to look like, any smaller than that.
I both can't wait and at the same time am terrified. 20, 18 and 16 are my old friends. I even know 14. But 12? What's that like? I have no idea. I can hardly even conceive of 10. Or 8. Or anything else.
I can't wait to feel amazed, like you. Congratulations again!!!
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