Thanks SusanB, you're totally right. I never knew that I effected people on here in a positive way. That's really awesome for me. Now that I know I'm giving a little bit of help to those who read my posts, it's like if I fail, I'm failing them. And if I won't do it for me, I certainly will not let them down~!
Today my back is a little bit better, not much though. I have to wait for my dad to come fix my moms van before making a doctors appointment. The buses in my city are on strike!!!! Right now the weather is really too cold for him to be outside trying to fix the van so we have to wait for a warmer day.
I KNEW THIS WAS GUNA ****ING HAPPEN. But I was trying to think positive. I was telling my aunt and mom what my menu was looking like for the week so they could get the foods and veggies... WELL my ****ing cheap aunt isn't getting the ****ing **** I put on the menu cuz it's not on sale. SHE SAID SHE WOULD DO WHATEVER TO HELP ME. Yeh anything that doesn't include a bit of money. I pay ****in 150 for food and she;s buying bull**** food ARGHHHHHHHHHHH.
Happy thoughts...... HAPPY THOUGHTS. I'm just going to the stuff thats in the house that's healthy. **** the menu, since there's no way of knowing what the **** I'll be able to eat. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPPPPPPY. Okay I'm okay.
I don't have much experience on the back issues, but I hope you feel better soon. Maybe try heating pads or an nsaid patch?
When I'm feeling down, it helps me to plan how I can accomplish what I want (like others said) but also by going back in my health journal and reading earlier entries to see how I felt when I first started in comparison to how I feel now. It cheers me up and motivates me to stick with it because although I might not feel different from day to day and although there may be a challenges from time to time...over months, the change can be amazing and uplifting. Good luck and hugs!
If you contribute 150 for food cant you just buy your own? Do any of the grocery stores up by you deliver? Down here in Jersey a lot of the stores do. shoprite.com, peapod.com...
Hmm, I didn't think of that. Delivery is an idea. I kind of just cried... a lot. I guess I over reacted because my mom said as soon as the van got fixed we would go shopping and I could buy my own food for me. AND I'm PMSing, I know its a horrible excuse to overreact and be irrational but hey... it happens. It's just that my aunt says she will do anything to help me out, and then totally does the opposite so I got all.... crazy and instead of blowin up to her I blew up on my keyboard.
I love online food shopping. It saved us from starvation after my surgerys. Plus you avoid all those *extra* items. You know the kind... the stuff that you dont want until you see it
Just thought you could use these. Hang in there hun. You can do this! Don't let anyone (your cheap aunt) make you feel like you can't. I know support is a huge help when dealing with weight loss, but know that even without that support YOU are strong enough to do it, to get past this rough patch and make your dream happen (this is what I tell myself every day as well - I have no support team here at home either - thank goodness for 3FC) Keep fighting! I'm with you!
Last edited by SweetCurves32; 01-17-2009 at 10:40 AM.
From a cold Northerner also, I am sending you a to hang in there, problems like the extreme cold hindering your ordinary travel is a big, big pain and frozen pipes are a pain also!!
Cheer up!
I don't have much experience on the back issues, but I hope you feel better soon. Maybe try heating pads or an nsaid patch?
