I think I will be thrifty no matter what I weigh LOL. My mother always says she has never seen anyone stretch a dollar the way I can. Today OP was right on! I just got dinner over and Odessa and Joshua are being reminded that if you aren't hungry for dinner, you aren't hungry for anything else either and it isn't going well for them. My house is still a mess, the kids are still a mess but I feel so much better already. I didn't drink enough water today but I will work on getting that back into my habit too. I just keep peeking at those gift cards. I told myself I couldn't use them until every pair of pants I own fall off which is where I was before I fell off plus about 10lbs. I guess it is good for me to lie in bed and have epiphanies(sp). I should take time for them more often.
Yes Scarlett, tomorrow is another day! I had gotten back on yesterday and then wound up blowing it but I got right back in today and today was successful. I think that is the difference between those who do lose their weight and those that don't. You just can't give up EVER.
Melissa
overwhelmed makes me want to sit in a corner, cover my head and cry.
and I have only about a 1/4 or less of what you deal with Melissa. but it seems like there's always dishes- there's always laundry and there's always SOMETHING to do.
Oh joy Theresa- to you for having to deal with MIL and SIL so soon after Christmas?
Melissa- have ya thought about crock pot meals?? or cook once eat twice meals?? i can't imagine the stress you go thru trying to get the kids to sit nad eat and feed Logan etc.. when my eldest lived here i at times made 3 different meals at dinner time - I had no idea what i was thinking then. of course there are still times where i wonder what in the heck am i doing??
Theresa- i used to be the same way years ago - when married to the ex -i never had to worry about the cost of things- i used to shop at high end stores but after being a single mom for a few years and marrying the second time for and just enough $$- i am such a penny pincher. I told hubby we really needed to shop at Super walmart or Super target. it does really save a lot of money- i am always amazed at the price differences. I will always be a penny pincher/coupon clipper- i enter every contest i can can't win if ya don't enter. - I keep saying if i could fit into smaller sizes i can shop at the outlet stores and save $$$
I weighed in today early a.m. no clothes and before breakfast- scale said 163.5 I think i will do a "test" this week to see if it stays like that or changes and chart it and do an average LOL then do a weekly weigh in.
Food was good today- water needs to get better. school needs to start soon!
the kids are bored and i am ready to pull out my hair. and then i do things like make hubby homemade apple crisp and homemade (yep ) whipped topping. I ate an apple and glared at him
Laura - it's so wonderful that you know you can get back OP and not let a bad day blow everything you've worked hard for go away. we are going to see the producers this weekend- i've heard it was awesome!
I really believe that this time of year emotionally and mentally challenges a person and trying to stay OP is hard enough without any extra baggage added.
think i'll go read a bit of Gone with the wind- Love that book!
Night all
Sandi
I did snag a bunch of WW crockpot meals and I think I am going to do that next shopping trip. If I can put it together in the morning, it will go much better for me and there is so much you can do with a crockpot. I got one, it has just been sitting in the cupboard-LOL. I just know that with all the kids I have to get smarter about things or I am going to have to change my name to Namu or check myself in to a place that has Thorozine on the menu.
Melissa
Back from the party, and I am exhausted. I actually made a bigger trip than expected: went by a friends house to give her some DVDs my kids no longer watch, then drove to Lincolnton, went to Belk and returned 2 shirts that SIL gave to hubby and he won't wear (got a whole $4 back ), went to Walmart and waited to meet someone from Freecycle who took 40 VHS tapes that the kids don't watch and I got sick of looking at, then went to the party, put up decorations and jumped out to surprise her, served food and drinks with a pounding headache, and then listened to Allie whine all the way home that she left her baby there and I would not go all the way back. where's my bed?
I am sitting down now to make a plan, set some goals, something. Just to think through how much time I have and what I can do to get going again. I just need to get my head straight on what I am trying to accomplish. I am not going to be under 200 by my birthday, that's 38 lbs. in like 6 weeks and I know I just can't do that. Look at my sig, that is the goal I've come up with for now, hope I can at least make that.
Melissa, be careful with the gift certificates, some expire after a short period and others the value can somehow go down if used too far after Christmas. My mom was telling me about this, I didn't know. Just make sure you don't wait too long, then they might not be any good! Maybe you can buy clothes in the next size down, or whatever size you'll be when you get to this point you'll want the new pants...then you can work your way into them? WOuld just hate it to go to waste.
Holy smokes girlie-you were busy busy busy! These are gift cards so they won't go down in value so that part is nice. I dug up the crockpot recipes and made the grocery list. I talked to Kate briefly tonight and she is going to be released either tomorrow or on the 30th. She got papers from cps that she lost custody of Logan so I have to call tomorrow and find out what is going on. She may go stay with maryann for couple days so David can't find her and I told her to call her caseworker and see if she can get placed somewhere. She still sounds panicky and I need to know what happens now with Logan since she doesn't have custody anymore. The saga moves on!
You have a good realistic goal for your birthday and just think how much more of a dance you can do if you pass that up?
Melissa
What do you mean so he can't find her? What is that guy doing out of jail? Geez, if he is walking free it says so much about our court system, they should not have let him go, why would they? I am rooting for her, and also for Logan to stay with you. Seems they would have contacted you about this, but my hopes and prayers are with you and the little man, I'm sure he's going to stay with you.
I don't have time to read and catch up on everything right now, just wanted to pop in and say hello and hope everybody is doing great!
I am trying to get through the rest of the week and stay as OP as possible. The weekend was really bad for me but Monday was a little better and yesterday was a lot better. I had a few treats, but I also got in an hour and a half of good hard exercise, and I ate all my fruits & veggies. I feel so much better today now that I am feeling normal again. I still have 2 more Christmas parties to get through Friday and Saturday. One is at my husband's grandmother's house and the other one is my Mom's Christmas here at my house. I stay out of the kitchen all year long but I always make desserts and goodies for my Mom's Christmas and my sister's have been making requests for weeks already so I am busy making things that I shouldn't touch.
It looks like we are all back here again and that's a good first step. So far today is OP. I'm going back to fitday, which is always a big help because it's hard to avoid a calorie number.
When I look in the mirror when I am OP, I can tolerate how I look. When I am off and I look, I just see all the fat.
Weird huh?
Laura
It isn't weird at all. When I was OP and losing, I noticed the possitives in the changes even though I was still overweight. When I went off and was eating all kinds of ick, I could hardly stand to see myself in the mirror and didn't even go near my scale.
I am still waiting for Michelle the caseworker to call me back.
Melissa
Does Michelle know that you want to keep Logan?
Has Kate lost permanent custody or Temp? They really do move fast in WA. In NY the child is 25 before the workers move their butts.
Laura
Laura, I am the same way with looking in the mirror! I can also tell if I am going to be up or down on the scale by how my waist feels. Sometimes if it's not a good waist day I will skip the scale altogether.
I was not good at the party last night, had 2 cheeseburgers and some chips. I didn't eat lunch and was starving, which is always a mistake for me. The scale is still the same, so I am back OP and making sure to get back on the exercise schedule again. I made up a new one last night and it starts today! I don't feel good when I don't exercise, so I will feel better by the end of the day.
Kay, I am glad Christmas is over for me...good luck with your last two parties! I would be a bloated balloon if I had all the parties you do!
Yes Michelle knows I want custody in the event that Kate was not found fit or blew it. Kate was all in a panic because the new guy being tested as Logan's father said he was going to sign rights over to David-told Kate he couldn't do that and to relax about it. I am not letting David anywhere near this baby or the one she is carrying if I have any say over it. It looks from what I got from Katy last night it is permanent. Once you have a dependency hearing, you don't get any chances to mess up. It is your one shot to prove to the state that you are capable of caring for your kids. She went to jail-all done as far as I know. That is why I am waiting to hear from Michelle to see about my getting permanent custody of him and if it is going to take a bit, I am I allowed to let Katy come see the kids at my house or does she still have to go to their office. I don't want to be breaking any rules and mess up things for Logan. Washington is really rigid when it comes to child welfare and child support. I guess Kate lost her driving privilages because of the support she owes for the girls and my ex is driving without his lisence too.
I am with ya'll about Christmas over! We don't do anything for New Years so that won't be an issue for me either unless I make one for myself which I am not going to do. I am even hoping to get decorations put away today so I can start getting the house back our normal.
Melissa
I too am SO glad Christmas is over. I just want to curl up on the couch and take a nap
I hope the case worker gets back to you ASAP Melissa- poor kate- she must be so scared about this guy who i can't believe they let out after all his priors?? can she look inot an order of Protection against him? although that could make him mad - but if he came around her he'd go back to jail. sometimes you can't seem to win in these situations.
Not weird at all- when i look in the mirror I get upset when i am not OP too .thinking why aren't you doing something about it? I always feel i know what to do and how to do it- it's just actually doing it. follwing through i guess.
Kayelle - Finally got to take 5 and see the pics and WOW! you are such an inspiration and what a success! I am so amazed - in awe-
Ya done good !
I am waiting for my books and DVD to get delivered they shipped Monday so they should be here Friday or Saturday i hope.
New years is going to be quiet- we turned down parties - too many drunk people and too loud not my type of music ( i am getting old )
We have gift certificates to a couple places in town so we may order out and we'll order a couple movies - we are old and boring
Ok Theresa- we're on for 15 pounds for Feb. -we can do that- especially as much as you exercise- Just keep at me and i'll exercise too- and Melissa you're gonna hit ONederland faster than i make feb. goal! I really feel good about all of this and we can be successful!
Crockpots are WONDERFUL little pieces of kitchen equipment - no home with children should be w/o one! I have a link to a site that has great WW crock pot recipes- it's on my computer at work tho i'll get it tomorrow and send it to you Melissa
Okay Sandi, you're on for 15 lbs. We can do it, just get moving. Tomorrow is grocery shopping and I can get all OP foods and get back to it. I did some exercise today, but feel I am not as in shape as I was before Christmas, it tired me out quicker and I didn't feel so light and peppy. I just need to do the strength and pilates and get loosened up again.
I am still sick in a way. My nose is draining down my throat so I still sound like a croaking frog when I talk. Tyler's nose is draining out and running everywhere...why does mine have to be internally runny? No fair. Well, rather me than the little guy, want to get it out of him.
I am going to do the gazelle during Montel...if the kids allow it, they are quietly playing in their rooms right now but watch, soon as I step on the thing they come out crying for something God bless Christmas toys, it has been keeping them nice and occupied today.
I am going to the grocery store Friday afternoon so i can get OP foods too- I wish i could go tomorrow but no time i hate going on a friday afternoon - I want to go to super wallyworld or target as they have whole chickens for 69 cents a pound, (great for crock pots or roasting) and their yougurt is so cheap too. and eggs- since when did eggs get so expensive? regular store is 1.19 a dozen and at wally world it's 88 cents a dozen!
Right now it's slim pickings around here- I am watching portion control tho and i made chili tonight with leftover white meat ground turkey and they didn't even realize it I just browned it really well and hid anything that could have given it away - I am so sneaky!
I did have a non scale victory today ! I was so stressed out by work that i really thought about grabbing junk out of the kitchen - but i broke open my snack bag of carrots and celery instead- i also realized that i was stress/emotional eating and not really hungry. I need to clean out my fridge at work so i can fill it up with water and good stuffs.
Work was unreal today- i have the type of job where i have to depend on everyone to get me info so i can do my work- unfortunatly I have to deal with people that aren't getting me information- this puts me behind. and i hate to be behind on jobs! I will be glad when holidays are over and i can get back on a normal schedule
I tried to exercise tonight and got about a half hour but i too feel blah instead of good afterwards. sigh -now i know what happens when one slacks off on exercise- it's gonna hurt
Quote from Melissa:
"I think that is the difference between those who do lose their weight and those that don't. You just can't give up EVER. "
This is now my new motto- it just clicked with me - it's now hanging in a place of honor in my motivational area- along with candace's description of a poptart! Thank you Melissa!
Well i am off to read another few pages of GWTW
have a good night all!
Sandi
to you for having to deal with MIL and SIL so soon after Christmas?
and just enough $$- i am such a penny pincher. I told hubby we really needed to shop at Super walmart or Super target. it does really save a lot of money- i am always amazed at the price differences. I will always be a penny pincher/coupon clipper- i enter every contest i can 
can't win if ya don't enter. - I keep saying if i could fit into smaller sizes i can shop at the outlet stores and save $$$ 
where's my bed? 
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at me and i'll exercise too- and Melissa you're gonna hit ONederland faster than i make feb. goal! I really feel good about all of this and we can be successful!
! I was so stressed out by work that i really thought about grabbing junk out of the kitchen - but i broke open my snack bag of carrots and celery instead- i also realized that i was stress/emotional eating and not really hungry. I need to clean out my fridge at work so i can fill it up with water and good stuffs. 
