Day 10 down!!!
Thanks Red, the kind words were much needed and very appreciated today!! I woke up feeling real crabby again today, it`s like PMS but that makes no sense, that was last week.... Anyway, managed to get on the elliptical although I was in no mood, but I know I cant break this habit now, so I did 43 minutes. The rest of the day slowly improved, less aggrevated and more relaxed. Cooked dinner for the kids and just got done with the step tape (yay). I was in no shape to do it lastnight, so instead did some strength exercises and bellydancing.
I started taking a multivitamin on Tues. I know I need it. I was pretty queesy yesterday for hours after taking it, but today was much better. My body must be saying "Hey what are you doing making me move so much? wheres my sugar and grease?!!!)
I`m trying to get through the bad body image thing... I know the weight is falling off, I had to put my wedding ring away yesterday because it is too loose on my finger. I`ve stayed off the scale since Tues, and don`t want to get on til next Tues. I`ve really grown out of the scale addiction phase, thankfully. But I count the days til weigh in day! No doubt!
I read a post earlier, cant remember where or by who, but she made a great point that I think is what I`m going through. When you start to lose the weight and you`re living healthier, you stop looking at your body through those rose colored glasses. You really see it for what it is. I convinced myself for YEARS, especially the last few years, that I`m a big girl, always gonna be, I`ve destroyed my body so it`ll never get in shape now. My husband loves me so what`s the big deal. I hate exercise so I can never do it. My butt ain`t THAT big.

I can live with it. I`m pretty healthy. All those wonderful things I told myself that kept me fat, those are all gone. Now I see myself and how big and out of shape I am. My butt IS that big. I cant live with it, not happily anyway, and definetely not healthy. My husband sure loves me, but I dont love myself. So when I look at myself now, instead of the "positive lies" I`d tell myself, I`m telling myself the truth.
I see all the GARBAGE I was consuming, just the coke and pepsi alone counted for almost a whole days of calories! Not counting food! I did this to myself, and now this is the body I have made.
Now it`s time to re-make it the best I can.
Okay, I`m better now! Red, I remembered your post all through-out the day whenever I started feeling really down. You`re a great person and wonderful motivator, and I`m just happy to be part of this with you!
jkg- Great job!!!
Turtle, mscat, trixie, curly

You`re all doing great!